This is the third chapter in a series of so far indeterminate length. Things are getting complicated, so I really recommend starting with Chapter One. There is no more space for TLDRs.
The club depicted in this story, while similar to one club in Atlanta in particular, is an amalgamation of several different organizations across the South.
As with all my stories, should you be looking for 'Realism', just move on. I aim for 'Ridiculously Plausible'.
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Steff and I only reached full consciousness at the breakfast table, with coffee and tea respectively steaming in our noses. We sat and ate in companionable silence for a while, but my mind was whirling inside.
Meredith.
I suddenly was in the best position I could have imagined with Steff. We still felt like great friends, but the benefits had progressed like a drag racer from zero to awesome literally overnight. I did not want to do anything to mess that up. Except, I also could not get Meredith out of my mind. My first date with her was still supposed to be that night. I was picking her up at this same house that evening.
I didn't actually
owe
Steff my exclusivity, did I? No. We'd been on one date, and she'd known I was going to go out with Meredith before she'd asked. But there had been the mind-blowing sex since then. And emotions didn't give a shit about reason, if Steff was going to be jealous, then Meredith was a time bomb ticking between me and her.
I took a deep breath and looked at Steff, who still had not brushed her hair and looked like a million rumpled bucks. She cocked her head at me.
"About Meredith..." I hesitantly began.
"Oooh, yeah. She'll be home soon. You better get out of here," said Steff calmly. "It might feel a little awkward if she got home and you are still here in a post-coital glow. Besides, you've got to get ready for tonight, and so does she." She peered at me with just the trace of a leer, "And you look a fright."
I looked at her. "But you..."
"
I
am driving to Athens this afternoon to see some friends and to go to a party tonight, just as I've had planned for two weeks," replied Steff firmly.
"Uh..." I said intelligently.
Steff shook her head and went on, "You are going to make us talk this through, aren't you? That's supposed to be the girl's role, you know." Her voice was calm and level-headed. I was almost offended at how self-possessed she was being, until I look into her eyes and saw the uncertainty there that matched my own. "We have sat here at this table together without saying a word to each other for a while... probably more silent time than we have spent cumulatively since we've known each other. I've been doing a mental and emotional self-inventory, and I'm betting... hoping, that you have too, right?"
I nodded, thanking my friend with my eyes for making this conversation easier. Easier, not easy.
"What do I
know
?" she said, laying out her appallingly organized thoughts, ticking them off on her fingers. My mind wasn't holding still long enough for me to so much as hold one thought at a time, much less list them. "I know that we are damned good friends. I know that has not changed. I know that we are each sure now that the other has the hots for us. I know that we have discovered that we are
very
sexually compatible. We can agree on all that, right?"
There was just the tiniest quaver of doubt in that last point and she looked at me as if for some sign of confirmation. I nodded, wide-eyed, and that banished any doubt that it had been less good for me than for her. I mentally thanked her for having that tiny vulnerability. Right now she was too damned self-possessed for my comfort or my ego.
"So, what are we now? Friends with incredible benefits, or a couple?" she asked. I nodded. That was the question, wasn't it? "Have we made any promises? No. But more to the point, do we feel the need to make promises right now? For me the answer is, 'not now', or maybe, 'not yet'. Next, do I feel the need to
be
with you? More exactly, do I feel the need to be with you
all the time
? Do I want to drag you with me to Athens to show you off? Again, for me the answers are 'not all the time', and 'not this weekend, maybe later'."
I nodded thoughtfully. My emotions, seen in more focus through the lens of her little lecture, pretty much matched hers.
"For the record, I do not intend to hook up with anybody in Athens," put in Steff, "in case you were wondering. Not because I think I owe you anything, but because I know most of the guys who will be there, and none of them particularly impressed me before, much less now."
"In addition to other things, you know how to inflate a guy's ego," I observed with a smile, and Steff laughed. "But don't despair, there are always a few new guys at any college party," I added, as much to hear my own voice hold steady and almost encouraging.
Steff pursed her lips and shrugged. Our options were our own. Each of ours.
I shrugged too. "I think it shows that our minds are kind of in the same place when my brain did not immediately get concerned about other guys when you mentioned a party." I did not say out loud that what my mind had instead leapt to was the fact that Steff would not be in the house that night after my date with Meredith.
"Good," said Steff. "If we don't feel possessive or compulsive about each other, we aren't a couple. When... if... when that changes for either of us, we need to tell the other, right?"
"Right," I agreed with certainty. Chances were, if things evolved for one of us, they would probably be evolving for the other, and we would evolve together. It did not bear thinking on if only one of us changed our feelings on that in the future.
We sat there again for a few minutes, still taking inventory.
"Actually, I might would have invited you to Athens," said Steff, in the first non-grammatical thing I'd ever heard her say, "If it weren't for your date with Meredith. If I got in the way of that, she'd kill me."
"Really?" I asked, more enthusiastically than was perhaps wise when talking to a girl whose brains I had just balled out, and whose brains I fully intended to ball out again.
Steff's desert dry tone told me that however casual things might currently be between us, she was still a woman and I'd need to watch myself. "Yes, really. I don't know what she sees in your mangy ass, but she certainly finds you appealing."
I almost said 'really' again, in an even more enthusiastic voice, but I caught myself, because I am a learning
machine
. "What makes you think so?" I asked instead, possibly even more stupidly.