It's Saturday and I am feeling fantastic. I'm happier, more alive and feeling younger than have in years. I owe this to you. Knowing you has brought that zest for life crashing back into my world. I say crashing because it hit me all at once; completely unexpected but welcomed all the same. For months we have gone on and on, getting a little closer, pretending to be just friends, but the game has come to its last inning. I say either we hit a homerun tonight or I am hanging up my cleats. It's funny how baseball always comes to mind when thinking of you.
Just as I apply that last stroke of lipstick I hear the doorbell ring. I straighten up and smooth the wrinkles out of my skirt hoping it will make it look a little longer. I purposely chose short but don't want you to know that just yet. One last glance in the mirror and I blow it a fast kiss, my subtle way of suggesting this is the last time I will see this sweet, innocent girl.
Taking a deep breath I open the door to find you standing there looking impressively tall and masculine. The extra grooming time proves fruitful for I am rewarded with a nod of approval and eyes that smile excitedly back at me. Your thick, black hair still wet, falls wonderfully around your tanned face. I am so tempted to run my fingers through it, to place my lips on your mouth and welcome you the way I really want to but I have been meditating on being cool and insist on remaining in control. One day I hope to be able to touch you without hesitation, no longer concerned about whether or not I will scare you away.
It was not my plan to give into you the second you rang my doorbell, quite the contrary. I expected at least a minute or two of total composure before coming apart and blowing my calm, sleek outer appearance. Inside I was shaking, wanting so bad to let you know how I feel without having to come out and say it. It's not considered chic to melt at the very sight of a man but it never fails, one look at you and I am reduced to a babbling teenager. I am not a fool, I usually don't beat around the bush but I've never understood the effect you have on me.
A soft breeze is flowing and I get a whiff of your cologne. I'm so tempted to invade your personal space, forget all this cool, calm, collective stuff. Whoever said it's impolite to be too close to another person is obviously not accustomed to being in your presence. Feeling your breath in my face is about the most polite thing I can think of today. People just can't get enough of you, well certainly this person can't. I find myself fighting just to stand my ground, safely two feet away from you, God only knows I want to be close enough to feel your body heat radiating towards me leaving me in need of another cold shower.
I mumble my hellos and wait for you to answer but instead you reach over and pull me into you. At first I think I should back up and resist but your arms are fearless as you take firm possession of my body like you own it. I feel your hands all over me. The thought that the door is still open and you're barely off of my porch seems to evade me. All I can think of now is that I want you and this is my moment to claim you. Your mouth covers my lips and I catch the door with the back of my heel. It slams shut. The noise still ringing in my ears as your body presses impossibly closer into me.