I run down the street, feet slapping the sidewalk, breath rushing through me.
I hadn't wanted to miss the first band but the train was delayed and I now was in danger of missing you, the one I'd come all this way to see.
I catch sight of the venue ahead and relief, followed by adrenaline, rushes through me. I rummage through my bag and find the ticket, still running. My watch says 7.55 when I finally reach the door. The bouncer grins and checks my ticket "You're just in time miss" I gasp my thanks and push inside, checking my bag at the cloakroom. I don't want anything to get in the way tonight.
The venue is small and crowded, walls painted matt black and slapped with tattered posters. The lights are dim but the stage was still empty as I walk into the main room. Sweaty black clad people stand and chat, holding cans of lager and smoking. I take a deep breath, inhaling the smells, smoke, sweat, spilled beer and stage smoke. The bar is busy and I push my through to buy a drink, downing it quickly to soothe my thirst.
I check my watch again. 8.15. Slipping through the crowd, I scan for the best spot. I don't want to be crushed against the barrier, I needed to move, so I place myself around two rows back, in the centre, with a good view of where you will be. Moments later the lights go down and the crowd press around me, hot sweaty bodies on all sides, whistles and shrieks in my ears. The blackness is soft, velvet on my eyes. My skin hums under it.
Your voice comes at me out of that velvet darkness, rough and sweet, and my stomach turns over. The music starts, first guitar, ripping the air, then bass and drums, throwing the people round me up into the air, roars out of their throats. And then your voice, tearing through the speakers, making the crowd surge forward. This is it. The stage fills with light and there you are, tight black jeans, black t shirt and long hair, one foot up on the monitor, leaning out over the crowd as you sing . I scream along with them, arms stretched out towards you, willing you to notice me as you scan the crowd with your deep brown eyes. You do. Your eyes catch mine and you stop, just for a second, but you take me in, seeing me. I feel the blood rush to my head as you gaze, singing out to me, throwing your hair over your shoulder, pushing your body forwards, that smile playing across your lips. Then you're gone, running over the stage, leaping, jumping. All the time that voice pouring out of you and into the crowd. Two songs go by, three, brief, raw, buzzing with sex, and the crowd is getting wild.
This is different, unlike any show I've ever been to. There's sex in the air. I watch you, see you watch the crowd, smile at our need for you. You're stirring us up, urging us to sing with you, to scream for you. We comply, willingly, our bodies pressed together in one shifting mass, hips against asses, hands on bare skin. You catch my eye again and grin, your eyes flashing, your face full of arousal. I watch you, trying to see if it's just for me, you're pointing, singing your words out to the crowd but you keep coming back to look straight at me. The song ends and you step back, tearing off your tshirt and tucking it into your waistband. You run your hand over your chest, caressing yourself, fingers moving through the hair there and down, over your stomach and into your jeans. My heart is racing, my body sweating, reacting to the look in your eyes, the movement of your half naked body. I reach to you but you're too far away. You laugh, and stand straight, throwing your hair back, gesturing to the crowd.
Now people around me are throwing off their clothes too, a girl beside me is in just her bra and shorts, a man kissing her neck as she writhes to the music. The man in front of me pulls off his tshirt and throws it on stage, his tattooed back gleaming as he punches the air. Now suddenly everywhere I look people are getting undressed, dropping tshirts and bras, unbuttoning jeans. The couple next to me, he has his hand in her bra and she's pressing back into his crotch, his hard cock clearly visible in his jeans. I watch as he pulls her bra down, her nipples hard under his fingers, sweat running down over her breasts, her mouth open, head back.