There are butterflies in my stomach as I light candles and incense to perfume the room. I look at the picture of your smiling face on my shelf, and feel my heart open.
My phone rings and I know it means you're on your way. I pull the headband out of my hair and shake it down – I know you like it that way. I smooth down the purple satin gown I'm wearing – I know purple is your favorite color, and go to the kitchen to pour us some coffee.
As I'm in the kitchen, I feel you at the door, and I go to open it. You smile at me with those lovely blue eyes and I invite you in. When I close the door, you turn to me and slide your hands around my waist. I bury my face in your neck and inhale the scent of your skin.
"Would you like some coffee?" I ask.
"Of course, thank you," you reply and relax gracefully onto the sofa.
We sit and talk for a while about how our day has gone and what our plans are for the week. But in the back of my mind, and lower in my body, I can feel the energy curling up, building simply because I'm near you and your energy connects with mine.
"What?" you ask me, with a small smile playing on your lips.
You look at me with desire in your eyes. You can feel me. You can see right through me. The knowledge of that makes me sigh deeply and close my eyes. I lie back on the sofa with you, curling my head into your chest. You kiss the top of my head, run your hand through my hair and your nails down my neck. I feel my skin heat up with the contact. I slide my hand under your shirt, feeling the softness of your skin on my fingertips. You relax into me and sigh.
"Would you like to meditate for a while," I ask you, motioning to the pallet I've made on the floor.
You nod and rise, taking my hand and leading me to stand next to you. You take my face in your hands and gently lay your forehead to mine – connecting with me, and we both open our energy. I put my arms around your waist and relax into the moment. You stand back and look at me, complimenting the color of my gown. I smile – because you know I chose it for you.
I reach over and pull your shirt up over your head and drop it to the floor. Sliding down to my knees, I open your belt and slide your pants off your legs. You're wearing silk boxer shorts. I rub my cheeks against the fabric, and then remove those as well. Tracing the line of your body with small kisses, I rise again to look into your eyes.
You pull my hair to the side and kiss my neck and shoulder, sliding one of the straps of my gown down my arm. You pull the other one down and let the gown drop to my feet. We both go down to our knees, and you glide your hands over my body, lightly running your nails down my skin. With our arms around each other, looking into one another's eyes, we greet each other with "Namaste."
Lying next to each other, I feel you reach for my hand. As our fingers interlace, I feel the intense connection of melting into you. I can feel our energy mingling. You're inside me...I'm inside you...and we both breathe deeply. Slow, deep breaths. And being with you, breathing into you, just like this, is ecstatic.
I close my eyes, and breathe into my heart center. Opening to you, knowing that everything I am, I share with you. I let that energy move over you, sliding through your chakras, one by one, letting you feel the breeze of my energy inside of you. You hold my hand more tightly, and I feel the ripples of your energy go through me, like water under my skin. Floating in a sea of energy. I lose my 'self' – I exist only in this moment.
We turn and look into each other's eyes. We can both see the love without condition expressed to one another. Feel it like a feathery light around us. We embrace, and I can feel your love and desire – inside of me and out.
I'm already wet – I want you inside of me, outside of me, through me. I kiss your mouth gently, and you put your hands in my hair, pulling me to you. You kiss me, on my mouth, my cheeks, my eyes, my neck, and I wrap my arms around you, opening my energy to run over your skin as my nails glide down your back.
"I want you," you breathe into my mouth.