As we walk down to the deserted part of the beachfront you have chosen for us, quite a distance from the hotel, you ask yourself again for at least the tenth time whether this is a good idea. You could have put sunscreen on in the hotel room. In fact, you still have some options - you could do it yourself; you could just keep your t-shirt and shorts on and do your arms and legs. But even with those thoughts, as you feel the knot in your stomach relax slightly, you also feel a twinge of disappointment. Ultimately, you might be feeling as nervous as you have since you were a school girl but between six hours of a motorcycle engine rumbling between your legs and over five years of teasing, sometimes gentle, sometimes right up to the border, you feel like you have an almost insatiable need to know, not just think, what would happen.
If I notice that you're chattering more than normal, I haven't let on. In fact, it seems to you that I'm just happy to enjoy the heat on my face and that we're going to spend some time together, then you see me lag behind you a step and not so discretely check out your ass as you're walking down the sand. Even behind your large sunglasses, I can tell you have raised your eyebrows at me then smirked. My eyes crinkle behind my own sun-glasses: "It's a beautiful view". I say and gently nudge your side with mine. "Shush" you say, but you also smile, knowing that at least you don't to worry about rejection at all.
You lay your towel out first as I'm stripping off my singlet. Well, more accurately, you fiddle with a towel while perving on me as I take my singlet off. You admire the view - nothing that would draw the attention of anyone who hasn't been wondering for a long time - but for someone who has been waiting, plenty enjoyable then notice that I've gone to the bag to grab the sunscreen.
"Wait a sec - cccould you do me first?" You cringe and feel yourself flush red as you stumble ever so slightly over the double-entendre. How frustrating and embarrassing! You had that line in your head since the thought of me applying your sunscreen first occurred to you while we were still over an hour away from the hotel. On the plus side, the massive smile that breaks out on my face makes you wonder if I even noticed your stutter or was too distracted by what you had asked for.
"I would love to." I reply, and you can hear both the sincerity and the desire in my voice.
You lift your top up, exposing the top of a nice but modest two piece. It might be modest in cut but the color is a bright fluro pink, reminiscent of the lingerie set I picked out as my favorite when you asked my opinion of the online store. Now for yet one more moment of truth - do you shuck off your shorts and have me behind you, gently rubbing you down in only your swimsuit? Your hands move to your waistband but as they do they trail over that slight belly that no matter how hard you work out doesn't seem willing to leave and your confidence leaves you. For a moment, you think about calling the whole thing off but you can imagine the look on my face if you suddenly change your mind, especially if I don't really understand what it's like to have anxiety about my body the way you do. Fortunately (for me), your desire not to see my face fall wins out and while you keep your short shorts on, you lie face down on the towel. As you do, you take a deep breath of salty, humid, hot air and it makes you realize you haven't actually heard the waves until now, you've been entirely in your own head.
You close your eyes and take another deep breath. In the few seconds you've been lying down, you can already feel the hot suns rays warming your skin and making you feel content. Then you feel a hand lightly rest against your shoulder and you start slightly, the touch coming as a slight shock despite its gentleness. The hand rests on you for a moment then you feel my other hand press down in front of you and my voice is in your ear as I lean close over you. My voice rumbles in your ear: "You look absolutely beautiful. Thank you for letting me do this for you."