Author's Notes: This is an erotic fantasy written by Lyssabyss. I should have stated this previously, but the language I am using is Turkish, (though I do not follow the structure religiously.)
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Since stepping into this new world it seemed as if time flew by with the onslaught of new sensations and knowledge. Every day was filled with discovery, excitement and even twinges of guilt or fear. I had written my letter to my father and knew that at least another month would pass before he would receive it. It left me feeling gloomy and nearly alone if it weren't for the company of Oro and Jora.
Even with Oro's urging, I still found it quite awkward to address her as Bekรงi, my guardian, perhaps because of what happened between us, and the connection that still thrives. Jora had continued my training and I was slowly improving, though I could still not best her.
Oro was gone more often with his new duties which had him overseeing the training of new warriors, and acting as a council member to King Mazhar. This time apart would have afforded me more intimacy with Jora if not for the prying eyes of servants lingering about the villa.
My fingers traced over the images within a leather bound book, and I was overcome with the urge to leave these walls and explore, I snapped the book shut and stood from my wooden bench. The smell of the garden flora was appealing but did nothing to sate my curiosity to explore what lay beyond.
Jora eyed me cautiously, "What has you in a mood?" She walked over to me, slapping an offending brush limb along the way.
"I am bored." I huffed, shuffling from the garden walls towards the atrium.
"Only boring people become bored, Zee." Jora laughed, following me out of the sun. "You normally love to read, why are you so restless? Have you received a visit from the Lady in Red?"
I rolled my eyes, "No, she came and went a week or more ago. I-I just feel like I need some air."
"You were just outside." Jora chuckled, "The air is warm, and good, your skin is becoming more used to it."
I rubbed my arms which were no longer as pale, though I was still a far cry away from the beauty of Jora's skin. "I have no purpose here." I confessed.
"How did you fill your time in Lamoria?" Jora asked, following me towards the shallow pool.
"I helped my mother in our shop, she was a seamstress. When I was not mending clothes, or helping around the home, I was out by the water, swimming, or fishing or playing with friends. Here, I have only him, and only you." I lamented, starting to strip from my clothes in a trail towards the pool.
I young servant boy entered with fresh linens, and his eyes went wide at the sight of my nudity. Jora hissed at him like a dangerous feline, which made him scuttle off taking the linens with him. Jora stood dutifully at the pools edge, as I made my way into the tepid water.
Jora sighed softly and said, "Life here, is not what you sought, but it is what you have. Of all the men who could have found you, it is better that it was Oro. He is a strong man, devote and in a position for great power." She braced her hands on her hips and continued, "Having us is not such a bad thing."
I dunked the whole of my body underwater, unbinding my braid to let my hair scatter freely. I resurfaced, wiping water from my lashes and whispered, "No, it is not, but still I feel trapped. Left inside this stone cage, waiting for the wolf to return for an evening feast."
Jora chortled at the imagery, and then her voice took a flirtatious tone, "How could one resist such a delicious sight."
I felt heat run between my legs, and I wanted to drag her into this pool with me, until her clothes clung to her athletic form, and she was panting for my touch. I stood in the shallow pool, the water coming to my waist, and kept my eyes connected to hers as water dripped from me. "How do you?" I mused.
I saw Jora's breath visibly catch and then shudder out of her, her eyes glimpsed around the atrium before she divulged, "The cost is too great if I do not."
I walked to the edge of the pool, taking an equally hushed tone, "If only I were alone with you." I rest a hand on her exposed toes. "Even just a moment."
Jora took a step back, out of reach, "You are never alone, Esyld. I am honor bound to remain at your side as your Bekรงi, until I am no longer needed, or your Eล is present. What happened between us before was a mistake, I overstepped my place."
Her words dashed cool water on the flames of my excitement, and I snapped, "Maybe it was a mistake, but at the time, you wanted it, as did I."
"Keep your voice down." Jora growled, inching closer to me. "You are Majohr Oro's Eล, it is time you embrace that truth."
I felt hurt as I said, "I never imagined hearing that from you."
"I do not wish to say it; this is hard for me also." Jora choked, "I see what passes between you both, and it is clear where your future leads, I will only muddy that path."
"A path that will take me further from you?" I said feeling a stinging urge to cry.
"It will not lead to me, true, but as we are it will not take you away from me either. Is that not worth our discipline?" Jora insisted, coming to sit at the edge of the pool, crossing her legs before the water's edge.
Our eyes met, mine swirling with emotion and I sucked in a deep breath. "How do you propose I embrace my position as Oro's Eล?"
Jora tapped her fingers on her thighs and said "Continue as you are with him, your love for one another will grow naturally and leave me to my duties as your Bekรงi. He feels your hesitation, because of me, if you want his trust you cannot-."
"I have to give him reason to trust me?" I barked, wading backwards into the pool with my hands on the tiled floor.
"You withhold from him, Esyld, he can feel it and he does not trust that duality." Her face was somewhat stern as she continued, "It is obvious that you feel for him, that you enjoy his attention, so why do you hold back?"
I allowed myself to sink to the bottom of the shallow pool, letting the water dull my senses. Even as my lungs protested, I willed myself not to resurface. Admitting what I felt would be accepting too much of what had happened. Oro had asked for my devotion, I resisted him along the way, but each piece I allowed him tested my dominion, and slowly allowed me to feel comfort in submission to him. It was frightening, sickening, exciting and very pleasurable.