My name is Vanessa, people call me Van. I am 42 years old, single mother of two. This is my story. It's true. I have changed our names, but everything else I am writing, it nothing but the truth.
My boyfriend is Jimmy, almost 40 years old. He is tall, 6'2", around 220 pounds. In every since of the word, he is a 'manly' man. Rugged, experienced and a seriously above average IQ. He can be somewhat arrogant, but in reality, he has every right to be. He has lived more of life than most people even dream of. Now don't get me wrong, being such a 'manly' man, as he is, he is also one of the most sensitive and caring men I have ever met in my life. As you can probably tell by now, I am deeply and hopelessly in love with him.
When Jimmy and I met, we both were coming out of bad relationships. Neither one of us wanted a serious relationship, but we were both looking for friendship. Yes, it was friends with benefits. Jimmy and I both have unusually high sex drives. This relationship lasted a year. We came to know each other very well. He honestly became my best friend. I could tell him anything. We would talk about our darkest fantasies and talk about the 'dark' side of our lives. He would never judge me, nor would I judge him. I respected and admired him.
Jimmy would do things to me that I never thought I would ever let anyone do. I remember the first time he discovered I was not an anal virgin. We were in his hot tub, while he was fingering me, he slipped one in my ass. He knew immediately I liked what he was doing. He made the comment:
"You are a dirty little slut aren't you..."
We would spend hours having sex...the one thing I was not sure of was the way he would pinch my nipples. No one had ever been rough with my tits, except for the occasional rough squeeze in the heat of passion. But Jimmy would pinch my nipples so much that I would be sore for days. As uncomfortable as it was, I did enjoy this and became quite accustomed to it. To tell you the truth, I can't imagine NOT having my nipples pinched and pulled now.
Jimmy's fantasies and mine have always run along the same lines...abusing, degrading and the humiliation of women. Jimmy would enjoy rougher sex, however, actually fulfilling a fantasy such as this was not really him. He honestly is a very sensitive person. One night while I was at his house, we were talking and he said it was a fantasy of his to face fuck a woman and not care about how she felt. I told him that I would let him do that with me, he blushed somewhat and said that he could not do it because he would feel guilty and would not be able to look at me the next day. I told him I really did not mind if he put his hands on my head and forced me. In fact, I had never let a man put his hands on my head while I was giving them a blow job, that was one of those things I had to have complete control over. I was actually quite an impressive cock sucker and I knew that. He never really did force his cock down my throat, but on occasion, he would put his hand on my head...but nothing too rough.
I had a boyfriend who would enjoy rougher sex, but still there was always a point where I had control and it never really went very far. It was more of the verbal than anything with him. He did enjoy talking dirty to me while having sex and enjoyed it while I talked dirty to him as well.
Jimmy is more of a quiet lover. There are times, he does not make a noise. Me on the other hand, I am quite the opposite. I am very vocal. With having two kids, I have to constantly remind myself to be quiet.
I remember the first time I every gave Jimmy head. He was sitting on the couch while I was kneeling in front of him. He has the most magnificent cock. It's actually much larger than the average. It's straight, thick and just down right perfect. Honestly, I can take an average mans length, but Jimmy, I was never able to take him fully. I did my best to please him. He did not cum easily...I swear I must have worked him for 45 minutes, He finally shot his load.
Since the beginning, I have always enjoyed giving him head. I enjoy it so much it is actually a turn on to me. At this point, I have to say I am one of the rare women who can literally flood a bed when I orgasm. When I am sucking on Jimmy's cock, I get very wet. I think he knows how much I enjoy sucking him since he can feel how wet I am.
One weekend, while camping, I was in my usual position on my right side sucking his cock in bed. I had written a story about men using a woman for their pleasure. I also talked about them fucking her throat in the story. Well, Jimmy read the story that day (I usually let him read all my stories because if he likes them, I can see the hard on building. If they are just ok, then there is no hard on.) He liked this story. That made me happy. While I was doing my usual, his hand came from my back and on top of my head. He began forcing his cock deeper in my mouth. He was enjoying using my mouth and became more vocal than usual. He put both hands on my head and pushed my head farther. To my surprise, his cock slipped past the back of my mouth and into my throat. I immediately gagged. (Something that I usually don't do.) He let me up and I was gasping for air. My face was coated with my saliva, one of his hands came around to my face and softly stroked my wet cheek. When he did that, I immediately orgasmed. I was sopping wet. He pushed me down again and thrust his cock in my throat, I again orgasmed. Never in my wildest dreams had I ever thought that having a man force his cock in my throat while I choked and gagged would bring me to orgasm. I know he was lost in the feeling as well...he began talking to me.
"Oh yes, that's it, that is how you deep throat....take it, choke on my cock..." he went on and on.
