Cin's Story
Cin was born in the living room of a tenant farmhouse in a small mid-western community. Being born at home was fairly common back in mid 1930's. It was more common if you lived in a small community, and even more common if your home was some distance away from a major city hospital. Her father farmed. Her early years were spent on that farm and she remembers well the farm hands, the tenant farmers, the time requirements and constraints of being a farmer, the lack of being able to earn a decent living being a tenant farmer, and the mating of the animals. The mating of the animals she found fascinating. It was a lonely existence, however, as her one sibling, a brother, didn't come along until several years later. She entertained herself watching the farm hands work, playing house with her dolls, and, being the first girl born to the family in two generations, enjoyed being the center of attention.
Like most girls, Cin would begin to discover her sexuality at an early age. It is said that for some kids that age can be as young as age 3, and most often it is earlier for girls than for boys. For Cin it was about age 6. One day her finger found that "touchy feely" place between her legs and in touching herself she quickly realized the delightful sensations that ensued. Playing with her vagina became a regular ritual, one that would follow her through all her school years and right up to, and often during, her marriage. And she discovered, back on that farm, that if she climbed up in the hayloft, she could lie in the hay, slide her hand down into her panties, and play away to her hearts content. Her mother had caught her doing it once in the living room and had disciplined her. Up in the hayloft, no one ever knew. It became her secret place.
At age five she had started school. It was a typical country school with all grades, one through eight, grouped together in one large classroom. She was only in school there for her first two years. Then her dad, unable to make a satisfactory living for his family had moved them to a larger city in their state where he took a job working in a defense plant. World War II had started the year before with the bombing of Pearl Harbor. Her father was exempt from the service, at first due to being a farmer, and that exemption continued because he worked in the defense industry.
Like every other person in America during the war, Cin did without. By the time the war ended, she was in the 5th grade. She remembers the celebrations and the re-introduction of bubble gum, a big event to a young girl. You could now buy tires for your car, gasoline was no longer rationed, and women were standing in line to buy nylon stockings, something they had done without during the long war years. And, best of all, the GI's were coming home. Along the way, Cin was maturing into womanhood. In the sixth grade her breasts began to form and a year later she had her first period. By ninth grade and entering high school the next year, she was nicely developed for a girl of her age.
By all comparison, Cin was a very late starter in the dating department. I have often wondered why, but the more I understand human nature from back in those days, the more I realize that it was probably her choice of friends that ended up having a lot to do with it. If you were good friends with people who dated a lot, attractive people who got asked out a lot, you often ended up being asked out too. You were invited out on double dates. I like to refer to is as getting "dragged along socially!" The other guys in their group asked you out because they didn't want to not have a date when all their friends had one. This was especially true for special school events. But, when your close friends didn't date much, didn't get asked out them selves, you lost that "getting dragged along" advantage.
I look back on my high school years and note the number of girls who were not attractive, some even overweight, and yet seemed to have lots of dates. I realize now that their best friends, the other girls they hung out with, were socially very active. They had the advantage of what I have also dubbed "dating fallout!"
Cin's three closest and very best friends, the four of them inseparable since their early grade school years, unfortunately were not very dateable during their high school years. Nice girls! Good best friend material! Based on what I have since seen and learned they were not girls that I, for instance, would myself have called up and asked out for a date. Nothing wrong with them! Just don't perceive them as dating material! The high school was large and there would have been too many others to pick from. So Cin didn't get to enjoy the advantage of dating fallout.
In addition, in my opinion and based various high school pictures that I have seen of her, Cin wore the completely wrong hair style for the shape of her face and maybe also needed some help in the wardrobe selection department. Her clothes were always clean and nice and of good quality, but never flattered or showed off her greatest asset, her great body! If anything, her choice of conservative clothing combined with the wrong hairstyle probably served to actually detracted from her natural beauty and attractiveness. In other words, she knew nothing about selling herself! By college she had shortened her hairstyle and was making better wardrobe choices. She looked much more attractive in her college pictures as compared to her high school pictures. She showed more cleavage, for instance, with her choices of blouses. Good cleavage is a natural man attractor! Instead of floppy skirts, her pictures show her in more form fitting ones, skirts that show off her hips in a positive manner. She had learned to promote herself better.
Also Cin is one of those persons who actually grow more attractive as they mature. I could see that going back to her 10th and 15th high school reunions with her. Many of the so called "hot" girls of her class were already beginning to deteriorate badly. They had reached their attractiveness peek back in their high school years. Many of the so called "homelier" girls of her class were now quite attractive. Their beauty years just came later in their lives as they matured.
But Cin's biggest benefit in college was that she roomed with two girls who themselves were very active socially. So, she started dating much more frequently, doubling with her roommates, getting fixed up, and growing in her social confidence. The combination of all these changes in her lifestyle probably resulted in her getting asked out more often, and she enjoyed a normal college social life.