Alexis didn't know where else to turn in this moment, so she had headed toward Ashley's apartment off campus. She didn't know what else to do. They were sisters, but sometimes it seemed like the two and a half years between them had turned into many more. Alexis was barely conscious of the fact that it was Friday, it was October, and it was afternoon.
Ashley was a junior, twenty-one, and had embraced her experimental side in college. Alexis didn't know what she was up to most of the time. She had followed her sister to college as a freshman two months ago, thinking her sister could help her discover herself. She had tried, taking her to a raging party the first weekend she was there, but it just made Alexis nervous. She was eighteen, and scared to get in trouble. She barely even drank at that party.
Sometimes it seemed like Alexis just didn't know what to do with herself, and now was one of those times. Her boyfriend, the one she had been dating since she was a senior in high school, had cheated on her and had cared about honesty in their relationship so much that he called her the next day and admitted it, leaving it up to Alexis what happened with their relationship. Alexis was devastated and just started walking aimlessly ombré general direction of Ashley's apartment, making the apartment her official destination when she was about halfway there.
Alexis was soon knocking on Ashley's door, and it was opened by a surprised older sister. Ashley wore just a bra and a short zip-up hoodie and a pair of leggings when she opened the door, and the hoodie wasn't even zipped. Ashley, feigning a hint of modesty, partially zipped up the hoodie and invited Alexis inside, the short hoodie leaving about three inches of exposed midroff, including her pierced navel, and the zipper stopping short of covering her bra. Ashley smiled to herself a little as she realized the zipper had only come up as high as two inches below her bra, leaving the garment and her cleavage exposed. Alexis, for her part, would not have ever been caught wearing anything like that - not even in her own dorm room with only her roommate as company.
At first, Alexis had wanted to live with her sister, but Ashley and her parents objected. Ashley had convinced her parents that she really needed to spend a year in the dorms to get the whole "college experience," whatever that meant. Her parents probably just wanted to save a few dollars, at least for a year. So Alexis lived in a dorm room with some strange girl from halfway across the country, and Ashley lived with her hand-picked roommate.
"Hi, Alexis!" Ashley said, surprised, after opening the door. She gave Alexis a big hug, squeezing her exposed cleavage against Alexis' more covered body. Both girls were brunette, looked like they had tanned twice a week even if they didn't, and had brown eyes."how's everything been?" She asked.
"I don't know what to do, Ashley," she replied. "He - he cheated on me." Tears began to roll down her cheeks as the impact of the words she had spoken touched her heart. "I love him, but he cheated on me - i don't know whether to try to work it out or just end it, or something else, you know, but it's just - why would he do this?!" Alexis started to sob as her sister did her best to comfort her.
"Well, were you two in an open relationship or something?" Said Ashley.
"A what?"
"An open relationship."
"What do you mean?"
"Well, um...it's like a normal boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, only both people agree that instead of being exclusive, they can sleep with other people too."
"So it's like having a boyfriend but going out and having sex with other guys on the side? And vice versa?" Said Alexis. "I don't get it - If you are sleeping with other people, what's the point?"
"Well, you get a lot of the good things you have in a relationship - emotional support, a shoulder to cry on, someone to spend Valentine's Day and holidays with, and to surprise you on your birthday - without all the restrictions."
"Restrictions?" Alexis asked.
"Sexual restrictions. You know, expectations that you are going to sleep with this person and only this person. That way you can still be young and free and experiment and try new things. Learn what it's like to have sex with different people. Learn how to please different people."
"Sounds like a way for people to sleep around and not get totally busted for it," said Alexis.
"Well, yeah, but not like that. I mean, say you had a boyfriend for the last two years. You are young, sexy, adventurous. You don't want him to tie you down, sexually, metaphorically I mean - you want to experience other people too. You don't want to get into your thirties and all of the sudden wish you would have slept around more in college, so you both agree to do it now, with the understanding that you will both do it and maybe even talk about it after."
"Have you ever been in one of those?" Alexis asked bluntly.
"Y- yes, I have, actually," Ashley said, smiling. She was glad to finally get a chance to talk about sleeping with guys, lost of guys, hoping it would encourage Alexis to loosen up a little once she noticed how much fun it was for Ashley. "I think he took advantage of it more than I did," she continued, "although I did too a few times. But it didn't last and we broke up a while back."
Ashley didn't know whether to tell Alexis the whole story or not. She didn't want to scare off her little sister, and risk losing a chance to talk her into hooking up at random - her first journey into the slut lifestyle Ashley had and hoped Alexis would join her in in the near future. She thought about how her ex had used her as a backup girl, trying to sleep with someone else every night before coming back to Ashley on nights when his exploits failed. Ashley thought about how used that made her feel, and how she had been turned on by it for a few weeks and let it continue.
Then Ashley thought about the other side of the relationship, her side - about how after a few weeks she had turned the tables, tearing up campus for a couple weeks and sleeping with anything that would take her, just to prove a point. Then she slept with her boyfriend's best friend, and then she dumped him. But now was not the time to tell Alexis these things - she wanted to draw her into her inner circle, not scare her off.
"Wow, ok then," said Alexis as Ashley finished her thoughts. She was amazed that her sister would agree to such an arrangement. But for Alexis, this was not the time to ask too many questions about her sister's exploits - it was a time to try to figure out the mess of a relationship she was in. "Well, anyway, what would you do if you were me? What do you think I should do?"
"Oh, I would go hook up with somebody first. You know, give him a taste of his own medicine. Then, when he begs for forgiveness, you dump him. That's what I would do anyway, not sure if it's right for you. But if it helps, I find that sometimes the best way to forget about one guy is hooking up with another one - when the situation is right, I mean."
"Well I - I don't know if I want to do that. I mean, I've only ever slept with two guys, and I don't want to go be a huge slut and sleep with someone just to prove a point or get back at him. I love him anyway - loved him - not sure if I still do."
"Well then come out to a party with me tonight, and have a couple drinks, blow off some steam, if you meet a cute guy, maybe make out - no pressure to hook up if it's not your thing. What do you think, do you want to come?"
"I'll think about it," said Alexis as she sat down on the couch. She went to a party with Ashley once, on her first weekend at college, and it was a little too wild for her. On the other hand, watching people get wild might just take her mind off of Connor. Maybe tomorrow she would be in a better state of mind to talk to him. And a couple drinks did sound nice.
"It's a Halloween party," said Ashley. Lots of people will be dressed up," she said. "Not everybody does though, but just in case you were interested." She looked over at Alexis, who was half-sitting and half-lying on the couch, motionless. Ashley knew she was having a rough time and decided to leave her alone until it was time to get ready to go.
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"Wake up! Party time!" Ashley half-sang in alexis' ear. She had been asleep for a couple hours, and before that, she had just moped and laid around on the couch. "You've been on that couch all day," said Ashley. "You want to go out and have some fun?"
"Sure," said Alexis, having considered it a little more.
"Well, you aren't going to wear THAT, are you?" Said Ashley, looking at Alexis' loose hoodie that was at least a size too big. "Come on, if you don't want to go all the way back to your dorm room, you can wear something of mine." Ashley motioned for her to come into her bedroom.
"Great," Alexis thought as she walked slowly into the bedroom, wiping the crust from her eyes and blinking her eyes to try to bring them into focus. "All of her clothes are so slutty!"