I was safer in groups. I turned my attention to the conversation at hand and I laughed when everyone else laughed. I gave my opinion when expected. But every time I glanced up at you, you were staring right at me. It made my skin crawl. It made my heart pound. My palms were sweating despite the cool autumn air, and I found myself constantly focusing on a piece of fuzz on my sweatshirt, or an imaginary fleck of dirt under my fingernail.
At one point I stared back, forcing myself to not flinch. You stared right back at me, gaze steady and unflinching. What the hell were you doing? We had talked about this. I wasn't comfortable with the whole situation, and despite mutual attraction, I wasn't ready. But you were unrelenting. You were pushing my buttons, and I knew it. Trying to show me that I was ready. Forcing me to be ready. You bastard. I just wanted to be left alone. I just wanted you all over me. I looked away.
At some point someone commented that it was getting a little too cold out, and that we should move our group inside. I was on the far side of the deck, furthest from the door. I tried to get up quickly without looking like I was getting up quickly, but everyone else in front of me was meandering and blocking my way. I didn't need to turn around to know you were behind me. I swear I could feel the heat radiating off of you and into the backs of my thighs, my ass, my back, and my neck. I shivered, but remained diligent and facing the door we were all herding towards.
Someone in front of me stumbled backwards a little, and I fell back into you. I shook off the hands that steadied me, I flushed a little in anger. I was almost inside and could disappear into the crowd again. Right before I could step through the doorway, you grabbed my arm and pulled me back. In one swift motion you closed the door behind the person that was in front of me and pushed me back against the brick surface of the house.
Your lips were on mine before I could voice my protest, and I tried to push you away from me. You didn't expect the strength behind my first push, and it broke you away from me for an instant. Your face looked determined and angry as you pushed me back against the wall, rougher this time, and pinned me with your body as you brought your lips back against mine. I was letting out small sounds of protest which seemed to make you even more determined, and I writhed and pushed against you as hard as I could, to no avail.
My head was swimming. I could feel every part of you that was pushed up against me like it was on fire, and soon I stopped resisting. I started to kiss you back, and opened my mouth to feel your tongue slide into it. You groaned when you felt me submit, and your hands slid up my arms and shoulders to take ahold of my head, lightly tilting my head this way and that in order to deepen our kisses.
I moaned into your mouth and moved my hands from your chest, that I was just moments ago pushing against with all my might, to slide my hands under your opened jacked and around to your back. I was trying to pull you even closer to me, and started to dig my nails into your shirt and back. I felt you jerk against me when my nails took hold, and as I slowly scraped them from your shoulder blades and down your back I felt you shiver.
You broke away from the kiss, leaving me gasping as you took ahold of my wrist and started to make your way across the deck, down the steps, and into the woods that bordered the property. You were taking big strides, and soon we were making our way in the woods. I was stumbling behind you, and for a moment I came to my senses. I tried to pull away from you, and your hand tightened on my wrist as you whirled around and pushed me against a tree. You attacked my mouth again, and this time I didn't resist at all. Your tongue glided against mine in deep and long strokes, making my stomach tingle and burst into flame. I wrapped my arms over your shoulders and around your neck as you pushed into me, your hands digging into the sides of my thighs and taking a firm hold of my ass.