What a night. I just can't believe I did that. What a night.
I've fantasised with the idea for perhaps the last three years. Five if I'm being honest, but for that first while it was little more than a taboo fantasy that scared me outside of my imagination.
Well, it happened And I can't believe it, even now. After the deed.
At the start of the evening, with my gladrags on and make-up applied, I thought I was setting off for another night with the girls. Dinner, a few drinks, some huddled dancing in a crowded club and, perhaps, depending on time constraints and sobriety, some chips from the shop facing the taxi rank before going home.
It began that way.
Beverley and Donna arrived here at around seven o'clock. We sipped at a few vodka and lemonades, double, triple and quadruple checked our hair and war paint as the clock inched toward eight, and the beeping of a pre-booked cab.
The driver was a little late, but none of us cared. We still tipped him as he dropped us off in the centre of town, and he grinned in appreciation. At least I think that's what he was grinning at. I suppose it could have been having three jovial women giggling in the back seat, Donna in a low-cut top and Beverley in a short skirt. Maybe the tip was a little too much, thinking about it.
The town was buzzing quite well as we bundled ourselves into the first club of the night.
The bass-tones of the music throbbed through my feet and, along with the buzz of the alcohol, served to intoxicate my senses. I found us a nice alcove in the corner of the building, threw myself into the padded seating, and surveyed the other party-goers as Donna struggled through the crowd at the bar to get served. Beverley fiddled through her bag for something, next to me, and applied a new coat of lip-gloss with the help of her compact mirror.
Two young men sauntered past us, their hair cut almost to their skulls, and wearing what looked to be designer clothes. They paid us little attention, if any.
Too old for them.
Donna returned with the drinks, beaming from ear to ear. Much too happy for someone just back from the chaos of the bar.
"What have you been up to?" I asked, reaching out to take a glass. I watched her in bemusement.
"I was getting the drinks." She threw herself down on the other side of the table and giggled.
"Yeah right. I know that look. You've been up to something." I sipped from my drink and nudged her hand with mine. "Come on, what happened?"
"I'm not staying long." Her eyes and teeth gleamed even in the low light as she grinned for all her worth.
"Slut," Beverley shouted. She clasped her knuckles to her mouth, too late, and all three of us guffawed with laughter. The music continued to pound and no-one paid us any heed.
Phew.
A few drinks later and the night was ours. Beverley managed to pull me up onto the dance floor and, with a firm grip on my wrists, tugged and prodded me around to something similar to the beat. I was getting tipsy by this point. The best part of being drunk. Just enough to make the world more vibrant and cheery. And to let the vulnerabilities slip off my shoulders and spend an evening under my feet, rather than around my neck.
Before long Beverley found herself in the arms of someone else, some dark-haired guy in a gaudy Affliction shirt. A bit of a poser.
I made my way back to the alcove, plonked myself down in the soft seating, and sipped at my drink, all the while watching everyone else having fun.
That's when things got interesting. Very interesting indeed.
"You mind if I sit here?"
I looked up to the owner of the new voice. Wow. He towered above me at around six-foot-two, just a plain grey t-shirt stretched across his broad, bulbous shoulders and, although cut off a bit tight around his biceps, not enough to be considered a desperate ploy for attention. He smiled at me and I saw something humble in his eyes. I wasn't sure if I was fooling myself, but he didn't seem to be the usual cocky, young MILF hunter that I'd found myself trying to escape from on most nights out. I smiled back. "Sorry?"
"You mind if I sit here?" He pointed to the other side of the table to clarify.
"Sure. I mean, yeah." I shifted myself a little further into the alcove like a schoolgirl trying to hide her activities from her parents. I should have known at that point it was going to lead to something. But I didn't. Or at least I didn't admit it to myself, if I did.
"You here on your own?"
"I came with some friends, but they've buggered off and left me here alone." I watched him watching me, his lips parted a fraction of an inch, and a tiny, pink patch of his tongue visible in the cleft.
Gorgeous.
Whilst trying to keep myself focused on his words, and not be too blatant, I stole glimpses of his body. His large shoulders bulked out from his thick neck, and led to strong, pale arms and a pair a huge hands that wrapped around his pint glass like it belonged to a child's kitchen set. I squirmed beneath the table, crossing and uncrossing the heels of my shoes out of sight.
"Want a fresh drink?" Again that smile. I had no resistance to it. And to be honest, I didn't want one.
"Vodka and lime, please." I finished off the glass in front of me, and handed it to him as he stood up. So tall. And big all round. I gazed at him as he barged his way through other people for the bar. His jeans held tight to his bum, half of it hidden under the flapping hem of his shirt. His legs didn't seem as muscular as his upper-body. But still pretty damn divine. I wiped the moisture from my mouth just in case I was drooling. Close call.
"I'm off. Catch up with you later?"
"What?" I stammered, bringing myself back to the rest of the world. I found Beverley swaying back and forth in front of me, her eyes spinning in the sockets and one arm draped around the waist of her dancing partner.
"I'm off. Maybe we can catch up later?"
I grinned. "Yeah. See you in the morning." I chuckled and rolled my eyes at her.
She giggled and the two of them staggered off together.
The man with no name returned with two drinks, set them down on the table and slid himself in beside me, nudging at me with his hip until I moved further along. I was just about to ask him his name, when he blurted it out.
"Jack. Or Jackie. That's what my mates call me. You?"
"Hi, Jack," I said, still trying to find a comfortable position. "I'm Angela. I don't mind Angie or Ange, but if you start calling me Angel, you'll be talking to yourself for the rest of the night."
He chuckled and licked the foam off the top of his fresh beer. "Angela it is," he grinned, a little of the white fuzz still clinging to his top lip.
By now I knew he was going to make a move. I didn't, however, know if I would accept. I wanted to. God, I did. But it's just not my style. My last one night stand took place on my twenty-first birthday. Now here I was debating with myself whether to repeat the act almost nineteen years later.
Decisions, decisions.
"I don't normally do this sort of thing," he began.
"I bet you don't." I shook my head, but smiled at him.
"You don't even know what I'm going to say," he said, his lips still open to continue.
"I have a pretty good idea."
We both laughed, and sipped at our drinks.
I started to wonder if I'd pushed myself a little bit too far, in that moment. This guy was at least ten years my junior and, although I'm in decent shape, and not too horrible to look at, I'm pretty sure he wasn't limited in his choices.
"Go on, then. Sorry. Tell me what you don't normally do?" I wiped at my mouth again, to reduce the fine mist of moisture that ejected from my lips with each word.
"It was a pretty corny line, to be honest." He laughed and hoisted both hands into the air in mock surrender.
"Tell me anyway," I blurted, before I had a chance to stop myself.
"Well, I was-" He shook his head and rolled his eyes. "Oh God. It really is corny."
"Please, tell me." I'm not sure where it came from. I could say it was the drink, but I was a bit tipsy at most. I guess I just wanted to play. Flirt. Maybe a little more. The sensation of my stiffened nipples brushing against the inside of my bra confirmed that.
"I was going to say that I don't often do this, but I live nearby and if you'd like, we could go back there and have a quiet drink. Or something." He rose his glass to his mouth and perched it between his lips. I don't think he drank any, as his throat remained still.
I clamped my mouth shut. I knew i wanted to say yes. But should I? Could I?
He turned to watch me for a reply. God I wanted to say yes, as I looked into those steel-blue eyes. "Yes."
I tried to gulp the word back into my throat, but it was too late. It's said. It's done. Something between a shiver and a tingle crept up my spine and chattered in my teeth. I pinched my shoulders around my neck and forced another drink.
He jumped to his feet, grabbed at my arm, and I couldn't, or wouldn't, think of a protestation. I followed him as he pushed a path through the revellers, to the outside world, his big, meaty hand engulfing my wrist in its gentle grip.
As the cool night air wafted up and down the deserted street, my nipples turned into diamonds. I picked at the straps of my bra through my top, but it did little to alleviate the pleasurable discomfort. I gave myself over to it. Somewhere in the back of my head I hoped I wouldn't be wearing it for long, anyway.