They sat in a seedy bar just off of campus. The lunch crowd had come and gone and it was too early for the post class rush. The two old friends sat at the counter sharing a pitcher of low-grade yellow beer. Neither of them really should have been there, but no one closely watched the comings and goings of an instructor and mid-level administrative staff. Like so many they could hide in plain sight. She picked at her lunch.
"So I threw him out. On my case about spending, the whole time racking up and hiding massive debt," she took a long pull from her thick glass mug, "I am done with guys. No more relationships. Just me and my kids from now on,"
He studied her. She had always been tough, all the years he had known her. Even at the tender age of 23 she had had an iron will combined with hope that sprang eternal. Now fourteen years later he worried that she had become too tough. They had been friends a long time. Sometimes they were closer, sometimes they drifted for a while. Their common bonds and history brought them back again and again it seemed.
They were both low today, a grey snowy day in February. Although he was just over forty, lines radiated from the corners of his eyes as he squinted at her in the low light. He could still see the feisty girl she had been. Rich dark hair still flowed back from her determined face. Even her invective could not hide the fullness of her lips or the flash of her fierce deep brown eyes. His mind wandered to early days when she wanted to drag him out running or cycling or long-boarding. He had chuckled at her enthusiasm then, but it had been infectious. Even though he was not young he had eventually taken her advice and changed his sports from adventure to endurance. Perhaps he couldn't recognize his own face anymore, but he was as lean and hard as ever under his slightly worn button down dress shirt.
His mind wandered to energetic meetings at lively venues in hot summer evenings years ago. Her full, frosted pink lips wrapped fetchingly around the straw in her latest cocktail as her eyes sparked mischievously. She had quickly blossomed into knowing just what affect it had on him.
He smiled ruefully. Time and tide had caught them both it seemed.
"Speaking of which, I should not be sitting here spending money I don't have," she murmured into her glass. He turned from her back to his own glass and waved the bartender over. As melancholy as he felt he was not ready to head back to his cramped office or his dark home.
"Don't worry about it, Gus," his nickname for her, derived from her maiden name, "Don't you remember? I am rich,"
That was not strictly true, but he had been careful. He had always had decent jobs, and generally lived well below his means. His relative security had become something of a joke between them.
"Ppfft. There must be some way for me to get a hold of some of that extra money of yours," she took a long pull on her glass.
"No big deal, G. I got you," he really didn't mind, and he enjoyed her company. Better by far than going home.
"You could have had me, you know," her voice had a familiar edge to it. They had already circled back to the old debate. He sighed. She was right. She would have been his, if he had gone for it. If he hadn't been stuck back then, just as he was now, in unhappy bonds that he didn't have it in him to break she would have been... What? His wife? Maybe. Or maybe they would be drinking with two different people, hiding from each other, instead of hiding with each other.
"Gus..." he started. He could see tears forming around the bottom of red rimmed eyes. She must have been on edge, he reasoned. It had been a long time since she had been so emotional in front of him. Her heart was no longer reserved for him, after all.
She wiped her eyes and shooed a worried waitress from them, "It's fine, D, I am just being silly," it was his cue to let it drop. He ordered a round of her favorite, which he knew came with a small cocktail straw.
"Is that so?" he asked their old leading question.
'It's troooo..." she said, pursing her soft lips into the perfect shape for kissing, the same question and answer they had played out hundreds of times over the years. They fell back into easier discussion as they sipped away.
***
"You shouldn't have paid for it all," she was a little wobbly on her feet as they headed away from the pub. The students had begun filing in and being loud. And the last thing either wanted was too close of association with their charges!
"I was glad to do it, Gus,"
"I shouldn't drive," she murmured. She was notorious for her impractical footwear during the cold months, and he had her draped inside his long dark wool coat. She nuzzled close to him, "You smell beautiful. Like soap and beer. You never change," he wished that were true.
"I will get you a cab," he replied.
"I'm broke, I can walk," she said bravely.
"I won't let you," he left his coat draped on her and stepped into the snow filled street, hand thrust out to get the attention of a passing taxi. It pulled over and he got the door. "My lady,"
She hesitated for a moment, "Come with me? Let me... Let me pay you back a little?"
It was his turn to hesitate. What did she mean exactly? "Just get in," she tugged at him, "see me to my door, like old times," he allowed himself to be pulled in, figuring he would get her home and use the walk back to campus to clear his head.
Her old house was dark and cold when they pulled up. In an older part of town it was filled with character and promise, just like she herself.
He paid the taxi and followed her to the door, thinking to take his leave now that she was home safe. She fumbled with the key and eventually shouldered the wedged door open. The aging foundation had made its seasonal shift.
"Come in and at least let me get you a tea," she insisted. Tea was another thing she had introduced him to, as reluctant as he had been all those years ago. He allowed himself to be ushered inside the little home. There were small boots and coats littering the entrance.
"The girls are with their father," she replied to his arched eyebrow. "Why is it so cold in here? Don't tell me the furnace quit! That's the last thing I need!"
"Let me take a look," he said gesturing her to lead him into the basement. His hand dipped into his pocket where he had a small powerful pen light. It threw a bright beam of light on the half framed walls in front of cold stone foundation.
"How long have you had that light?" she asked, smirking at him.
"This exact one? Ten years I think. But I had the same model before that," he flipped the electrical switch for the furnace and fished at his belt for his multi-tool to remove covers from the furnace.
"And those plier-thingies? How long?"
"This one, must be nearly twenty years I guess?" he tugged a screwdriver bit out and began his work.
"Still coming to my rescue, you still carry the same shit everywhere. You never change," she mussed his hair affectionately as he worked. It was nearly entirely iron grey already. That certainly had changed from the blue-black of their early days.
"I think it is probably the flame sensor," he muttered around the flashlight in his teeth, "It's carboned up. Should be running in no time"
"Sure thing, Mr. Engineering. I will get some tea going," her fingers grazed his neck for a slow second, sending shivers that had nothing to do with the cold.
He glanced over to watch her climb the stairs, studying her legs in a way that he knew he really did not have a right to. He marveled, after all these years she still had an effect on him.
A few light strokes with a fine file and the sensor was cleaned and back into the furnace. He relit the pilot light from his pocket lighter. She had always teased him for that lighter.
"Why do you carry that? You don't smoke!"
His father's words from his mouth, "You never know when you are going to need it,"
The panels went back on as he listened to the floorboards creak above him. She moved all through the small main level of the house. He hit the electrical switch and listened as the furnace fired to life!
"Yaaaaay!" he heard from upstairs.
***
He sat on her couch as she finished with the tea in the kitchen. She came in with a tray and two steaming mugs. He sniffed. Not tea, but hot cider!
"From my apple tree in the back," she handed him a mug. It was spicy and fragrant, and was that brandy he smelled?