I was with her in a taxi talking about things that could happen in the future. I had so many feelings inside of me that I couldn't even express them with words. I really felt like I needed to kiss her, but there was something inside of me that didn't let me do it even though I wanted to so much. I began to feel shivers in my balls that were going up to my spine and tummy, but it wasn't because I was horny. I was just really anxious about the situation and didn't really know how to deal with the sensation.
She's from the United States, and I'm from Ecuador. I've never felt like I fit in living in this country, so as a teenager I started studying English to have a chance to get out of here. Luckily, through my studies, I met her. Her mom is Ecuadorian, so she had come to teach English and check out the culture a bit. When we first met, she was 24 and I had just turned 20. We were friends for a while, until our interest grew into something much deeper.
My body was probably anticipating that IT could happen, but that something that I mentioned before was taking control over me. I would call that something fear. Since that fear was taking control of my body, I just couldn't even talk at some point. I think she felt the same fear.
The only reaction that I had was to show her that at least I was comfortable with what was happening and that thanks to her, all my insecurities were fading away. I decided to get a little bit closer to her, so then at least my arm could feel her body. She reacted almost immediately. She clung to my arm while I was getting more and more nervous because of my fears. It was because I really wanted to kiss her, but I didn't have the guts to do it.
The taxi driver realized what was happening to me and just smiled while driving. There was something inside of me that took control over my body, and all of a sudden I just looked for her lips and kissed her. It was the most wonderful experience in the world. I'll try to describe the indescribable. My body began to shiver; there was a crazy sensation in my spine that made me numb, but at the same time really sensitive. I wanted to touch every single part of her body. Her lips were so humid, so fleshy, so, I don't even know, but it felt so great when I did that.