Chapter 4 is
here.
This is in the summer of 1974. The two main characters are students who will be going to different colleges but they live in the same building. Lenore has been instructing her boyfriend on sexual techniques. They use her apartment when her aunt is at work.
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I was aware of what Lenore's next steps might be for me the next time I was invited to her apartment. I was excited, but I was more than a bit nervous about the anticipated outcome.
To me, it seemed best that we have lunch first and get comfortable before we went up to her place. I was sitting in the same pizza shop and at the same table where we had our first date.
Initially, I didn't recognize her when she came in. For one thing, she was wearing sunglasses, which she had never done before, and her hair was pinned up. It was her clothes that really threw me. She had a dark-blue top held up by straps; quite a bit of her midriff was showing, navel and all. Her skirt was loose-fitting but quite short; it was light gray with white dots. About the only item I had seen before were her white sandals.
I had never known her to show so much skin in public before. My first thought was,
look at this hot babe; she certainly is brazen.
Then,
oh my God, it's Lenore.
It was difficult to associate her present appearance with the modest-looking girl I had taken here a few weeks earlier.
For a moment she stood near the doorway and looked around. It seemed her eyes must have passed over me a couple of times but she didn't acknowledge my presence. I was just about to greet her when some intuition made me stop; I figured I would play along with whatever game she was doing.
For a moment she turned around and shook her ass back and forth so that her skirt swished around. A thought about her hit me very hard and very suddenly.
What kind of panties does she have on under that cute skirt? Maybe she doesn't have any at all, and there's nothing but air between her and the grungy pizzeria floor.
My fantasy was that I would flip up her clothes and find out.
Then she wandered over towards me but she seemed to have no clear direction to go in. My feelings of lust for her were very strong. And yet it was if was she was another person, and I was actually a bit diffident about talking to her. I had already brought over a second slice and drink in anticipation of her arrival. I decided to capitalize on that.
"Ah miss, I've got an extra slice here. You can have it if you want." I knew using the term "miss" was a mistake, but probably not a fatal one.
"Is somebody talking to me?"
"Yes, I am."
Now she finally looked down at me. "You think I can be had for a mere slice of pizza?"
"I didn't even mean to imply that. Take it to another table if you wish."
"No, I think I'll have it right here. Oh, thanks, I guess there is really is a free lunch."
As she sat down, she lifted her sunglasses to the top of her head. It was a bit reassuring to be able to see her eyes. When she lifted her slice to her mouth, she licked the underside of it, then slowly took a bite out of the end. I was fascinated by this and I was frankly staring at her. It seemed like a good time to introduce myself, "Hi, I'm Paul."
"Well, I'm Lenore. You live around here?"
I decided to be vague about it, "Ah yeah, just down the street."
"Me too. So, do you have any chicks in your life?"
Even in this early stage of my life, I knew that was always a tricky question. "Yeah, I've got some things going on."
" 'Some things going on?' I think I get it."
I didn't like the look she was giving me. Even though I knew it was an act, I thought she was showing haughtiness and disdain.
I'm obviously way out of your league. You should be grateful I'm even talking to you.
We had a few aimless minutes eating our lunch. I remember her saying, "Do you think this outfit makes me look a bit 'fast?' " I thought,
Lenore, you're faster than a Metroliner.
Before I could form a response, she went on, "So, do you like it, I mean my outfit?"
That was another question I had trouble with. Should I compliment a girl, or pretend I was above it all? The latter was supposed to convey that I had a lot of other options out there.
I went with, "It is sort of interesting."
"Just interesting?" That was the other side of the problem; she might get annoyed if you didn't compliment her. You couldn't win with a question like that.
At this point that I noticed a guy of about twenty-five at a table a couple of rows down. He was obviously assessing Lenore. She noticed him too, and she sort of winced at him. He just smiled back.
She said in a low voice, "That guy is undressing me with his eyes."
I thought,
well, so am I.
Soon after that, she gestured for me to lean in. "You know what, let's go up to my place and share a joint, have some kicks."
"All right, that sounds good."
She wagged a finger at me, "But don't get any smart ideas. We're just friends, right?"
Before I could respond, she was up and going out; I trailed after her. Out on Lydig Avenue, I started to get the implications of this game. It was as if I was so inconsequential, harmless even, that she had no wariness about bringing me upstairs. Decades later I would hear the word "orbiter." It was a guy who was always hanging around some girl but not getting any sex from her. It certainly wasn't a term of respect.
Along the way, she prattled on about something. It seemed to be gossip she knew about her former classmates at Columbus High School. I caught the name of her best friend, Bernice, whom I had already meet.
Once we got up to the familiar fourth-floor apartment, we went into her room to get the pot-smoking paraphernalia. She sat at the head of her bed with an ashtray, leaning on the wall. I was sitting on the edge.
"Go ahead, lean on the other wall; make yourself comfortable."
That put me sideways, at a right angle to her. She was only a couple of feet from me, and I caught her aroma, a mixture of perfume I think and her own natural scent. It was very heady stuff.
We passed the joint and the ashtray back and forth. I didn't want too much; I figured I'd have to keep my wits about me today, regardless of what was going to happen. After a brief period, she put it aside. My guess about her was she was a bit stoned, and my assessment of myself was that I was just far enough above the drug that I could still hold a conversation.
The next thing she said was, "So, what's been going on with you recently?"
I wasn't sure what she was getting at, "I don't know; not much."
"I bet, not much." She took a moment to think, "I've been around enough to know what guys are like. You're all pussy crazy. If you're not getting it all the time, you can't keep your hands off yourselves."
I remembered what she had said about what girls did in the same situation. But I was wary of this Lenore who wasn't really Lenore. I wasn't sure if I even liked her.
She launched into a lengthy tirade against me. "All of those young ladies you've seen at your school, in the street; they're in their mini-skirts, their halter tops, their shorts and knee socks and their boots, their delectable little panties. You want to get with them all, from every angle -- but you can't. So you go home and do what you have to do."
I was struck by the amount of detail she was using. Maybe it was an elaborate joke, but it also felt like a direct attack on me. I tried to be as casual as possible, indifferent even, "And you seem to be a little cock-tease."
"Oh, you don't know me. In fact, I'm going to prove you wrong." She moved over to where I was. I have noticed since that when women are making some sexual proposition, they will often use a quiet, confidential tone even though no one else was around to overhear them.
Her face was right next to mine when she said, "I will prove I'm not a tease. We can have some fun. I'll get myself off and you can watch and you can get yourself off too. How does that sound?"
It actually sounded a bit peculiar, because we had already done that a couple of weeks earlier. Yet I was really taken by her and she obviously knew it. I noted her dark eyes, her smooth skin, and especially, her juicy body.
I said, "Why should I do that?" I truly couldn't figure out what her game was.
"Why? This is why." She lifted her blouse and I saw a strapless bra that was orange, of all things. When that was done unbuckling that, she moved back, lifted her skirt, and spread her legs. "I know you were wondering what kind of panties I'm wearing." Women seemed to have a knack for discerning guys' thoughts.
Her panties were lacy white ones. "I don't think I need these for very long." When she took them off, she threw them at me and by reflex I caught them.
"Ever see a pussy before? Magazines don't count." I had seen hers before, only twice if counting by calendar days.
She said, "Here, I've got some accessories for both of us." She got them from her side table next to the window. The first one was a white tube that looked like a vibrator but it wasn't.
Would that be called a dildo?
"And this is for you," A tube of Vaseline landed next to me; I knew what that was for. Meanwhile, Lenore was already vigorously going at herself with her toy and one of her hands. "Well, get to it already. If you don't have an erection by now, you must be dead."
I did have one. I was nineteen-years-old and I had a girl pleasuring herself right next to me. Biology took over.
"You can come into my panties if you want to; I'm fine with that." I considered doing just that out of some kind of spite. This whole event seemed bizarre, but almost without thinking I took down my pants and grabbed my cock.