her
anymore. I'm not a vampire."
"No," agreed the other. "But you can't deny the idea of it excites you. Not the blood, no, but the power in it. Being an apex predator, the one in control, playing with others instead of being the one played with. To never again be manipulated by ruthless bastards. Like Adamir."
"Like you?"
Anna laughed. "I have no patience for timidity. You have such ambition, Mircalla. You can have it all, if you dare. Have you not sacrificed dignity in pursuit of success? Have you not risked even your sanity to achieve it?"
Mircalla snorted. "Risked? Look at me, sitting on a bench talking to an invisible woman. I must be mad already."
"No, Mircalla, not mad. Merely cursed."
"I'm not sure that's better."
"It's cruel and it's painful, but it is better. I speak from experience. Come, Mircalla. Aren't you tired of sucking cocks when you could be biting them instead?"
Mircalla wrinkled her nose in disgust, but couldn't quite suppress a giggle at the picture it created in her mind.
*
Playing Adamir's bloodthirsty Countess had messed her up, and Elizabeth Bathory's mocking laughter still echoed in the corners of her mind. It was impossible to play such a demonic role and not be touched by it, but it was proving to be the launchpad she had hoped it would be. Adamir's vampiric masterpiece was not even released yet and her agent was inundated with offers of work.
"Mircalla Bartok," she intoned dramatically while doing her makeup at the mirror. "Professional actress. A star in the making." And maybe so. How soon, she wondered, before people started sharing her porn in an attempt to diminish her?
"If there is one constant in life," Anna murmured. She was luxuriating in a chair by the window, her lithe, naked body bathed in warm sunlight. She continued, "It is that successful women get torn down and slut-shamed given the least opportunity. Far better to hold your head high and become an avatar of unfettered sexuality. The more they attack you, the more you will be desired."
Mircalla's phone chirped. Another message from Lucy full of bright concern and curiosity. "How are you, Mircalla? Where are you? It would be great to meet up sometime! Any plans to visit the UK? I promise we do have sunlight here - sometimes, lol! Miss you!"
Anna sighed. "Sweet, innocent Lucy. You really should reply to her. If she finds out you're in London without telling her..."
Mircalla was only two years older than the blonde English woman, but in experience she felt a lifetime older. Lucy had lived a sheltered life, and had only just emerged into a world she viewed as one of risquΓ© excitement. She knew nothing of living on the edge, of hunger and homelessness. She knew nothing of the constant fear of irrelevance. Mircalla had lost out on too many major parts to take success for granted, and every passing year brought fewer opportunities. Every day was a fight against ageing, against imperfection. Gym memberships and beauty treatments cost money.
So of course she'd allowed herself to be seduced into the porn world. On the one hand, it felt like a professional defeat, but on the other it had given her life stability again as she continued to pursue her dream. And if you were the sort to believe everything happens for a reason, then... well. Life had brought her to Adamir, or had brought Adamir to her. Her desperation and experience had matched his audacity and macabre genius.
Mircalla had done her homework. She knew what she was getting into - or had thought so, at least. She had gone into it prepared to give one hundred percent! She learned her lines off by heart, adapted quickly to last minute changes, embraced a trio of roles like multiple personalities until her own sometimes struggled to breathe beneath. The innocent, the monster, the madwoman, Mircalla herself. And all while in withdrawal from the little white pills.
Mircalla pushed her phone away. "I tried to protect her. I really tried."
She had tried to protect Lucy, just as she herself had been protected by another during her seduction into porn. That had been a very different world to the one she knew, and also to the one she had expected. Clean and professional, honest and unsubtle. For one such as her, still with youth, beauty and curves, there was power as well as money - provided she was willing to surrender to the demand for extremes.
But Mircalla had had a different dream. Her passion was for the play, delighting an audience with word and gesture, something she had always excelled at. There was a satisfaction in theatrical performance far beyond the ephemeral thrill of taking three cocks simultaneously.
That dream had come true when Adamir had offered her a starring role. He was an internationally respected director - as well as a reclusive genius with a penchant for macabre and erotic horror. Mircalla was more than willing to endure the latter to work with the former. She doubted there were more than a handful of women in all the world who were both trained actresses and experienced in porn. Or maybe more than a handful, but how many would have embraced the role of Elizabeth Bathory?
The visceral joy in finally living out her potential had been undercut by the symptoms of abrupt withdrawal, and by strange visions conjured up by some nefarious hallucinogen, and by the games played by Adamir and his Anna. They had forced her to immerse herself in the character she played, until she had scarcely known what was real and what was imagined.
Mircalla darkened her eyelashes with mascara. "I knew Adamir had a reputation for tormenting his cast. I allowed it - with me." The reward would be in the finished cut. On the screen, in the few short, rough-edited fragments she had seen, Mircalla was an ethereal presence, one moment promising sexual ecstasy, the next delivering terrible death.
Lucy, in comparison, was a frightened mouse, teased and manipulated, both actress and character caught in a sticky web and stripped of all innocence and illusion. "He may not have actually fucked her - he used me for that - but his 'dark, vampiric masterpiece' might as well have been called
The Rape of Lucy
."
Anna chuckled, and cried out dramatically, "Black stage for tragedies and murders fell!" It was as good a description as any for Adamir's creation. "Vast sin-concealing chaos!"
Mircalla had failed to protect Lucy in the end. She couldn't bring herself to answer the girl's yearning for friendship.
*
Adamir had vanished. Almost the moment principal photography had wrapped, he had bid a quick and elaborate farewell to the cast and crew, climbed into his limousine (chauffeured by Anna, naturally), and departed - taking with him several large cases containing the month's worth of raw footage. Anna herself had returned a short time later, by taxi, to supervise a myriad of tasks that kept her busy into the night.
Mircalla had been in a hurry to leave too. She told everyone that she was needed urgently on another set, but the truth was simple exhaustion. She was sick of the night, sick of Adamir's games, and sick of everything that reminded her of Cachtice and Bathory. But it wasn't so easy to escape. The Bathory family had deep roots in Hungary, and the health spa she booked into turned out to be a stone's throw from Bathory's castle in Sarvar.
She accepted the first movie role that got her out of Hungary. An English production set in Paris, filmed in a chilly February, a supporting role in a romantic comedy where she was the rival love interest - an exotic, dark-haired foreigner to lead the hero astray until he understood his true love was the innocent, blonde, childhood friend. It was a low-budget production full of cliches, with a four-month post-production schedule that would see it streaming on Netflix during the summer.
After that was another romantic comedy, this time filmed in England. Mircalla was the love interest, a father and son competing over her affections. She married the son, who died tragically, and later married the father too, while pregnant by the former. An odd film but artfully made, blending tasteful eroticism with sexual comedy.
Despite a busy schedule of location shots and studio work. Mircalla could have found time to visit Lucy, but didn't. In part out of guilt, in part because any reminder of Adamir or Bathory opened a gulf of darkness below her. These new movies gave her the emotional space she needed to ground herself again, but the nightmares continued - and the haunting too.