This is my first story, so I hope you all enjoy it. I would love to hear your comments.
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Sometimes I lose my perspective. I tend to think of myself as no less normal that every other person running around. Everyone gets up, showers and shaves, gets dressed and goes to work in the morning. Of course, I put on clothes from a Big and Tall store and work in a lab where even the security guards have advanced degrees.
I was just about done building the stabilizer for my latest project when my boss came into my office. "Buck, we need to talk. Personnel has flagged your file because you haven't taken your annual leave for over four years. Your last psych evaluation came back within the acceptable range, but it did show a marked increase in stress levels. You need a vacation."
"Jack, I was kind of sick that day, and the miniaturized servos for the orthocopter weren't working. Anyway, in another month I'll be ready for sub-assembly testing, which should only take about two months. Then assembly, and another round of testing, probably some retooling, debugging and tuning will be required. But I should be done by say June of next year. I'll take my vacation then."
"No, you won't Buck. Because by the time this project is done, there will be another project with another tantalizingly close milestone. I won't let you end up like Regan."
"Yeah, Regan. Didn't they find him stark naked on his lab table singing 'The Candyman'?" I asked. "I don't think you have to worry about me doing that, I don't even know the words to the song."
"Look Buck, I'm serious..."
I cut him off saying, "Look, I promise, as soon as this project is over, I will spend at least a week on some beach drinking from coconuts with little umbrellas. Besides, you can't make me take a vacation."
"No, but I can fire you. You need to take a step back and get some perspective."
I couldn't help but giggle about needing perspective. The giggling is what decided me, Jack was right, I did need a break. Besides, he really would fire me for my own good, and trying to explain to another employer why I didn't do any work for the past five years would be a little tricky.
"Fine," I said, "I'll finish up this component and be ready for vacation by the beginning of next month."
"I've already talked to security, your codes expire on Friday, that's tomorrow in case you forgot. I also gave them orders to turn you away if you try to show up before New Years," Jack said before strolling out of my office. Three months? I didn't even know I had that much vacation time.
I sat there for nearly an hour, pretending to be working, before giving it up and heading home. As I was driving to my apartment, I knew I was only going to be there long enough to pack and head to the only real home I knew.
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I took the scenic route, rather than the interstate or flying. The dappled sunlight on the back roads eased my nerves more than saving an hour or two by fighting traffic. Driving was also much more relaxing than waiting in lines, to sit on a cramped plane while the idiot in front of me slams his seat against my knees. After ten hours of driving, I pulled into town and was already feeling more relaxed. It was just past four, so I decided to swing past my alma mater's campus before heading to the apartment I had arranged to rent.
I drove by the campus slowly, watching the edifices of education go by. For four years of undergraduate study this was a home away from home. But over the years of graduate work, my parent's house became the home away from home, and the city surrounding my school became my real home.
It is actually a very quirky city, even more so than the average college town. The main reason is the number and disparity of universities that the city boasts. The city has everything from prestigious law schools, to beauty schools, a world renown school of fine arts, and more than a few trade schools. It also boasted just about everything in between. I, of course, went to the technical institute where we laughed at all the liberal arts types. They, in turn, laughed at us.
Although there were rooms for let near the school where I spent nearly a decade studying, I decided to rent a nice loft downtown, with a river view. Since I hadn't taken a vacation in four years, I could afford to splurge a bit.
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I went around to the leasing office, filled out the requisite forms and was shown to my temporary abode on the tenth floor. People always told me it is ironic that a guy my size is afraid of heights. That being said, I did take advantage of the floor to ceiling view of the river, from a conservative three feet away. I unpacked my things and decided to head out into the city.
I took a stroll through the city and walked the familiar streets. I didn't have a particular destination in my, but I soon found myself standing outside of Brewster's Tap. Brewster's Tap was a below street level bar that tried to be an English Pub. Furnished in brass, leather and polished wood, it was a cozy place for the more discerning of the college crowd and the young professionals. I had spent many a night distressing in this quaint establishment while in grad school.
The owner of Brewster's Tap, Chuck Flowers, was a pot-bellied man with an impossible to place accent. He had gray hair, gray eyes and the habit of wearing gray clothes. If he didn't swear so much, I would have thought him a priest torn from a black and white movie. He could be a caustic sort, but he was also a good friend.
I climbed down the steps and remembered just in time to duck under the door lintel. Although the door frame is wide enough for my shoulders, the lintel was only six feet five inches over the threshold. At six foot six myself, that meant it is low enough for me to crack my head, but high enough that when I am drunk and having perspective problems I manage to brain myself. I would roundly curse all buildings built before modern codes, swear I would never return, only to make myself a liar the very next night.
As it was still early in the evening, the place was pretty empty. I strolled down the length of the bar, checking out the latest additions. Brewster's has a tradition that once you drank a hundred different beers they buy you a mug and hang it on a hook on the wall. There were maybe a dozen new additions since I was last here five years ago, and maybe the same number had been replaced with tombstone like plaques which indicated a person had moved on and taken the mug with them. Each mug was specially designed for the drinker by Chuck, usually with some input from the drinker in question. Some were short and wide, others tall and narrow, and each had a beautiful painting on the front and a name on the back, reversed for the left handed drinkers of course.
I was halfway down the bar when I saw a mug that surprised me. It surprised me because after five years I would have expected it to have been retired. Usually a person takes the mug with them, but sometimes they forget, and when forgotten and a certain amount of dust has accumulated, the mugs are wrapped up and retired. But there was my mug, looking exactly as it had been when I left. It was still the smallest mug in the bar, and the one with the simplest painting. A stag's head with an exaggeratedly complex set of antlers graced the front of the mug, and on the back in suitably bold gothic letters: "BUCK."
I took the mug down, my mug, and headed for my favorite stool. The owner had a peculiar sense of humor and had the mug crafted to tease me. I was never much of a beer drinker, and it took me more than four years to choke down enough beers to qualify for my own mug. In between I would annoy the bartender by ordering obscure mixed drinks that would send him to his barman's guide, my favorite being a gloom lifter which actually contained an egg white! Anyway, the night I finally downed my hundredth different beer, and was drunkenly telling Chuck what sort of design I wanted, I proclaimed, "I want the biggest mug in the whole bar, since I am the biggest guy in the whole bar." I then proceeded to explain in detail the colors I wanted, and about the elaborate design featuring symbols from math and science. Anyway, when he unveiled my mug, there were hoots from everyone in the bar. Instead of the biggest mug, he had given me the smallest. Of course, Chuck was thinking better than I was since if I had a bigger mug, then it would always look mostly empty with, as Chuck put it, "You're fancy-smancy bartender's nightmares."
"Barkeep, let me have a gloom lifter," I called out as I placed the mug on the bar top. Since it was still early, I knew Chuck would probably be in the kitchen getting ready for the brief dinner crowd.
A young guy with a stained apron came out of the kitchen at looked at me strangely before asking, "what the heck is a gloom lifter?" He then noticed the mug in my hands and said, "Hey those mugs are for regulars only, we have other glasses you know."
"This is my mug; I'm Buck." I glanced the guy over for a bit before adding, "So where's Chuck?"
"Chuck? Chuck died three years ago. His daughter runs the place now, but she is finishing her degree so she doesn't usually come in until later."
I felt like an ass. Chuck wasn't just my bartender in college, he was a friend. How could I not know that he had died. Heck, how could I not have known he had a daughter.
"Just give me a bourbon and coke," I said handing him my mug. My earlier nostalgia quickly fading. I drank my drink, and a few more. Then I ordered the fish and chips. They were just as good as when Chuck was running the kitchen, so the recipe had outlived the man.
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I hadn't intended to get drunk, but perspective was catching up on me a little too quickly. My static little world of the last five years hadn't prepared me for the changes to everything else. Maybe it is a good thing I had a forced vacation. I couldn't help but laugh when I realized I didn't even know who the President was anymore. Laughing when you are drinking alone is definitely a bad sign.
Just then, over the noise in the now crowded bar, I heard a woman angrily shout, "Michael, I told you not to retire any mugs without my say so."
Michael, I soon discovered, was the bartender. He was quickly out from behind the bar and heading in the direction of the angry voice. I glanced in that direction with slightly bleary eyes but couldn't tell who had raise the ruckus. So, I returned to contemplating perspective, and bourbon. I heard the angry woman's voice becoming slightly less angry, and finally quiet enough that it blended with the background noise.
I was soon down to the last swallow, and decided I should probably call it quits before they had to drag me out of the bar. I reached into my pocket for my wallet while trying to find where the bartender had run off to. Then I remember the argument and looked behind me, but he wasn't there either.