Hi everybody. My name's Bill. Let's get something straight, off the top. I've always been a very sexual being. I mean, in high school and college I dated as much as possible. Most times I was going with another girl before I finished with my current girl. Sometimes I got them together. Then I met Cindy my senior year at Laurier.
Cindy was a doll. Fucking gorgeous, she was. She kinda looked like Kelly McGillis. You know, from the movie Witness? With Harrison Ford? Tall, about five eight. Boobs, not so big, but the shape of them, and her hips, her waist, and that ass. Wow, the way she filled out those jeans. And she really was, still is, stunning in a pair of jeans. Man, she loved to suck dick. She'd suck me every chance she got. After we started fucking she couldn't give that up either. We fucked almost every night and when she wasn't fucking she was sucking. Well, she was the one for me. I figured a woman as smart as her, as sexy as her, and with an appetite to match mine, we were made for each other.
We were married about 3 months when she stopped giving me blow jobs every day. She said her taste buds had changed and she didn't like my taste anymore. We were still fucking every night, so that was good along with the occasional hummer. It didn't hit me 'til months later but we slowly started easing off of that too. By then it was fucking twice a week and no blow jobs at all. I figured, hey, every relationship goes like that and we were still about average for most people. Then it was once a week, then three times a month, then twice a month, three times in two months, and so on. After 4 years of marriage, it was once a month. I suggested we go for counseling to see if we can spark her sex drive. She said she wasn't interested and never really had been. She had just given in to me to get me to marry her. She figured it was time for me to grow up and get on with life like every other adult.
I lasted about two years like that before I had my first affair. I really didn't want to. I was desperate for sex with my wife, not someone else. But I was away at a conference. I'd had a few drinks. And this enchanting creature that I'd met wanted to eat dinner with our group. By the time dinner was done her hand was running up and down my leg, and I was putty in her hands. I begged off more drinks with the group and she came to my room. We fucked like mad, 5 times in one night. I couldn't get enough. I was hooked. Of course after the conference she went back to her husband in Nebraska and I went back to Mitchell-fucking-Ontario.
I tried to put it out of my mind, but I couldn't. I felt no guilt, which actually bothered me more than the cheating did. But I was smart, successful, and under thirty and I suddenly had no trouble finding women who would gladly sleep with me. This went on for a few years until I met up, in Kitchener, with a girl I'd met online. Cindy's brother was in town and happened to be in the same bar and saw me with her, although I didn't see him. About two weeks later Tom, her brother from the bar, and her other two brothers Larry and Phil, met me after work and took me out to a field and worked me over pretty good.
I suppose I can't blame them. I figured I finally got what was coming to me and resigned myself to a life of near celibacy. But then the bastards told Cindy. At a family dinner a few months later, can you believe it? What the fuck? I mean, seriously! Boy, was she pissed. She was screaming at me while her brothers and parents were sitting there. I took it for a bit, but she wouldn't let up, then her family started in on me.
Finally I had enough and I turned to her and said, "Well, if you'd have sex with me more than 4 times a year, I wouldn't do these things." Ten years we'd been married now.
Cindy's reply was something about how I was a lousy lover anyways. You could've heard a pin drop.
Larry spoke up and said sheepishly how I had dated his wife years ago, before Cindy. I'm ashamed to admit I don't remember that. Anyways Laura, his wife, had told Larry I was an "amazing lover" and she would have loved to have another night with me. Her words. Larry didn't look too happy about that but he didn't say anything. Laura was blushing furiously but just shrugged when everyone looked at her.
Then Tom turned to me and apologized for what they had done. He said he'd cheat too if his wife only put out that often, barring a legitimate reason. Tracy, his wife, glowered at him but didn't protest so I guess she agreed.
Cindy's mom said that I shouldn't have done what I did and we should have tried to work it out at therapy or something.
I had to laugh at that and just shrugged and pointed to Cindy. They all looked at her and she said she didn't need a therapist, I was the one that was oversexed.
Her mother looked at her, then at me, then put her hand over mine. She said, "Bill, we have a neighbor who would love to meet you." Wow. Cindy started to say something but her mother said, "I don't know where you got your ideas, Cindy. But sex is as natural as breathing and it's not healthy to stifle your sexual appetite. And it's not fair that you stifle the man you supposedly love."
I mean, you could have floored me with a feather. Her own parents and siblings are now defending me.
Cindy protested some more but her mom and dad weren't having it. Her mom says, "Cindy. We all think you're wrong. Can you not entertain the idea that you might be?"
Cindy looked at all of us. I actually felt bad for her, everyone being against her and all. After all, I was in her shoes thirty minutes earlier. But I didn't say a word. Everyone else said their piece then let it go. The dinner broke up soon after and we left and Cindy was quiet all the way home. When we got home she went and had a shower and went to bed. Didn't say "good night", "I love you", or "kiss my ass".
She was pretty quiet for a week or so. Then she comes to me after work the next Friday and says she's going to stay at her brother's place. Larry's. She says she loves me, then takes a gym bag full of stuff and goes. I gotta tell you, I was pissed. I mean, I loved her. Except for the sex thing, I loved everything else about her. I know, I know. I'm the one that fucked up by screwing around. I honestly didn't want to. But I needed more than what she was giving me and I was starting to resent her, hate her. She was gone for a week. I didn't fuck around that whole time. I didn't feel like it. I felt sick and depressed. I know she went to work because I would come home at three thirty and see she had taken something out of the closet or left something in the laundry.
She came back to me on Friday. I got home at four that day and she was in the kitchen making supper. She acted like everything was normal. We had supper, talked about work, what happened that week. We sat on the couch and watched TV. The only difference was she sat closer and touched me more. Not a word about what happened.
Until we went to bed. I wasn't expecting anything so I laid on my back in the nude, that's how I sleep, and closed my eyes. I knew she was looking at me, but I was hurt. I know, I cheated, but in my mind she drove me to it and that hurt too.
After a few minutes she turned on her side facing me and rested her hand on my chest. God help me as much as I was pissed I still wanted her and that was enough to make my cock grow. Her fingers, just tracing through my chest hairs. She moved closer and kissed my shoulder and whispered something.
I couldn't make it out so I just said, "Huh?"
Cindy cleared her throat and told me she loved me. Well, how could I ignore that? I rolled over to face her and told her I loved her too. She started crying and just hugged me. She told me she was sorry and said she wanted to try again. What could I say. I loved her. I rolled her over onto her back and kissed her softly on the lips. I told her I couldn't promise I wouldn't ever stray again, but as long as she was trying, I would too. She just stared into my eyes and nodded her understanding.
I kissed her forehead, then. I kissed her hairline, nuzzling into her scalp. Something about the smell, I don't know. I love doing that.