Walking into a place as familiar to me as my own home, I paused and took the time to thoroughly survey my domain - noting the obvious couples; nervous first dates, anxious blind dates, and the settled in pairs that were paying more attention to their cellphones than the person sitting across from them - and the singles; men and women on the prowl, and on Valentine's Day of all times. My eyes met the gaze of the bartender, since the servers were too busy to do more than take orders and deliver them - before they congregated together at the end of the bar to bemoan their luck at working on this tragically romantic holiday, and he mirrored my smirk with a subtle nod toward the back of the room.
I skirted the tables holding couples, ignored the women entirely and any male form that was attempting to emit any form of pseudo alpha male energy, weaving with purpose toward a table and its occupant that would be easily overlooked - so quiet and shuttered both were. A simple white button down, and large hands wrapped around a gleaming glass of amber liquid, owned by a man whose wary gaze locked on my approach. Wondering if I'd only see the bob of his Adam's apple when I drew closer, or if I'd win the gift of hearing an audible gulp - the smug curve of my lips grew into a smile.
His hand raised the glass as I took my final steps toward him, my grin growing as he covered any overt anxiety with a careful sip of liquor - stealing the noise I'd earned, but I was certain I'd find a way to repay the loss.
"May I join you?" He glances around the room, wondering if I'm confused about who I'm meeting - a valid theory given the date. "I'm not meeting anyone," my amusement laces my words and his eyes meet mine fleetingly before resettling on his drink. "If I stay standing for much longer, I'm sure the other customers are going to think you're turning me down -" his eyes meet mine again, wide and a hint of a blush starts to creep up his cheeks. "Or that I'm waiting for you to say the magic word to get me to open this coat and start a strip tease." A choked gasp escapes from his lips and I bite my lip. "So may I?" I flick a look at the empty seat next to him and he nods. "Thank you -" I wait, and he jumps to his feet, sliding the chair back so I can sit.
I take my time, not removing my coat, and lean back enough as I do to graze the whitened knuckles of his hands as I slide into place. My ears pick up the sharp inhale behind me as he pushes my chair in gently - and wait again as he takes his own seat, that he's moved a subtle few inches away from my own.
"All alone on Cupid's big night?" I ask, raising a hand to gesture for a server to come take my drink order, but the bartender is more efficient and knowing my order he's already loaded her tray with it and a refill for my new - acquaintance. Smiling at the girl who sits both down and assuring her that all I want is a drink, I focus my attention back on the man seated next to me, whose eyes are once again trained on his glass. "Oh, come now, it can't be that miserable."
A breath of a laugh escapes him, like every ounce of his strength is intent on keeping him and his emotions locked up nice and tight. "Do I look miserable to you?" His eyes find mine, or at least my face and he shakes his head. "Why did you pick my table?" Glancing around the room, clearly uncomfortable with direct eye contact - something I added to a growing list of things we'd need to work on - he scanned the room as I had upon entering, landing on the single guys scattered around the room, and far more open to company than he wanted everyone to believe.
"Which shall I answer first?" Taking a sip from my glass and letting the tart taste be chased by the gentle burn of the alcohol, I waited, and waited. My eyes were locked on him, not his face since he'd gone straight back to staring at his glass once he made certain he wasn't the only unattached man in the room.
He broke first, which he'd soon learn would be a pattern in our time together. "Why did you pick my table?" Ah, he wasn't sure if he wanted to know if he looked miserable - a resounding yes, by the way, but rather why I chose him out of the offerings on full display.
I take another drink, rolling the liquid around my mouth as I consider my words, the answer simple enough and swallow before licking my lips. "I'll happily answer your question, but only if you look at me while I do so." Eye contact, after all, is so important to forge a connection. Once his eyes meandered to mine, I smiled and waited for some hint of emotion to cross his face. I was rewarded with a half smile, which was something at least. "Isn't this better? While I'm sure your drink is complimented by your attention, I think I'm more likely to show my pleasure a touch more easily." I didn't hear the swallow, but the bob in his throat informed me that I'd managed to breach a bit of his fortress. "You want to know why I chose you," I refused to allow him to depersonalize my choice by making it about a table. "Because you look -" he tensed, from his shoulders to his hands, "like you would be better company than anyone else here."
Expecting a snort or a sign of derision, I'm pleasantly surprised when he simply inhales deeply and meets my eyes without a reminder. "I'm not sure you're right about that." He offers, shaking his head. "It's be a rough -"
My fingers touch his hand and he goes quiet. "Regardless of how things have been, let's push that away for at least tonight," I have a good feeling about this one, breaking down his walls sounds like a wonderful pastime. One that I plan on taking great pride and delight in doing before molding him into a perfect little - but if I'm pressing for him to leave his bad lot behind us, then I need to keep my plans at bay until I have his agreement, otherwise it's a pipedream that gets me - us - nowhere.
He doesn't twitch under my touch, only relaxing further and I bite my lip to keep from letting a laugh slip out. Poor thing, he only needs a little guidance to get to where he needs to be. "So I should just forget about -"
"Everything," assurances are important and so is the promise of something to replace what's left behind. "Just be in the moment with me, for now." Yes, for now, because later, not too much later, he'll be locked into more than a single moment. "How does that sound -" I allow a small huff of a laugh to breach my lips and his eyes leave mine to track where it escaped. "You know, I haven't a clue what to call you."