Dedicated to the ones who got away
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I lusted after her when I was 18!
There she was, thirty years later, sitting alone in the restaurant of the same hotel I was staying in, at least 2,000 miles from either of our homes.
Last I heard, she was happily married. Kids grown and married. Just like me. Well, except for the happily married part. I was trying to see whether she was wearing a ring.
Too far away.
Since I had just arrived, I had not yet ordered. Now or never, I thought, as I stood and walked toward her.
"Sherrie?"
"Tom! I can't believe I'm running into you here!"
"Well, when I walked in I saw you over here and it took me a few seconds of blatant staring to be sure it was you. What brings you here?"
"Business meetings. The classic boring and lonely travel. How about you?"
"Same. Awful, isn't it? Do you mind if I join you?"
"Please do! It will be so nice to dine with a friend. And a long-term friend at that. I used to say 'old friend' but with the passing of years I hate the word."
She was not wearing a ring.
"So, Sherrie, how are Dave and the family?"
"The kids are great, married, living close, and I have three grandchildren. So, I guess 'old' fits! The last I heard, Dave was doing fine. He seems to love living with his bimbo girlfriend."
"I'm sorry Sherrie. Sounds familiar though."
"I heard, Tom. I felt so sad when I heard Beth left you. It was six months before Dave's big adventure."
"And now you and I stumble into each other so far from home! You aren't stalking me are you, Sherrie?"
She blushed a little, almost choking on the sip of wine she had just taken. We laughed together once the crisis passed.
"No, Tom, although if I were to stalk anyone, it just might be you."
"Me? Why me?"
"Oh, Tom, you have no idea the crush I had on you back then. You were a senior and I was a sophomore. You were 18 and about to graduate. Athlete, smart, winning at everything. I was very smitten."
"Sherrie, I am so sorry! I had no idea. Typical senior, right?
"Actually, though, since we are confessing things, I went out of my way more than once to try to run into you. I remember watching you practice with the tennis team. I thought you had the sexiest body I had ever seen."
"Are you kidding me? Why didn't you ever ask me out?"
"I'm not sure now. Stupid kid. I should have. Maybe our lives would have turned out happier."
"Probably would have."
There was a tear in her eye and a sadness that tore at me.
The server tracked me down and came to take my order. I ordered a salad, not wanting to still be eating when Sherrie finished.
We talked. Thirty years is a lot of life to catch up on. I need not have worried about what I ordered. We sat and talked for an hour. We talked and laughed and cried.
Life has a way of serving a full measure of emotions, and we were two 'old' friends rediscovering why each had been silently attracted to the other.
"Tom, I'm afraid if I wait again for you to ask me out it will be high school all over again. I don't want that, and I don't want this night to end. Would you think it terrible of me to ask you up to my room so we can talk more? My company got me a nice junior suite with a sofa and large screen TV."
"Sherrie, I'm so glad you asked! I was sitting here thinking the same thing. This has been too much fun to end now."
Ten minutes later we walked into her room.
"Wow, Sherrie! What a great view!"
We walked to the floor-to-ceiling window and stood together in silence. After a couple of minutes, Sherrie turned to me suddenly, her hands on my chest.
"Tom, I have been so lonely. How have you fared?"
"It has been tough. I hate being alone. I hate not having anyone in the bed. No one to share my thoughts with, even just small talk. I still sleep on the same side of the bed. Not in the center or the other side."
She leaned her head forward, resting it above her hands, on my chest. Silence.
"What is it, Sherrie?"
She looked up into my eyes, searching for something. Tears were forming.
"Tom, I don't want to be alone tonight, and I suspect you don't either. Will you stay with me?"
I leaned down and kissed her. Softly. Hesitatingly. Then her lips parted and her tongue sought mine. Her hands left my chest and she wrapped her arms around my neck. I enclosed her in my arms as we kissed.