Amanda sat in the back of the Uber, thinking about not going home.
Instead, she kept glancing down at her phone, watching the map track her progress. She'd texted Rohan while she was waiting for her flight to board. She asked him if, hypothetically, she was going to redirect her ride home, what address she should give the driver. And that's the address she was heading to now.
It had been a long week away. These sudden business trips were always productive but draining. Amanda liked her job and enjoyed the respect she got from the managers she supported. Well, she thought, most of them. Some of them still weren't sure if she was there to be eye candy or their mother.
She thought about how these trips used to be, coming back into the unpredictability of life with her ex. She never knew what she was coming home to face. He was emotional, and at first, she'd mistaken his overblown reactions for passion, for a sign of his investment in her. It hadn't taken her long to find out that he was out of control, with all the maturity and emotional intelligence of a thrashing toddler in the chocolate aisle.
It had taken his undeniable betrayal to open her eyes. He couldn't lie or bully or gaslight his way out of being caught red-handed. And his rage, his fury at her unwillingness to accept his reality over the proof of her own eyes, made her see just how fragile he was. She'd packed that night.
It had taken months to get past that gut-wrenching realisation. Amanda was proud of having survived it - the crying storms, unexpected flashbacks, the hindsight realisations of how many times he'd screwed her over and lied to her. She knew she couldn't go back to who she'd been. And she liked who she was becoming now. She still found herself caught up in the grieving for that girl, the girl she'd been who had been trusting, who had genuinely thought the best of people. She missed her optimism, her faith in people not being inherently shit.
As the cab pulled up, she looked up from her phone and through the car window. She smiled to see him standing at the big central door to his apartment building, waiting for her. He still wore his work clothes, what she thought of as 'tech-firm casual' - tee-shirt, hoodie and jeans.
The driver came around to open her door, smiling as she stepped out, and then retrieved her suitcase from the trunk. She took the handle and wheeled it over to where Rohan was waiting for her.
He smiled. "I thought you'd be coming in an armoured car."
She stopped, maybe too tired to get the joke. "What? Why?"
He grinned, clearly pleased with himself. "Isn't that usually how something that looks like a million bucks is delivered?"
She chuckled. "That was terrible! But I'll take the sentiment all the same"
He took the handle of the case from her, wheeling it with her down the hall to the lift. "How was the trip?"
"Not terrible. Mostly the same talking in circles they always do. I struggled a bit, to be honest."
The lift came, and he waited so she could get in first. "Did something go wrong?"
She sighed, not wanting to relive it. But she did want to talk to Rohan about it all. She liked his mind, his way of pulling things apart that she couldn't see.
"Today was the worst of it. The partners want us to be seen as a good place to work. They'd like for us to have a sterling reputation. But they don't want to do the work to be a good company. So much bias, so much talk about perks and benefits instead of talking about what people need."
He nodded. He'd been in these meetings too.
She continued as the lift stopped, and they walked to his door.
"Can we have better parental leave? No. But we can fund new pool tables with neon under the rails, so they're on-brand. Can we implement policies that support our people? Nope - but we can get a new set of hoodies designed and made, so people feel 'loved'. Poor Alex - he was going mad."
Rohan smiled. He knew Alex, the marketing department manager, pretty well. Alex was famously outspoken, a big-chested guy with a kids' soccer coach's easygoing demeanour and the cutting wit of a stand-up comic. He'd been one of Rohan's closest allies in the battle to improve the company culture - a living case study that you didn't have to be a massive jerk to be effective. As work friends go, he was a good one to have.
"Did Alex go nuclear?" asked Rohan, opening the door.
"No, he was pretty restrained. I think he knows how to handle them now. He was on the flight back - said he'd call you tomorrow."
Rohan pulled the suitcase in and closed the door.
"Hi," he said, smiling, and kissed her. She kissed back, breaking it off before it got too heated.
She looked at him, enjoying back in this closeness with him. "Hi, stranger. I missed you."
"I missed you too." He leaned in to kiss her again, but she pulled away.
"Before we get too carried away, I need to decompress. So how about you pour me a glass of wine, and I'll have a shower, and we can start our Friday night the right way. Sound good?"
He pointed to a door. "The shower's through there. If you need something clean to put on, grab something from my room. Are you hungry? I wasn't sure if you'd eat on the plane."
"No, I'm not hungry," she smiled, "just ready to put the week behind me. Get me a glass of wine, and we'll be fine. See you soon."
She wheeled her suitcase into his room, letting it fall to the floor and closing the door behind her.
She undressed, discarding her grimy work clothes with a disdainful kick. After a week of rushed hotel showers between day-long meetings and 'team-building' dinners with creepy managers, this felt like a luxury. She stepped under the steaming spray, feeling it coat her skin. The hot water washed away both the scungy feeling on her skin and the weariness of the last week. She looked around, finding the shower caddy full of his cleaning products, and grabbed the body wash.
As she opened it to pour on her hands, the memory of their first time together slammed into her memory. Maybe it was the body wash, part of his scent. Perhaps it was the feel of the shower on her, the memory of skin and steam. Whatever the cause, the thought instantly aroused her. The memory of his hands and his mouth, his power inside her, ran like a shock through her memory. As she soaped her body, washing away the week, she began to tingle with anticipation. Her hands became guides to memory, every brush of a palm or fingertip on her skin, bringing up another moment of their tryst.
She began to focus on the feeling more. She wanted to masturbate, as she so often did at home in the shower. And she knew she had the time if she wanted. Her mind, however, was already planning what she would make happen when she got out of the shower. He was right outside, waiting for her. If the last week had been as torturous for him as it had been for her, he'd be hungry for her too.
She turned the water off, stepping out and grabbing the towel on the rail. She ran the white, fluffy towel over herself, glancing through the door at Rohan's room. On the bed, she could see that he'd put one of his t-shirts for her to wear above her now-open case. She slipped on some underwear and then pulled the comically oversized t-shirt over her head. His scent was all over it, and it felt oddly like a hug.
When she opened the door to the lounge room, the first thing she noticed was that it was dimmer, darker. There was soft music playing, and for some reason, Rohan had moved the coffee table off to one side. Where it had been, he'd laid down a thick blanket with a fluffy white towel over it. Her glass of wine waited on the now-moved table off to the side.
She looked at him with a question in her eyes.
"Lie down," he said. "You've had a shit day and a shit week. And what better way to get past a shit week than with a shower, a glass of wine and a massage."
She laughed in surprise. "Well, I can think of other ways, but sure, let's start here."
Amanda picked up the glass of wine, taking a swallow as she walked over to him. He was watching her closely, drinking in her figure and her presence. Even draped in his tee-shirt (baggy on her frame), Rohan could see the smooth, lean curves of her. He liked her vitality, the contained energy of her spirit, and the way it showed through her movement, her smile. He'd missed her, wanted her back here, wanted to see what this was going to be.
He said slowly, "I thought about you a lot. Just in case that didn't come through in the text messages."
She lay down, putting her glass on the table as she stretched her long legs out behind her. Rohan could see the edges of her underwear hugging her buttocks beneath the hem of the tee-shirt. Her face pressed against the fluffy towel, looking sideways and back at him.
"I missed you too. Knowing you were here when I got home made it a bit more bearable. Now, get to work, Mister Masseur."