Lately most of my free time seemed to be spent on the internet. Chatting and surfing the web through the early hours of the morning. Working a second shift job provided me with the ability to stay up later than those on a regular 9am-5pm job. I also detested mornings, so I could easily sleep in later during the day, not needing to be at work till 4pm. I had grown increasingly tired of the club and bar scenes. Everyone there seemed to only be looking for the quick one night stands, and that was something I had never cared for. The net provided the realm I needed to have a way to meet people and not have to do it in the air of drunks and loud music at the popular night spots around town.
After a couple of years of being online and chatting with various people, I met John in one of the chat rooms I sometimes frequented. At first I wasnât that impressed with him. He seemed the type that just got on the web for fun and never took the people on it seriously. I quickly wrote him off as someone who may be fun to talk to now and then but never thought anything would come of it. However after just a few weeks of talking to him my impression of him seemed to change. He still didnât think very highly of anyone on the net. In fact, he had what would become an infamous saying between us, that people on the net were only âtextâ to him. This, of course, included me, so I was rather surprised when he seemed to start coming online more and more often to chat with me.
We would start âspending the night togetherâ, staying up till 6am on our respected computers chatting the night away about anything and everything. I came to look forward to his being online. More so then I probably should have. After all, he had said himself that I was nothing more than text to him. Gradually as the weeks and months went by our relationship began to grow. We stopped putting up any pretense as being just net buddies and tried to take our relationship to the next level. At least as much as we could over a computer and hundreds of miles of land distance. John and I would take virtual trips together. Both of us logging onto our towns websites and pointing the sites out to the other. Places that we both saw every day but the other could only see in pictures. It brought a sense of closeness to our relationship to be able to share things like that together.
Our chats would more and more often turn to sex. Our personal likes and dislikes, preferences, etc. In all aspects, we seemed to really hit it off with one another and I found myself growing more and more attached to this man who I had never physical met but felt that I was growing to know and understand more about him than most people in my physical life. After a few months we exchanged phone numbers and heard each others voices for the first time. It was a shock to finally hear how he sounded. After months of having nothing but the written word from him, I finally had a voice that I could match up to his words. We hit it off as well on the phone as we did on the computer and pretty soon, as had happened on the computer, our conversations on the phone turned to sex.
We had never really engaged in cyber sex. Not technically anyway, but our chats on more than one occasion had gotten me so turned on that after I would log off for the night I would have to get myself off. The phone provided a more personal outlet for both of us. We would both get ourselves off on the phone for each other. The whole time fantasizing about being with the other. As a whole, our relationship was progressing very nicely, and I was finding myself feeling more and more for John as time wore on.
John and I started to try to set up a time for us to meet in person. We both had very deep feelings for the other, but we wanted to meet in person to see if those feelings would stand up to the reality of being together physically. After about 4 months of planning, we were both able to arrange a time to meet. We would each drive half of the several hundred mile distance between us and spend a weekend together. No expectations were set, it was just a âgetting to know each otherâ weekend. I secretly hoped things would progress further then that, but the reality was this was a man that I had never really met, so who knew what would happen.
I had taken a vacation day on Friday. Working second shift I wouldnât have been able to get out of town until late that night and I wanted to be in the motel fairly early. I left about 3pm for the 4 hour drive I had ahead of me. I couldnât help but have knots in my stomach wondering how everything would go. Would either of us live up to whatever type of image we had built in our heads for the other? How would we even interact after being so personal over a computer and phone line?
I arrived at the motel we had planned to meet at a little after 7pm. The drive hadnât been that bad, and the motel was easy enough for me to find. I walked into the motel to the front desk to check in. The man at the desk told me the room had already been checked into, so he gave me the room number and told me I could go on up. The room was on the third floor, so I walked up the stairs very apprehensive. I was hoping to be the first there so I could have more time to compose myself, but John was already there. I walked down the long hall and found the door to what would be our room for the next two days and knocked. John opened the door and we stared at each other for what seemed like hours before either of us said anything. I was rapidly putting everything together in my head. All the late night conversations, phone calls, intimate talks I had had with this person who I was just seeing for the first time. We finally broke the ice with a nice long hug.