A Warm Welcome.
It was a warm welcome indeed!
Sitting on the chair, looking at everyone in my line of sight, I was bored. I had to do something- fiddle with my phone maybe. Check Instagram if someone liked my picture, or maybe shoot a few goals on Score Hero. Whatever be the case, I had to go out of this miserable party. And why not? The host was barely my friend, and I was simply here for the food. Now that I saw the food and understood the intricacies of veganism perpetrating through the population, I had lost my appetite. With such diabolical thoughts in mind, I stood up to leave this hell-hole.
And then P interrupted my train of thought.
'Oy. Where you going?'
'Home.'
'So early? Stay for a while.'
'Eh.'
P was a friend. P was a guide. P was a philosopher. P was a warm wind blowing across the sea on a cold January night. And I had a bit of crush on P. Brilliant, wasn't it? I was attracted to a girl who reminded me of warm sea breezes, rather than dynamical volcanic eruptions. Come on, M. You could do better.
Or could I? For P was also one of the smartest people I knew. Stupendously witty, sarcastic, and downright cynical to boot, I enjoyed my camaraderie with her. Icing on the cake, she was extremely aesthetic. With plump red lips, and glossy hair flowing down her shoulder in cascades, she was the stuff dreams were made of. But enough about that. We aren't here to talk about how gorgeous she was. We are here to talk about how we screwed each other like bunnies later that night.
Oh, we did fuck. But we will talk about that later. No point doling out candies before Halloween.
So, I stopped moving. In a purely mechanical, 'I can't seem to think' way, I plopped down on my seat and waited for her to come. But my mind wasn't on the conversation. I wanted to leave, even if it was P holding on to one end of the thread. My mental faculties had shut down completely, and I had a feeling that tonight wouldn't be a good night. Sorry Will.I.Am.
'Let's go out. This room is extremely claustrophobic'.
I had to leave. Even if I absolutely adored her company, I couldn't tolerate the rest.
'Sure, let's go.'
As we walked past hordes of drunken frat boys and girls ravenously sucking each other's tonsils out, I had an epiphany of sorts. What if I was one of them at some point in time? What if all I had to do was gulp down a single shot and start grinding my hips on the first woman I saw? That would be bad. That would be perilously dangerous.
We walked down the cobbled stoneways out into the main street. The fresh air hitting my face at 3 km/hr and P going on talking about some obscure law at 30 km/h felt like home. This was life, where you didn't have to look behind your back every couple of minutes for you were afraid of your own mortality. We spoke, we laughed, she tripped, I trumbled. We were a mess. We were a team, but we were a mess. As I helped her up, I couldn't help notice that her eyes sparkled with an unholy light. Stuff straight out of a Coleridge poem.
I couldn't help but lean in. Lean in dangerously close to her lightly parted lips. With her warm breath falling on my face, I inched in closer, praying to fate that what I was doing wouldn't have repercussions that could possibly damage a lot of lives. As I saw her eyes flutter close, I closed in the distance and gently wrapped my lips around hers.
Holy Mother of God!
I couldn't believe that a sea breeze could turn into tidal wave and break down every single element of my being. I was sucked in, and I couldn't help but hold on to her for dear life. My lips were being ravished upon, while my hands kept running down her back. Her supple back, wherein I fluttered my fingers upon. She kissed me once, she kissed me twice, she kissed me until I was frothing at the mouth, having been rendered immobile. I could feel her heartbeat thundering - or was it mine? I could feel blood rushing down my body, to places that could potentially make any situation dangerous.
I lifted her up, and pushed her against a wall that had decided to be my wingman for the night. Grabbing onto her waist, I started kissing down her jaw, biting on the ceramic skin which drew gasps from her. I couldn't help it- I needed her. The wanton lust in my being was clawing its way out through the previously impregnable barriers that I had put before myself. I had to have her then. I had to have her again. My fingers clutched at her, my lips worked on her body in fervid frenzy. She had her arms wrapped around my neck, her fingers burrowing their way through my hair as she kept moaning to anyone that was eavesdropping.
Remind me to pay my landlord double this month. Lucky bastard picked an amazing location to set his flat up.
I hated my residence. No, it wasn't dingy or tiny, or anything. It just made me feel captured- imprisoned in a structure of my own construct. What was previously a home, was simply a house now.