He'd been mingling, like his promoter had wanted, a ginger ale in his hand at all times. His best bud, Nick was still at their table, flirting with the twenty somethings. His face hurt from the fake smile he kept putting on. A flash of deep, vibrant mahogany caught his eye and he followed it to the bar.
As he moved to stand beside her, he bumped into the man on his right. He turned to apologize and met the hazel eyes of Phelan Nash.
"Hey, sorry man." He murmured, holding his hand out, palm up.
"No problem, Kian."
"I wasn't sure if you remembered."
"I remembered. You're kind of hard to forget. It was, sometimes, as if you were in the room."
"I honestly don't know what to say to that."
"You don't need to say anything. It's between Dari and me. Have you gotten her back yet?"
"Not yet."
"I'm surprised." Phelan said with a disbelieving snort.
"What do you mean?"
"She is so completely in love with you, I figured she'd jumped instantly back into your arms... and your bed."
"You really didn't get to know her, did you?"
"She kept a lot to herself. I wasn't going to pry."
"Then she never really trusted you enough." When Phelan turned, his eyes angry, Kian continued. "If she trusted you, or
anyone
at that time, she'd have told you any and everything. I destroyed an awful lot in her life. In
our
life. I'm sorry Phelan but you only glimpsed her treasure."
"You did at that." Phelan sighed, sipping his scotch. "And then I fucked her over myself. Harshly."
"Do I even...?"
"She caught me in bed with twins. She'd come to surprise me and ended up being surprised."
"That was harsh."
"She wouldn't let you go, man." Phelan gestured with his drink. "I'd find her crying sometimes, with a book in her hands. She was out one day and I opened the book, found a dried out bouquet of flowers. She wouldn't talk about it. Asked me to leave it alone, but I couldn't. We fought about it, often. I got mad, really mad. Crazy. I knew she'd come sometime and I took the twins anyway."
"Key, you're supposed to be mingling." Nick said over his shoulder.
"Nick, Phelan Nash. Phelan, Nick Thomas."
"Nice to meet you, Nick."
"You too, Mr. Nash. Key, get moving. The vulture is hovering. Sorry, Mr. Nash, Kian's gotta circulate or he's going to be blacklisted forever."
"No problem, Nick. Kian? I wish you the very best of luck in everything. Especially with Dari." Phelan held out his hand to shake. Kian grasped it firmly, pumped it twice.
"Thanks, Phelan. I'll need it." He said before moving on to continue circulating, Nick at his side.
"That's her Phelan Nash?"
"
Was
her Phelan Nash. Damn, Nick, I do believe I'm fucked."
"Why? What'd he do? Fuck around on her?"
"Yeah, he did. With twins."
"Lucky fucker...I mean fucking bastard." Nick said, shaking his head, as they wandered close to another knot of so called important people.
"Actually, those were my first thoughts too, but then I realized, she might not trust anyone...ever again."
"You never cheated on her."
"No, I didn't. I did worse." Kian replied before engaging the three moguls from two other recording companies.
Another two hours and he and Nick were on their way up to Kian's hotel room.
"My face fucking hurts." Kian groaned as he opened the door.
"I don't know how you do it, brother."
"I don't have much choice if I want to work."
"Your heartbreak songs are a bit..."
"Shut up."
"What? I was going to say too fucking sad, you asshole."
"Well, fuck you. I've been pretty sad lately. I write what I feel."
"Y'think she's heard it yet?"
"No idea but, I hope so. Might help me, if she has."
His whiskey voice faded out, the last note hung in the air before the deejay began their announcements. A joy I couldn't fathom raced through me.
'He's telling me, and the rest of the world, he's heartbroken. My Key. Does this tell me the apology I accepted is sincere? Does this mean he's serious? Do these words that have thawed my heart completely, truly come from his heart? That song is going to skyrocket. He said everything right. Everyone who hears it is going to feel it. Everyone has felt it.' I thought, pressing my fingertips to my eyes, feeling the now cooling tear tracks with surprise. "Still making me cry, Key, really?" I said out loud.
"Dear heavens, what's the man done now?" Keelan groused as she carried in my mail.
"Let me play it for you." I said swiping at my phone's screen. In seconds, his voice came crooning from the speaker. Keelan listened with her eyes closed, swaying a little with the heartbeats of the song.
"He's got such a beautiful voice."
"He does." I sighed.
"And a wonderful talent to get you to feel what he's singing about."
"That he does." I sighed again, listening to him, to my heart thundering in my chest.
"He'll be on Scot's show tonight."
"Really?"
"I just heard the commercial downstairs."
"I'm gonna have to watch, just to see what those two get up to. They always made me laugh."
Hours later, I lay snuggled under my covers, Keelan beside me with her sleepy tea, waiting through Scot's other two guests for Kian's appearance. After the commercial break, the camera caught him. A single spotlight highlighted him as he perched sexily on a stool, his hands caressing his guitar. By the third line of his song, I was streaming tears. Every word, every note rang my heart dry. Through my tears and the TV screen, I met his eyes. I saw his heart there. After he finished, he sat beside Scot, shaking his hand. Once he was comfortable, Scot began.
"Kian, it's been a while."
"It has been."
"Lots going on in your life lately."
"Yeah, you could say that." Kian nodded.
"That's a new one?"
"Yeah, it is."
"Kinda sad."
"Yeah, I've been pretty sad for a while." Kian admitted with a shrug.
"Dari still out on her own?" I perked up on my pillows.
"I guess so."
"Miss her?"
"Very much." Kian answered with a scant glance at the camera.
"You're such a dumb ass, y'know?"
"That I do. And yes, I am."
"Fine. Now, my friend, tell me about this." Scot said, a picture flashing up on the screen. Kian and Phelan. I bolted up from my pillows with a gasp.
"That was a couple of weeks ago at the company schmooze fest."
"Were you commiserating? Since both of you lost an amazing woman. Couple of ijits, if you ask me." I had to remember to send him an edible arrangement.
"No." Kian answered simply, his eyebrow cocked as he gazed at Scot.
"Comparing notes?" Scot teased. "Not that you've ever been one to kiss and tell."
"No, nothing like that."
"No blows were thrown, I
do
know that. You can be a gentleman when you want to."
"Not a one. I know she wouldn't want that. For either of us." I heard him answer softly.
"I'd like to throw a few... at both of
you
though." I growled at the TV.