Driving home at 10:00, my eyes ached I was so tired. I could have already been in bed, but I had chosen to work alone in the office. The work wasn't pressing, it just filled my time, and kept my mind busy.
Even now, with exhaustion beating my body down, I knew sleep was a long ways off. My mind was showing a highlight film. The same one it had been showing every day for the past two weeks, since Andrea had moved out.
Andrea and I had been married over 15 years. Passionate moments had been few and far between. The lack of intimacy had really hurt, but unfortunately I had gotten used to it.
I flirted on line a bit when I was really down, but for the most part I had worked my ass off to be her loyal "friend." Then, two weeks ago, Andrea came home from work. She was relaxed, friendly, and nervous.
Holding my hand, my beautiful, blonde wife bared her soul. "I'm a lesbian," she said slowly, and then added, "I think I always have been." It's clichΓ©, but my chest literally ached, and I struggled for breath. "I can't do this to you anymore," she went on.
Then she informed me that she and her work friend Megan had been intimate for the past year. She continued talking, but the sound went off.
All I could see were images of my pretty, 35 year old wife, spreading her slender, creamy thighs, for Megan. Megan, over 50, grey, butch cut, non-descript body, was giving Andrea pleasure I had never been able to.
Andrea's embrace brought me back to the present. Her soft, chestnut tresses brushed my face, and her tears rolled along my neck. I couldn't hate this woman. Shit, I couldn't even hate Megan, who had always been so kind to me. The misery came from the impending sense of loneliness, and the all consuming conviction of failure.
Yes, logically I knew it wasn't my fault. That didn't matter, I felt failure.
Now, with the slide show of memories, and good byes, being shown again on the screen of my mind, I felt the loneliness. Forestalling the inevitable, I did not drive home. Instead, I got on the freeway and headed for my favorite fast food place, Vince's.
I only allowed myself this type of comfort food once in a while. I really needed it now. As I got ready to order, I justified the splurge my recounting to myself how good I had been about exercise.
The sexy, deep throated, "May I help you?" gave me a slight pause (the thought of a sexy woman knowing I was about make a pig of myself stung), but I plowed ahead.
"Yes, I'll have a double cheeseburger, large onion rings, and an extra large chocolate shake. Sighing, and for good measure, I threw in, "I swear I don't eat this way every night."
This was met with a throaty chuckle, and a simple, "OK, that will be $9.53 at the window, sir."
I pulled up to the empty window bay, but all I could see across the kitchen was an enormous, round ass sticking up in the air. The black polyester pants containing the ass looked like it was due to blow.
I then noticed that the white uniform top had pulled free from her pants. Transfixed, I also saw that leopard print panties peaked above the pants.
She had a beautiful white back, with a tattoo of a blue and green Japanese dragon. The dragon's tail directed my eyes to her leopard panties which held forbidden worlds of pleasure.
As the young girl turned to reach for a bag under the counter, her top slid up even higher. Her large stomach jiggled as she worked.
Determined not to appear the pervert I felt like at that moment, I forced my eyes away. Then I saw her face, and I was mesmerized. Freckled and sweaty, her skin had strands of bright red hair plastered to her cheeks. Sweat dripped from her nose.
There wasn't another employee in sight, and she was really busting her ass. I was impressed by her hard work, but felt sorry for myself. Here I was, aroused and on my way home to an empty house.
All of a sudden, that lovely, sweaty face was smiling at me. "Brianna," her name tag said. I took in her precious smile, and the luscious mouth. She had a ring in her lower lip.
I realized I had seen this beautiful woman before. As I continued to admire her pierced nose, eyebrows, and ears, I realized I was supposed to be responding to something she had said.
"What was that?" I asked lamely.
"I said," she repeated in mock exasperation, "that I seem to be the lucky one who gets to fulfill this late night fetish of yours, sir."
I remembered her, now, but something was different. Yes, she had filled this same order a few weeks back, but she looked different tonight.
"Uh ..." I began, and she cut me off, "Yeah, the hardware is new, so is my hair color, and ..." She blushed, cutting herself off short. Embarrassed, she rattled on, "Obviously, I eat this way more than you do," and she turned away.
Way to eagerly, I blurted, "You look great!"
Brianna turned and winked, but I still felt like a creep. A disturbance at the counter ended the awkward pause.
A drunken teen, eating inside the restaurant, had swaggered to the counter and barked, "Hey lard ass, how about a re-fill?"
Immediately I saw red. It had little to do with my new found arousal. I just hate bullies. I always have.
"Hey shit head," I calmly responded, "Why don't you rephrase that?"
This started a war of words, and I started to get out of my car. Thankfully one of his friends pulled him from the counter and told him he was an ass.
Brianna was totally at ease, laughing. "I can take care of myself, but thanks," she said.
Her eyes twinkled as we both laughed.
I turned to drive away, but not before catching a glimpse of glistening skin, and the beginning of deep cleavage disappearing into the top opening of her blouse.
As I placed the car in gear, I could feel the loneliness return.
"Sir, sir?" I turned and saw her nervous grin return the smattering of freckles on her nose, now more pronounced.
"Yes?," I hesitantly reciprocated.
"Did you like looking at my new dragon tattoo?"
I had been caught ogling her. I couldn't speak.
She went on, "I saw you in the reflection of the iced tea pot when my back was turned." She winked again. "Come back anytime. I'll be here until 2 this morning, by the way."
After driving home, I ignored the bag of food. I went inside and just sat on the big leather couch in my living room. There was no doubt I wanted to back to Vince's.
I was almost 40 and she couldn't have been 25, but that wasn't the problem. I also wasn't bothered by the fact that I was a clean cut, slender runner, and that she was a full figured, tattooed goddess. "alternative type. All of this just made me hot.
My problem lay in believing she had really been flirting with me. Self doubt pummeled me. Why would she want me?