"No, you're a bigger idiot than I am!"
"You really think so? I hate to disappoint you, but you're not fooling anyone with a face like that Kim.."
I made a pouty face and pretended to be heartbroken, holding my chest and making dramatic gestures. Tom just carried on walking, leaving me a couple of steps behind, then turned around briefly to stick his tongue out at me. I giggled, then ran the few steps it took to catch up to him.
It was just another day, walking home from university together. The wind was cold, and it couldn't have been more than 15 degrees outside, but it was sunny. Overall the weather could've been a lot worse.
Of course, my body seems to emanate heat whenever I'm next to Tom so I didn't really notice the cold despite the fact that I'd forgotten to take a jacket with me.
"Aren't you cold?" he asked. Though it didn't seem that he was too concerned.
"No, I'm ok" I shivered, silently cursing him for having drawn my attention to it. "Well, I was before you said anything.." I added, mumbling.
I crossed my arms in front of my body, trying to preserve some heat. I took the chance to gaze at him, slyly of course. I saw him smile at my comment while looking at something else.
I couldn't help thinking that the bright winter light only made him look more attractive, almost poetic. I would say godly, but let's face it, neither one of us was cut out to be in the modelling industry. We were both around 5 foot 7. Or around 175cm tall. Him, of course, being a bit taller than me. I had light brown hair, and blue eyes. I wouldn't say I was thin, but I wasn't unfit either. I tried to keep in shape, but some days it didn't really work out. Still, It's ok to have the odd day off right? In an arm wrestle I could still put up a good fight for most guys though, unless they were built like a tank of course.
He had dark brown hair, light brown eyes, and his skin was fairly tanned. Which is odd for living in a country that gets virtually no sunlight. Still, there was something about him.. Suddenly, in the cold air I noticed my nipples standing to attention. I couldn't decide whether this was from the cold air or from my proximity to this man who I'd so often thought about in that way. I was so absorbed in my thoughts that I hardly saw him turn his attention back to me.
"Hellooo..?" he passed his hand in front of my face trying to wake me from my daydream, "you still with us?" He smirked.
I blushed, going pink. It was irrational, but I felt almost like he could see what I was thinking. "Yeah, I'm ok", I averted my gaze to the pavement, hoping that it would hide my embarrassment. I suddenly became painfully aware of my nipples pressing up against my bra, begging to be seen through my t-shirt.
"Got any plans tonight?" I asked, trying to draw attention away from myself.
"No, not really" he responded, "I might be playing a game of poker or something with my flatmates tonight".
"Oh, sounds interesting." I commented, suddenly jealous. "I never get to do anything fun.." I complained. "It's probably going to be some more boring course reading tonight for me".
"Well, I guess you could come round if you wanted, it might be fun."
I looked at him, surprised. This seemed like another non-chalant comment. It certainly seemed to be at first glance, but he had never willingly invited me to spend time with him and some of his other friends. I guess he's shy, and so many people have assumed we're more than friends. I can't blame them really, the way we are around each other. I never really minded (in fact I secretly enjoyed it) but he always seemed to get uncomfortable with the teasing. Instead of just brushing it off he'd ignore me for a while after the comment.
I used to get offended, but eventually I guessed it was just his way of dealing with it. Him asking me round was a big deal, I'd only ever been to his house when he needed to quickly pick up something.
"I guess I could", I hesitated, suddenly intrigued, "Won't your flatmates mind?"
"Nah, I think it'd be alright with them" he said, looking at the floor. Then he looked up, giving me a wicked grin and added "after all, it's only you" in his usual joking manner.
I smiled back, "Yeah, only me..". I know we joke all the time but sometimes his comments really got to me. Not that I'd let it show. "So do you know who else will be there?"
"Em, I don't know" he shrugged, "the guys, maybe a couple of friends, I don't really know. Nobody really makes plans and all, you know?" . "Ok then, I guess that'd be fine". I tried to appear casual but inside I was excited. Him doing something like this was new, and it'd mean that I'd get to spend more time with him. We've been best friends for years now, ever since we met in school. He got sat next to me in physics, and me being a confident teenager immediately started talking with him, after all, he seemed nice. Years later we're still friends, and I've always thought that there was something else between us sometimes.
But there are those moments when I think so and others when I think maybe it's just biology causing that spark, that it's nothing more than platonic between us. Still, sometimes late at night I like to imagine that it's something more..
I shivered again, though this time it wasn't because I was cold. My breath caught in my throat as I briefly envisaged the two of us, in a passionate embrace, a kiss, maybe even...
"So you gonna head towards my house or not?" he laughed. It was only then that I noticed I'd walked past the turning by about ten steps. I have a bit of a reputation for being a dreamer, so my distractions didn't surprise him, but he always laughed all the same.
"Of course. I did that on purpose!" I said, strutting my way back and holding my chin high as I walked past him, pausing only to give him a smile. He laughed and caught up with me. I settled back into a normal pace alongside him.
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The front door slammed behind Tom as we entered the house. He went to take his shoes off and I did the same. I glanced behind me as I did and noticed him staring at my ass. I was glad I'd chosen my tight jeans today, the ones that made my bum look perfectly round and pert.
He didn't know I'd noticed he was looking, it made me smile. They boy is not known for being sly, but he never really caught on to how obvious he was. There wasn't much noise in the house, but we still wandered into the living room expecting to find people. We were both mildly surprised when there was nobody there. Tom went over to the coffee table, picking up the note that was there and reading it out loud, "We r out for a pint. Was gonna wait for u but u took ages".
I saw him frowning at the note as he read it out loud, I was suddenly feeling guilty at being in his house. He put the note back down, and we both stood awkwardly for a moment.
"Well, em, I guess you're here now.." he said, seeming genuinely a little embarrassed at the failure of his plans.
"yeah, I guess I am.." I said, feeling a little confused. Unsure what I was supposed to do. We were in his house, together. It was awkward yes, but not in a casual way. It was the awkwardness of two people who try to avoid being anywhere private alone. I guess this was the moment when we'd both have to deal with the situation we'd so successfully avoided so far.
"Wanna watch a film?" He blurted out suddenly. He didn't wait for my answer, "Yes, that's a good idea, a film. Let's see where did I put that one that we watched..." he mumbled, turning around and knocking over a pile of DVD's from the unit behind him. He looked at me bashfully before kneeling to retrieve all of them clumsily.