I'm not crazy, and I'm not making it up. I don't expect anyone to believe me. But I have to type this, even though I know I'm not supposed to; maybe it's happened to someone before. I can't be the only one.
My name is Adrienne, and I'm twenty four years old. I live alone in California and I used to do data entry for a large firm. The art major didn't work out. I make extra money on the side doing photo shoots and little bits of modelling, for local advertisers. Some of it's... risquΓ©. Not quite porn but.... I mean data entry jobs are getting harder to find. I don't like the modelling work but there are a couple of guys who can always work me into their projects if I ask nicely. But each time they come through, the job is a little more... I don't want to do porn.
I have a small apartment in a poorer part of town. It's not that bad. The people in the neighborhood are pretty decent and they watch out for me. I invested in an extra lock on my door and the windows are barred; it's an old building, but built when the town was better off, so it's nicer than it might have been.
My boyfriend took a job in Texas. I already know it's not going to work out. Maybe it was never going to, but already he's not calling as often. I have friends, mostly people from school; and I see them on weekends. My family is out East.
I'm kind of a neat freak. My apartment is super-organized; my friends laugh at it. The apartment is full of nooks and little places to store things, shelves and bookcases from the days when people built all that into their rooms, and I have art projects from school on display and things from my boyfriend's archeological projects; arrowheads, some pottery and carved onyx from Mexico. I mean I had to do something with the bookshelves; I don't have that many actual books.
So it jumped out at me when I saw a book on a shelf that I hadn't put there.
It was Wednesday, April sixteenth. I remember because it was the morning after the lunar eclipse, which I hadn't known about beforehand; it kind of creeped me out when I looked out the window that night. Things were dark and red; I decided I didn't like it and went to bed a little early.
The next morning I dragged myself into the living room and made coffee, and saw the book and inkwell.
I stared at them. No one had been over last night and they definitely weren't mine. I walked over. The inkwell had ink in it, a strange rusty-brown liquid. I sniffed at it. It had a faint, sharp smell.
They were old β the inkwell was pottery and looked right at home with some of my boyfriend's finds from Europe. The book was nothing like I'd ever seen before β a thick leather cover, worn in many places, and the back cover was stiff and looked like it had been burned. It had rough cut pages that were dusky yellow with age. There was a title that had once been done in gilt, but it was worn off and just a few flecks remained. I turned it over in my hands; it was heavy and dusty, but well stitched, not falling apart.
Had my boyfriend been by? That wasn't possible. He was on a future oil site in Texas, digging around for Indian stuff. And he didn't have a key anymore.
I opened the book at random. The page was blank. I frowned, and flipped backwards. All blank.
Until the first page. There were a few words, in dark reddish-brown, formal, ornate, handwritten lettering, at the top of the page:
You have been chosen.
I stared at it. What the hell?
Some kind of prank, right? One of my friends thought the art and antiques were weird, probably, and had snuck this in here. Somehow. Except I'd dusted these shelves two days ago and this hadn't been there and no one had been over since...
Seriously, what was going on? Kristen, maybe. She had a weird sense of humor. But how?
Well, if it was Kristen, I'd play her weird little game. There wasn't a pen with the inkwell, but I grabbed a regular pen from my purse and scribbled below the words:
Yay! Did I win a cruise?
My writing looked clumsy and uneven compared to the ornate print above it. People don't write like that anymore. I mean people don't write anymore at all, they type.
I shook my head, and pulled out my phone and texted Kristen.
Did you leave a book here?
She responded almost instantly.
Book? Like paper? No. I have a Kindle. Why would I bring a book over there?
I just... frowned, and put the book back on the shelf. Weirdest prank ever. But I had to get to work.
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At work I got selected for a trial project β they were trying out new software. It became apparent very quickly that the new software existed to automate my job, and once they had it working, a bunch of us were going to be unemployed. I wasn't exactly shocked; I'd seen this before. I mean, I'm not stupid. NaΓ―ve, maybe, but not stupid. I knew career change was inevitable. I just didn't like the most likely option for my next career. Maybe I could learn to write software; they seem to be the guys that get to take everyone else's jobs away.
Lunch was depressing. I made sure all my coworkers knew about the trial project and what it meant.
By three o'clock the software and I β by which I mean the software β had done three days of work. The guy in charge was very pleased, and told me I could have the rest of the day off while they made some final adjustments.
Yeah. I walked out in a funk. I've learned something: when your job gets easy, it's never a good thing. The timing couldn't have been worse; my finances were in a decline. Bob, my soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend, had been helping out on food and car maintenance more than I realized.
I hiked down the walkway and over the bridge towards the parking lot, which was across the highway. The parking lot had always struck me as a noir art project, a concrete example of negative space β it was cracked, faded asphalt, surrounded by decaying chain link fence and razor wire, but the exit to the access road no longer had a gate, so the razor wire didn't accomplish anything positive. There were weeds and broken glass and oil stains, and a faded aluminum sign that said "Parking for Employees for Metracorp ONLY", which wasn't the name of the current company. If you were trying to convey the sense that the people who parked there weren't important, it would have been hard to do better. The crowning touch was the small arrangement of flowerpots along one edge of the lot; someone had tried to bring color here once, but the plants were long dead and two of the flower pots were broken; another had rusted out. Flower pots that can rust β what a clever design.
I turned left and walked along the edge of the lot, listening to cars fly by on the highway just a few feet away. People going places, doing important things. I spotted my car and turned towards it, sighing.
I don't know exactly what happened, since I was walking away, but there was a bang, a screech, and the sudden blowing of truck horns, terrifyingly loud and sudden β and a horrific crashing, tearing noise, followed by a series of smashes and horns blowing. I looked behind me, saw a jack-knifing truck crashing through the fence towards me, I screamed, stumbled, crashed to the ground-
Broken glass, everywhere, and hot metal scraping over my leg. More crashes and the scream of tortured metal, but that was back on the highway. It look me a long time β I guess, I was confused and stunned β to sort out what had happened.
I'd run between two cars, tripped, and the truck had rolled over me. The two cars I'd been between had been smashed almost flat but between them they'd kept the truck from crushing me as well. There was glass everywhere and my leg was going to bruise but except for a cut on the back of my hand I seemed to be... fine?
I smelled gas, and looked down. A spreading puddle. Fuck, gas β bad, that's
bad
β
I got up and ran. A few seconds behind me, there was a quiet foosh, and the space I'd been in caught fire. It didn't burn as fast or furiously as it did in the movies.
On the highway there was a pileup of damage. I couldn't be here, I had to leave, people were dying here. I bolted for my car, staggered into it, left... the access road dumped me on to the highway, downstream of the accident.
Looking behind me, I'd clearly been on the edge of a horrific pileup. Holy shit β the truck driver. The cab had been smashed and I hadn't seen anyone get out, and then a fire... Go back? I'd have to loop around and there'd be that traffic jam. No, call the police! But even as I reached for my phone, I could see the flashing lights in the mirror, off in the distance.
I put the phone down, and shook. I shouldn't even be alive. If the metal had twisted differently I wouldn't be. If I hadn't tripped and fallen flat I wouldn't be. If I hadn't noticed the gas I wouldn't be. Holy
shit.
I was still shaking when I got to my apartment. If anything, worse. I sat on the sofa, took off my shoes β I have to do this when I get to my apartment, I don't know why β and tried not to think too much.