37-year-old Camilla was reliving, in another out-of-body vision, a memory twelve years before the incubus gang-bang ordeal her naked body was still suffering in the public aquarium in Montreal, an ordeal that was now beginning its second week.
In this memory vision,
Camilla was twenty-five at the time, but looking twenty-one because of Nigrovum's slowing of her ageing process. She, in her 'Goth' look, went into her six-year-old son's bedroom on Sunday afternoon in late September. She was shocked to see how he was dressed. He was in a pink dress and girls' black shoes, and he had clumsily applied her makeup all over his face!
"Eros!" she yelled. "Why are you dressed like that?"
"You like boys dressed like girls," Eros said. "And I wanted to please you."
Remembering her sexual meaning whenever she spoke of 'wanting to please' someone, and psychically knowing he had the same meaning, Camilla felt a chill from the sound of his words.
"Baby," she asked, "you used your power to make Emily buy those clothes for you, didn't you?"
"Yes," he said, looking down at the floor in shame.
Kneeling before him, she said, "OK, sweetie, get out of those clothes."
"But Mommy, I thought you'd like this."
"Not on my son. You're dressing like a boy, and
only
like a boy." She used a cloth to wipe the makeup off his face while he reluctantly took off the dress. He was even wearing girls' panties! "Oh, Eros! That's disgusting!"
He began sobbing. "B-but, those men you like w-wear girls' underwear."
She held his cheeks in her hands and looked in his eyes. "Baby, mothers and sons cannot be lovers. People in families can't be boyfriends and girlfriends."
"Why not, Mommy?"
Remembering her tragedy with her father, she looked away from Eros, and fighting back tears, answered, "Because that kind of love leads to t-terrible things." She looked back in his tear-filled eyes, and psychically began putting him into what psychoanalysts call the latency period, effectively ending his Oedipus complex...at least for the time being. She aimed her eyes straight at the boy's, and said,
"You will stop thinking about loving me, now."
"I will stop thinking about loving you, now,"
he said obediently, in a trance.
"You'll stop thinking about love,"
she said.
"I'll stop thinking about love."
"You'll stay uninterested in love and sex until you're a teenager."
"I'll stay uninterested in love and sex until I'm a teenager."
"And when you are interested in love again, you'll want
other
girls, not me."
"And when I am interested in love again, I'll want
other
girls, not you."
"Good boy," she said, then finished removing the makeup and changing him back into boy's clothes. She left him to play with his toys, then went into her bedroom.
She sat on her bed.
Poor Danny and Brian,
she thought;
both of them died earlier this year, because my Nigrovum drove them crazy. All of this craziness is my fault. It's all got to stop. Way too many people have died. If Eros dies from it, too, I won't be able to bear it; I'm amazed I've been able to go on after losing both Candice and Daddy. I must put an end to my sexual promiscuity; but sex just gets more and more addictive, with every new lover I have.
Between all my sexual conquests and my graduate research, I'm completely neglectful of Eros,
Camilla continued in her remorseful meditation.
I have my MA, and I'm beginning work on my PhD thesis, but surely by now, at twenty-five, I've finished sowing my wild oats. Eros has no father, but he needs one. And it's high time I got a husband.
A father will discipline my boy,
she went on in her thoughts;
identification with a father figure should end his Oedipus complex for good. The obligation to be a good wife and family woman should discipline me, and help me calm my nymphomania down. At least I have to try to calm it down. Maybe if I mediate on spiritual things, as Ravinder used to advise me to do, I can get Nigrovum to help clean the slut out of me.
The man I choose will have to be great in bed,
she thought.
He'll have to keep me satisfied, so I won't cheat on him. He'll have to have a lot of Daddy's personality, as well as the physicality of Danny, Sean, and those other sexy boys I've enjoyed over the years. I'll put out psychic feelers all over the York campus tomorrow; then when I've made a choice, I'll reel him in. He'll see me nude in
Club Ritz
, he won't be able to resist me, and we'll get married.
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