When Kevin and my sister, Alicia, were dating I was still only fifteen, but I knew that I wanted to have Kevin. I was so jealous of Alicia for having such a great guy! My conflicted feelings for my sister's guy only ended up making me act like a jerk and I caused a bit of trouble while they were dating.
On my eighteenth birthday Alicia decided to upstage my day by announcing her engagement to Kevin in front of all of my friends who had come over to the house for my party. Everyone thought that I was crying tears of joy for my sister. Hardly.
It took the two of them a long time to finally get married and I was then twenty when that finally happened. I was a bridesmaid and Alicia gave the maid-of-honor role to her best friend, Julie. The whole high point of their wedding was when Kevin came and asked me to dance with him. I cried as we danced and he thought I was so sweet. I was crying just thinking about ]MY[ Kevin having sex with Alicia later that night. After the wedding and the reception were over I went home and got drunk off my ass trying to deal with my pain, my hurt, and my jealousy.
Shortly after the wedding I accepted a job in Texas and had to move away to Houston. I e-mailed Kevin & Alicia and they always kept me up to date on what they were doing. My heart broke one more time when they told me that they were trying to have a baby. I think I spent that whole weekend crying and watching old movies.
Well, after two years they came up zero on the baby effort and decided it was time to go figure out what was happening. It turned out that Alicia's fallopian tubes were a solid mass of scar tissue from a yeast infection she had had when she was thirteen. It really was sad that they couldn't have their baby, they had gone so far as to set up one of their bedrooms as a nursery and now it was just a reminder of what couldn't be. I really felt sorry for my sister this time. I also felt bad for Kevin because I knew in my heart that he would be a great daddy to some lucky child.
Alicia and Kevin spent twenty thousand dollars on two in-vitro fertilization attempts that both failed miserably. My sister slipped into a bit of depression and Kevin called me a bunch of times begging me to come home and cheer her up. I couldn't get away with my job, I kept telling him.
The job excuse disappeared when the company folded after the CEO ran off with the company accounts and his bimbo secretary. I had very little savings so I was forced to move home where Kevin and Alicia put me up in their old nursery.
It was really strange to wake up in a pastel pink and blue bedroom every morning. It was like being in a hospital.
I had thought that my feelings for Kevin would have changed after almost two years, but they didn't. I loved him more than ever and I had the hardest time keeping my hands off of him. He never had to ask me for a back rub and Alicia actually appreciated my being so nice to her husband.
I came home one night after being out on a bunch of crappy job interviews and Alicia had the most magnificent dinner table set with an incredible dinner all ready. I asked her what the occasion was and she said that she and Kevin had something important going on and they wanted to share it with me if I would hear them out over dinner.
There was a lot of tension with the two of them all through dinner and I was the one who finally broke the ice:
"So what's the deal?"
Kevin gulped at his wine and then weaseled out of the question by staring at Alicia.
"Kevin and I saw this thing on Oprah about surrogate moms and we were wondering..."
She just stared at me for a moment. Was she thinking what I thought she was thinking?
"...would you have our baby for us?"
Then Kevin decided to speak at about a million miles an hour about how they would find the money to pay for the artificial insemination for me and pay for my insurance, the birth, the lawyers, and all of that.
I cut them off at the pass.
"Yeah, I'd be honored to have the baby for you. Really."
Another thought occurred to me.
"But you two have spent so much on fertility doctors..."
I took a sip of water while the two of them hung on my words.
"...why don't we just try it the old fashioned way first?"
What the heck, I had to try it, right? They got their baby and I would realize my fondest fantasy come true.
It was two weeks before all of the legal papers had been taken care of that assured that the adoption would go forward and yadda, yadda, yadda.
And it was another week after that when my period ended.
Alicia and I had talked about what was going to happen and she decided that it would be best if she went out for the day when Kevin and I were to 'get to work'. We picked a Saturday when Alicia could go shopping all day long and Kevin and I could be alone. I woke up that Saturday morning like a little girl on Christmas! I was so excited that I was finally going to have Kevin making love to me!
I heard their alarm clock go off at 7am, the two of them got up and I could hear them chatting as Alicia freshened up and Kevin was shaving. For me! And by 7:30 I heard the garage door open and close as Alicia drove off. When they went outside I raced to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and my hair and sprayed on some nice perfume. Then I practically leaped back into my bed. My heart was pounding in my chest as I heard Kevin walking up the stairs, then plodding down the hall to my door.
