It was a dream, no a nightmare... no just a dream, a little bad, but nothing terrible, No one died in the dream, no burning buildings or earthquakes, hurricanes or tidal waves. You might call it comedy, but I always felt it was a bit tragedy, I mean you live your life in search of something and then you finally achieve all your dreams and you're left with nothing really more to dream about. Well, that was how I felt, at least that was how I felt in the dream.
Confusing, yeah I'm confused too, I mean I go to bed one night and there it is, a dream that satisfies all my fantasies and then all to quickly ends, and I am left wishing there was more. It all has to do with proximity, when you get so close to something you can smell it, actually taste it in the air and yet you don't dare dream more. Well, you do dare for more, but you don't dare believe it when it happens.
The dream, I dreamt a dream, the dream I always dreamed of dreaming and then suddenly I was asleep and dreaming it. And it was real, as real as any dream I ever had, I could taste, smell and feel every nuance of the dream as it crawled over my body and into my head. Amazing it would happen with something as simple as climbing into bed and placing my head on a pillow and falling asleep.
It was nineteen seventy three and Isadora Wing flew into my life within the pages of Erica Jong's classic book and I knew I'd never read the same again. I was shocked, stunned and aroused by the understanding that there were women who craved the "zipless fuck" and hell, I might as well be the guy to give it to them. It wouldn't be hard, it was simply right there in the book, all I had to do was... was... hell, I had no idea and it killed me. So many women wanting nameless, casual sex and I didn't have a clue on how to get in on it.
From nineteen seventy three until last night I was lost and wondering about it all. Anne Sexton died in seventy four but I didn't even know about it until years later, people lived and died everyday up until last night and last night it happened. Last night I dreamt I was her zipper.