I remember walking into his office for the first time, determined to show this highly reputed English Literature tutor that I didn't need his help. My pushy father may have thought he could make me attend extra classes to get my degree but I was eighteen, an adult, so I didn't have to co-operate. Funny now when you think how things ended up.
This tutor was an older man in a smart suit, maybe early fifities, he shook my hand and told me, "Please call me Andrew." He had a buzzing energy about him that immediately melted my resentment. His was tall and broad but fit like a Rugby player, very short greying brown hair and soft twinkling brown eyes that I thought maybe flitted briefly over my breasts as he gestured with his large hands for me to sit down. He had a wide smile and confidence poured through his body language and voice, making me instantly at ease. "Can I get you a cup of tea?" he asked brightly and bounded over to the kettle in the corner to make my tea. As he chatted about his office, apologising for its state, I let my gaze pull away from him to take in the crowded bookshelves, sprawling plants interspersed with framed photos of an older woman and two different girls a little younger than me who I assumed to be his wife and daughters. A minature Rugby ball perched on the window sill.
I cradled the steaming mug he had passed to me and he sat opposite me, leaned forward and smiled kindly, "So tell me all about yourself, the books and poetry you're passionate about."
I found myself opening up like a flower in the sunshine, telling him things I hadn't really told anyone because no-one had bothered asking my thoughts and feelings. He made me feel so relaxed and at ease and seemed to drink in everything I said with genuine interest. I found myself feeling a surge of disappointment when our time was over and realised I hadn't felt this good about myself in a long time. As he showed me out, his hand briefly touched my arm, I met his gaze and felt a jolt of electricity in my chest that I quickly repressed.
As the weeks went past, I found myself counting the days til our weekly lesson. He was so much more entertaining than my college lecturers, he brought the books and poems alive and it was inpossible not to feel the same enthusiam he felt for them. He was like a drug I craved daily.
I don't know when exactly things shifted but suddenly I was lying awake late at night thinking about him. I would think of his large hands and find myself stroking my pussy lips and feeling breathless. In the shower I would imagine his wet naked body and find my fingers slipping inside me. Once after his lesson I ran into the ladies toilets, hurridly pulled down my panties and grabbed the small deoderant bottle from my bag. I imagined him pushing me against the wall, pushing his hard cock into me and I pushed the bottle inside my pussy, surprised at how easily it slid into me. As I pushed it in and out, deeper and deeper I imagined him fucking me hard, making me scream. In every lesson with him it was like the room was filled with elecric sexual tension but did he feel it too? I couldn't tell but it was beginning to consume me. I had never craved anyone like this before. I stopped wearing underwear to his lessons so I could run to the toilets and masturbate with the bottle more easily after each lesson.
Then it happened. We usually spent the last ten minutes of our sessions just chatting generally, it was my favourite time.
"Have you ever considered writing yourself?" he asked.
I wondered in that moment whether to hide my secret ambiiton but something inside me pushed me to open up to him and I confessed to him, "I would love to write erotic fiction."
His eyebrows raised in surprise and he broke into a smile, "Have you had much experience in real life?"
"Well... I've had sex twice, both times with guys my age but...I don't know if it felt how it was supposed to feel."
His eyes became more intense and he spoke softly, "Do you want me to help you with it?" My eyes locked into his and I nodded, not caring if he saw the desire in me laid bare. There was a loaded silence before he said softly, "You need to know how pleasure feels before you write about it."
His soft gaze sent flutters through my pussy.
"Please teach me," I whispered.
He smiled gently then slowly slowly leaned in and brushed his lips against mine. I gasped as our lips hesitantly touched so lightly then his lips were moving down my neck, like a feather caressing me. I exhaled with a moan, willing him to carry on to my breasts, my nipples tingling and stiffening in anticipation, but he pulled away gently, whispering, "We'll start learning next week."
The next week I arrived at the lesson trembling inside. I had been reliving that moment over and over in my mind, writhing in my bed, unable to sleep as the pent up desire crackled through me. I just needed to feel him inside me but I was always alone. I made up my mind that whatever was going to happen I would let it happen. The frustration was too much now.
The lesson began as normal and I struggled to focus. He seemed to be acting as if nothing had happened and I was too nervous to allude to it. Embarrassed about the feelings that had raged through me ever since I had felt his lips on me, I stayed quiet and fixated as much as I could on the words swimming in front of me. It was impossible though, I stole glances at him, those hands, his shirt buttons that could be ripped open in a second, the back of his neck inviting me to kiss it. It was torture.
Finally he anounced, "I think it's time I gave you your first lesson in erotic fiction, don't you?"
He moved his chair in front of mine and looked into my eyes.
"To write good erotic fiction you need to understand frustration, how it feels to hold back when your body is demanding to be satisfied."
He stood up purposely, asking me to stand with my legs apart and handed me an open paperback book that I recognised as a bestselling erotic fiction novel.
"Now read that aloud and no matter what happens, don't stop reading," he urged.
I began to read the words in front of me, then as I got towards the end of the page, he slowly knelt in front of me. His hands moved up my legs slowly and gently, grabbing hold of my skirt and raising it above my waist.
"Mmmmmm no panties," he murmured.
He looked up, noticing I'd stopped reading and I was breathing heavily in anticipation.