A welcome in the valleys
Being an eighteen-year-old at university is a life changing time. From a structured and organised life with very few responsibilities, to being almost 100% independent can put a massive strain on your character.
You either thrive or crumble.
If you falter, then, often you will seek solace in others. In that environment, friendships can quickly blossom into relationships, not all of which are stable, but are all a part of the growing experience, and many of which can become sexual, allowing for further validation of your new independence.
Because of this, and the fact that I am quite a good listener, I had a few "friendships" like this.
This is the story of one that particularly sticks in my mind, of a girl named Sian, and her transformation from a shy, introspective, scholarly person into a rampant she-devil who couldn't get enough.
Sian was from North Wales, a shy vibrant girl, standing 5'8" with long black hair and round, innocent brown eyes offset against flawless alabaster skin. She was reading Applied Mathematics, which, coupled with her 36-28-36 body shape made her the perfect package.
She arrived at university with a strong connection to David, her longtime sweetheart, who had just got into the Police College at Hendon. She believed that the strength of their love could stand the 150-mile separation, and that he would always be there for her.
Sadly, the first weekend she travelled up to see him she returned in tears, as he'd decided that a long-distance relationship wasn't compatible with the life of a young Police Officer he'd chosen.
I was good friends with her, and all the girls on her corridor in the accommodation block (men on the ground floor, women on the two floors above - meant for a safer environment).
So, when I saw her coming back into halls, with her makeup smeared, looking like one of Shakespeare's Sisters, I duly went to find out if she was OK, or if I could help.
Sian was in a bit of a state when she answered her single room's door, and burst into further tears when she saw me. She turned around and went to sit on her bed, I followed inside and closed the door behind me. I sat in her chair next to the bed.
"What's happened?" I asked, leaning forward and taking her hands.
"He dumped me," she sobbed. "He said it wouldn't work us being so far apart."
"Aw, sweetheart," I said, "that's horrible. Is it irrecoverable?"
"He said it wasn't worth being with me unless I could give him something to hold onto," she said.
"What did he mean by that?" I asked, although I could guess. Sian had told me that she and David had never got further than heavy petting.
"You know," she said, suddenly looking coy from behind her long lashes, "that." I have to say that her vulnerability was stirring me in ways that I knew it shouldn't.
"Ah," I said, "that."
"Yes," she said, "he said if I loved him, then I should want to sleep with him. That I would want to go all the way with him. That he wanted something to be able to think about when I wasn't with him. I think he just wanted something to boast about to his fellow trainees. I saw the way they looked at me."
I couldn't blame them for staring. If she had been wearing what she was wearing now - a tight white top that highlighted her shoulders and ample breasts, a pair of grey skin-tight light denim trousers, pixie-boots and a light jacket thrown over her shoulders. If it wasn't for the streaks down her face, she could have stepped off a magazine cover.
"Look," I said, "blokes can be idiots like that. We sometimes say things without thinking. I bet he regretted letting his dick talk for him as soon as you left." As I said the word "dick", Sian drew her breath in sharply. Damn! I forget she could be quite prudish at times - I always had to be careful what jokes I told her, as she hated "crude language".
I hastily tried to cover it up with a, "well, it's his loss really," comment, and that seemed to calm the situation.
I stood up. "Come here, I think you need a hug," I said. She stood up and came into my arms. I held her carefully, and gently kissed the top of her head, as I had done time and time before.
This time, though, it was a bit different. The smell of her hair, and the smell of her perfume, was intoxicating. I held on maybe a little too long, and felt the familiar stir of my dick in my trousers.
"Stop!" I thought to myself, "this is not the time!" and I pulled away from her slightly. Or, at least tried to.
She had different ideas, however. She wrapped her arms round my back, and pulled me closer to her, looking up at my face as she did. This meant that my, now hardening, penis pressed into her stomach, and I saw her eyes widen slightly, before narrowing in an expression I'd never seen on her.
She pulled away, looked up at, me, and smiled.
"You always know how to make me feel better, Adam," she said, "I needed that hug."
"You look done in," I said. "Do you want me to make you tea, or something to eat?"
"No thanks," she said, "I think I need to lie down. I'm really tired."
"OK," I said, "I'll leave you alone to rest. I'll pop back up and check you're OK in an hour if you'd like?"
"I'd rather you stayed," she said, "I just want some company and not to think about that bastard!" She blushed.
Where was this going, I wondered. I'd helped her to her bed in the past when she'd had a bit too much to drink, but it was always a case of making sure she was laying down on top of her bed, had water and paracetamol (and the bin, if needed), and then I'd let myself out.
I sat back down, and watched her take off her jacket, and then turn to her sink to take off her makeup. "I look a fucking state!" she said, and flashed a grin at me in the mirror.
She seemed to get through her makeup removal quite quickly, kicked off her boots, and lay down on her bed still fully clothed. She suddenly sat upright, reached in under her arms and removed her bra through one sleeve in that way some women can. She lay back down on her side facing me, and smiled.
I looked across at her from the chair, and she rolled from her side onto her back. Her breasts didn't sag at all, even unsupported as they now must be. Gods, she was gorgeous. She still had some smudged mascara near her eyes, and hadn't quite removed all her lipstick, but that just made her seem more vulnerable and sexier.
I could see her nipples were pressed against her t-shirt was it my imagination, or were they hard? My dick twitched again.
Her eyes closed, and her breathing slowed. It looked like she was going to sleep. Good. That's what she needed.
It was an early autumn evening, but it was warm in her room, even though was just wearing my own t-shirt with cut down jeans, and nothing else. It felt quite relaxing sitting there in her chair, watching the slow rise and fall of her breasts as she drifted off to sleep. My eyes closed, and soon I was dozing too.
I must have slept for about half an hour before coming slowly awake.
I opened my eyes and saw that Sian was still fast asleep. She must have been moving around on her bed, and her t-shirt had crept up, exposing her stomach and the very bottom of her areola. My penis twitched his appreciation. Further down, her jeans had pulled in tighter, and it looked like I could see the outline of her pussy - was she not wearing panties? My dick grew in admiration.
This was getting out of hand. I really should leave, I thought to myself.
I realised that I felt someone was looking at me, and drew my gaze from Sian's crotch, and met her eyes from the bed. She looked amused, not angry.
"Ah," I said, "back with us? How are you feeling?"
"A bit better, but I need another hug," she said from the bed. I noticed she still hadn't pulled down her top, and I could still see the base of her nipple. Was it me, or did it look harder?
"Come on then," I said, "I'll give you a hug, and go. You can relax properly then."
"No." she said. "I want a hug here. On the bed. With you."
My mouth was suddenly as dry as a desert. The opposite could be said for the tip of my cock, which was pressed against my button fly, and I could feel was leaking. "Behave!" I thought to myself.
"Are you sure?" I asked.
"I wouldn't have said it if I wasn't." she said. "
I want you
."
The last was said almost as an aside. I wasn't sure that I'd heard it correctly, so thought I'd ignore it.
"OK," I said, "scoot over."
"Lock the door," she said, and shifted over to the far side of the bed.
I locked the door, and then climbed onto the bed, kicking off my sandals as I did.
She now rolled towards me, and snuggled into my armpit, resting her head on my shoulder. I could smell her hair again - why was this pushing all my buttons? I'd never seen her like this. I kissed the top of her head, and she looked up at me.
"Thank you for looking out for me," she said, "you know I love you, don't you?"
"Love you right back," I said and then felt a twinge of sadness as I saw hurt pass across her face.
Shit! She meant it, and I'd responded too light-heartedly.