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"Right Here Waiting", written by Richard Marx. Performed by Richard Marx, 'Repeat Offender", 1989.
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You would think mailing a package would be easy. After all, it wasn't like I was a little kid, and I was doing it for the first time. I'd done it more times than I could remember. But as I walked into the post office with my neatly prepared parcel, I was suddenly fear stricken. It was the same exact feeling in my gut that I'd gotten the very first time I'd ever walked nervously into a convenience store as a teenager and asked the woman behind the counter for a copy of Penthouse.
Marlin, my future father-in-law, stood behind the counter, waiting on someone that was trying to mail a package that wasn't up to postal standards. I admired his patience as he took it from her and redid the wrapping, and then filled out new address information so that it could be mailed and actually make it to its destination. It was the kind of personal customer service that you wouldn't see outside of a small town. I couldn't imagine having a postal worker doing that in, say, Fort Wayne.
But as I stood three deep in line, I wondered if I wasn't better off driving there to find out. What if the post office had some newfangled X-ray machine that could see through what I was about to mail through the system? I suddenly thought that it was a mistake wrapping the package in plain brown paper, thinking it might tip off some overzealous postal inspector as to the type of pictures that I'd enclosed. Brown paper practically screams that there's X-rated materials inside, doesn't it?
I'd had a chance to compose myself a little before I made it to the front of the line. Watching him work with the various people that were in line before me helped. He really was good, and made what seemed like a mundane encounter very personal for the people he waited on. I could see where Ann got some of her personality from, and it was easy to understand why she was so good at her job. I was sure it was a trait she shared with her father; the whole customer service aspect of dealing with the public.
"Well, hello there young man! It's great to see you," he said, finally able to turn his attention towards me.
"Hi Mr. Franklin. It's great to see you too."
"Neil, for the hundredth time... it's Marlin. I'm not going to be one of those fathers-in-law that you need to be afraid of. Okay?"
"Sorry Sir. It's a force of habit. Just how I was raised, I guess... I'm always thinking that my dad is nearby, and what he'd say if I didn't... you know... show respect."
"Well, there's nothing wrong with that. But I've given you permission, so you don't have to worry. And I'm sure your dad would understand under the circumstances. You're marrying my daughter, for goodness sake."
"Yes Sir," I said, and he raised an eyebrow, giving me a sly grin. "Ha! Okay, Marlin," I answered a second time.
"That's better. Now, what can I do ya for?"
I handed him the box of pictures. I had separated out all the ones we'd taken, making sure to make a pile to take to Tina. I took the time to write a number on the back of the ones I was sending Ann, and I wrote down a description for each number on a piece of paper for me to use when I would talk to Ann in the future. I also kept some photos for myself, to use to help prompt me. I put the pictures into numbered envelopes that corresponded with descriptions of events on my cheat sheet, so that I could tell her to pull out a certain envelope and we could use the contents to have some fun.
I wanted to draw out the adventure of opening the envelopes. Since we had six weeks of time to fill before we'd be together, I didn't want to hurry and use them all up in one phone call. Thinking about how she had worked so hard to set up the adventure for me, I wanted to return the favor.
I also had packet of pictures that Tina had taken of the area we'd visited. I wanted Ann to look at them right away to see what it was like out in West Virginia, and help her make up her mind if it might be a place she'd want to live. I'd lived out east before, so I had a pretty good idea of what I would be getting into. But for her, I was sure it would be a major change. Since I had no idea of when an actual job offer might come, if at all, I wanted her to have as much time to think about it as I could give her.
I took all of the envelopes with me to work on Tuesday, and created a little X-rated care package. I had worked at the mail table at the plant when I first started working there after college, so I was able to go over during my morning break and wrap it up and get it ready to go. But I didn't want to mail it out from there. Instead, I decided to take it to the post office during lunch. It wouldn't have been a problem to ship it from work, but I just felt better about getting it out of the plant and on its way.
"I see she finally gave you her address, at least at work. Did she give you her phone numbers too?" he asked.
I was a little surprised he knew Ann had kept it from me, but I couldn't help but smile. "Yeah... she gave me all of her information. I guess that means she's going to keep me."
"I don't think there was ever any doubt about that, Neil," he said with a chuckle, "So, what are you sending my daughter?"
I swallowed hard, but held my composure. "Some pictures of my trip from the weekend. I took some so that she'd have an idea of what the area looks like, and what it has to offer."
"Wow... that's a great idea. I've been kind of worried she'd go in sight unseen. At least now she'll have a little info to go on. What do you think the odds are you'll get the job?" I looked over my shoulders to make sure I was alone, and Marlin got quiet. "Sorry son... I forgot. You know, why don't we talk about this over fishing? Is there a night this week you can get away after work?"
I gave him a big smile. I really did like Jean and Marlin... I knew they were different people now than the ones Ann grew up with, and I got along with them great. "Thursday's good," I answered earnestly.
"Perfect... I get off work early on Thursday's! We'll go and then we'll come back to the house and fry 'em up. I'll tell Jean you're coming over."
I thanked him for the gesture, but I had to get going. I was due back to work, and I didn't want to be late. "When do you think these will get to Ann?"
"When do you want them there?" he asked.
"I dunno. I guess I'd like her to have them by Friday?" I said, sounding more like a question.
"No problem. I'll have them there by then, if not before." I pulled out my wallet, and he waved me off. "It's on me, Neil. See you Thursday. Stop by the house around four and we'll head out to a nice lake I know of."
I thanked him and made my way back to the car. As I started the engine, I smiled. I could remember being worried at one point that doing something like fishing Marlin, or having dinner with him and Jean, would only depress me because it would only remind me of Ann. As I drove to work, I found myself looking forward to it for that very reason... because it would remind me of her.
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It was a short trip back to the plant from the post office. And yet, it seemed to take longer than normal. Maybe that was because I was taking back streets, and I never went fast enough to get my car out of third gear. It wasn't because of traffic. There was hardly ever traffic in the tiny blip of a town I lived in. I was letting the melody of the song playing on my stereo move me, and that meant I was driving slower than normal for me.
Oceans apart, day after day
and I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
how can we say forever?
Before I left for Michigan to embark on my infamous trip to Ann Arbor to unknowingly reinvent my life, I bought a new cassette that became sort of my theme tape for the weekend. It was an album by Richard Marx, his second,
Repeat Offender
and it quickly became one of my favorites. I'd honed in on several songs that made the drive easier... the kind where you roll down the window and crank it up.
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you.
But one that I'd tended to overlook was the one that was currently being played on the radio station I was listening to. Since it was a ballad, I sort of skipped past it every time it came up on my cassette. I'd hit fast forward, and select the button that would make the tape stop in the pause between songs, going quickly to the next one. I wanted to listen to songs that kept me going... driving songs. And in the frame of mind I was in at the time, a romantic song of two lovers separated by distance and time didn't appeal to me at all. I was still hurting because of the divorce. I was still lost.
I took for granted all the times
that I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
but I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby
you've got me going crazy.
But now I was healed; my soul repaired by Dawn, and my heart belonging to Ann. And the same song that I had avoided before was now a hit... and not only on Top 40 radio across the country. It was also a hit with me and Ann. The words were too close to home for us. It was our song. We weren't technically
oceans apart
, other than when she was in California, and I was in Virginia over the weekend. But it seemed that way. And the rest of the lyrics seemed like they were written exclusively for us. That was why the pictures were so important... to help us both get through the waiting we were about to continue together.
I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the chance.
As I pulled into the parking lot, the last lines of the song played out. I looked at my eyes in the rear view mirror. They were happy; a big change from the slightly misty look they'd get when I first started hearing the song on the radio every day. I took the car out of gear, wanting to hear the end... something I couldn't have fathomed a couple months or so before. I still had well over a month to endure without my love, and while the song could have made me sad, instead, it built me up. It made me realize how empty my life would be if I'd never seen Ann that night at Matt's house.
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you