A girl's holiday is just what I needed and that's exactly what I was about to embark on. One week sunning myself on the golden sands somewhere exotic. Well it wasn't exotic it was benidorm, but it could have been anywhere. As long as it was hot and carefree that's all I cared about. So the 4 of us headed off.
I had all the silly thoughts of how much it would be nice to relax, put my feet up all day and dance all night.
We start as we mean to go drop the bags, quick change and hit the bars. One or two dozen drinks later I'm in full holiday mood, not a care in the world.
Only a couple of hours later I was dancing the night away, sweat dripping from every pore. I didn't care I was having such a fabulous time, my mates and me.
We didn't stop laughing all night. We got the usual drunken guys hitting on us, but we had made a pack to have no men ruin our holiday. I wondered who would break this rule first; it wouldn't be me that's for sure I'd had enough of men to last a lifetime.
Next morning we were rough but who cares? A quick shower and change, a full breakfast and down to the beach we go for a full days tanning. Finding the best spot is never easy and after what seemed like an eternity at last we found it. Not too near the sea, but near enough for a dip. Not too far from the bar, yet close enough. And not too near the young lads that think they are gods gift to women.
So now we're all sorted out!
Laid there basking in the sun thinking this is what a holiday is all about, I have my book to read so I can lay all day and soak it all up, absolute heaven.
Before I know it, its so hot, its hard to remain sat still for longer than a couple of minutes. I'm never able to sit for long at the best of times, but in this heat there's no chance. I ask the others if they fancy a drink, I don't get much of a reply, they could sleep anywhere, anyhow.
Walking across a beach alone in a bikini, is a daunting task, but the heat was so unbearable it had to be done, if I was going to feel any better. Just a few paces felt like a marathon, feeling like every eye was on me.
Every guy doing the usual, look at the boobs, quick glance at the arse and if that seems ok, make eye contact. When will men ever realise we know if a guy likes us or not by how quick he is to make eye contact.
Women are no better, we all weigh each other up, hoping our insecurities are worse on someone else, in the hope ours will be over looked and when we see someone we believe to be better, we immediately dislike them for it. It's rather strange when put into perspective yet very true.
Just a few more steps now and I'll be sipping something ice cold. Just as that thought begins, I step onto the hottest sand I have ever felt beneath my feet. So I'd stupidly left my shoes by my lounger and now have to cross the busiest part of the beach with out looking like an idiot. There's no going back now, I do my best to look cool as I bolt across the sand laughing, trying to hide my embarrassment.
I made it in one piece, with out making too much of a fool of myself, then wonder why I cared as no one knew me anyway.
Once I have my drink, I decide to sit in the shade for a while at the bar, I can see my friends from where I am so can watch if they wake.
Looking around the busy bar, I notice I'm not the only one sat alone. A few tables away I notice a guy who I'm sure keeps looking at me, then turns away when I look at him. I make the most of the opportunity and take in a good eyeful of him. Very short dark hair, slightly thinning on top. A slight tan, must have been here a few days. A light stubble, giving him a designer look, rather than the rough and ready look. A young but weathered face and brown eyes. No top on so I can see the full picture, toned but not over the top. He's fit but doesn't take it to the extreme.
I find myself thinking a good looking guy like that would never look twice at me, 'Miss Jo average' as I consider myself. So why does he keep looking, have I spilt something and not noticed, is something less supported than it should be? No. So maybe he is curious, maybe he does like me.
I decide to take the bull by the horns, walk over and ask if the seat opposite is taken. It never occurred to me until that point, he could be with someone. It was too late to change my mind by then.