Author's Note: This is the tenth section to the "true" story of Xena and Gabrielle. You will find this section extremely subtext-friendly. If two women showing their love for one another is not your cup of tea, please find another story you'd like to read. This story will be submitted in several parts and is based off the series, yet the "history" has been changed somewhat to suit the purposes of this story. Not all sections will contain erotic sex scenes as there is a plot.
Also, I'd like to note that I do not own Xena: Warrior Princess, the series, or the characters and I will not be receiving any payment whatsoever for writing this story. It is intended for entertainment purposes only.
(This chapter doesn't contain erotic scenes as there is a plot --- Sorry. I do promise PLENTY of kinky sex in the next chapter however, so please don't go away. My plan is to post chapter eleven along with this one, so you won't have to wait long at all.)
Chapter 10 ::: Gabrielle's Hope
A new day dawned and Gabrielle awakened, held safe in Xena's loving embrace upon a comfy pallet made of bedrolls on the wood floor of the cabin. The night before she had tried unsuccessfully to nurse her infant daughter. Many times she had placed the baby to her breasts, but her efforts were futile. The infant refused to suckle. Gabrielle's shift was wet with fresh milk for her child, but the entire night the babe had not awakened once to feed. The young mother awoke with a start, afraid her child had perished silently in the night.
Xena had watched with a mixture of dread and sorrow, seeing Gabrielle's frustrated attempts at nourishing the baby. The child was pitifully small. Xena was certain she would not last through the night, especially after going over 24 hours without nourishment. The babe had yet to wet a single diaper, and she barely cried. Xena feared the child was something not human.
With no regard to her own discomfort so soon after giving birth, Gabrielle rose from the pallet swiftly, going to the small wooden box she had padded with soft cloth nearby which now served as a make- shift "cradle" for her infant child. "Hope?" she whispered worriedly, afraid of what she may find inside. Would her baby be alright? She hadn't cried or made a single sound all night long. She was so tiny. Gabrielle feared she might find her newborn daughter as still as death.
Bright blue eyes gazed up at Gabrielle as she knelt down for the tiny bundle, taking Hope into her arms. "Thank the Gods you are alright," said Gabrielle with a sigh of relief, cuddling her daughter close. The baby was warm and soft. Gabrielle softly kissed the blond patch of hair upon her small head.
From the pallet, Xena watched, saddened when she had been abruptly awakened at first, thinking that her love would surely find the babe dead within the makeshift cradle. But her frown deepened, seeing that Gabrielle carried the little one over to the pallet and the infant was yet alive. Gabrielle was bonding more and more with the baby, and that struck raw pain and terror into Xena's heart. How would she ever make Gabrielle understand when the time came that Xena must slay the demon Dahak's evil child?
"Ohhh, Xena... I was so worried. But she's okay," said Gabrielle as she sat down next to Xena on the sleeping pallet. "See, she's just fine."
Xena looked at the child. Small blue eyes blinked back at her. "Yes, Gabrielle. I can see that she is fine. And she--- she appears to have grown in the night. See, her little hands are slightly larger... and her cheeks have filled out," Xena noticed as she took in the features of the tiny baby girl. "Gabrielle, you know as well as I do that she hasn't nursed. You haven't been able to nourish her... and she hasn't wet a single diaper. She's unnatural... She's NOT human--------."
Gabrielle's eyes flashed and a scowl came to her face. "Stop it, Xena. She's MY baby."
"She's not a baby. She's the spawn of that monster...." Xena's blue eyes blazed with frustration. She wasn't getting through to Gabrielle, not in the slightest.
"Don't talk that way about her. She's my child... I love her." Tears shone in Gabrielle's eyes and something else. Fierce protection. Like a mother bear with her cub. She wasn't about to let Xena harm this baby. Not her Hope. She cradled the infant closer, snuggling her to her chest in protection. She caressed the infant's blond head while she faced Xena, not backing down. "Xena, you won't harm her. I won't let you."
Xena's eyes flashed. A mixture of unspeakable sorrow with a lightening flash of fierce protection glowed in the sapphire depths. "I won't let her come between us. And I will do what I must to protect you, Gabrielle...you know that. You are my main priority. Nothing is going to happen to her. I will not harm a hair on her head... but IF you are in danger... IF she should ever become a threat, I won't hesitate to---- Well, let me put it this way... when it comes to protecting your life and doing away with the evil spawn of that bastard Dahak that raped you, you know I will stop at nothing---."
"Never speak that way about her again. Never!" Gabrielle cried out, tears streaking her face as she angrily shouted at Xena, raw pain crashing through her heart with Xena's hurtful words. Gabrielle gathered Hope close as she cried, going to sit before the fire, rocking the baby softly as she tried to calm the torrent of tears which blinded her vision.
Gabrielle held Hope tightly, swearing to protect her with everything she had. This was her baby. A part of her. A tiny little being who depended on her. How could Xena be so terribly cruel? How could she even think Hope was evil? She was so tiny and defenseless. Tears continued to roll down Gabrielle's face, but she grew more and more determined. Determined not to let Xena harm her child. If she must, she would fight Xena... do everything in her power to protect her baby girl. "I love you, Hope," Gabrielle whispered to her child, affirming within her heart that she would never allow Xena or anyone else to harm her baby girl.
Xena was right. Hope had grown during the night. How was that possible? Gabrielle gently unwrapped the babe, checking the cloth that she had placed between the infant's tiny legs. The diaper wasn't even the slightest bit wet. Hope hadn't urinated even once since her birth, nor had she taken a single drop of her mother's milk. Deep inside, Gabrielle knew this was not natural, not possible, but still she loved Hope, adored her, and wanted to protect her. She swaddled Hope once again and then went back to Xena's side.
Xena looked up, seeing the drying tears on her Love's face. "Gabrielle," she spoke softly, her words full of sorrow. "I'm sorry. I know my words were harsh. I know I hurt you deeply. You are the innocent one in all of this. None of this is your fault. Dahak forced himself on you...he brutally raped you... and all of this was against your will. You never asked to become pregnant. You never asked to carry his child, nor to give birth to it. All this has been forced upon you, and I hate it. My heart aches for you. I love you. And I don't want to see you hurt. I know you love Hope, I know how much she means to you.... that is why this is so hard. But she's not a REAL baby, Gabrielle. She's not human. She's a part of him."
Gabrielle looked at Xena, listening to the words she spoke as she once again was seated on the pallet next to her love. She cradled the infant child on her lap as she spoke, stroking her tiny blond head. "Yes, you are right. She's a part of him," said Gabrielle. "But she's a part of me, too. I am good. And if everything you are saying happens, Xena, we can help her,.... just as I helped you. If you are right, and she begins to become evil, we can help her fight her dark-side. Just as you fought yours. She will be good... You will see."
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Hope was growing rapidly, and after a month, she was beginning to sit up on her own. Her hair had grown longer and as golden as the summer sun and her eyes were still a vivid blue. When Gabrielle looked deep into those depths, she could see shades of green reflected there. Her baby would soon have her mother's emerald eyes. Xena was wary of Hope, watching her every move, waiting for the moment she would turn on them, ready to do what she must to protect the woman she loved.
Hope now lay tummy-down on a blanket in the sunshine as Gabrielle and Xena sat outside the cabin trying to make conversation although they had barely spoken since the baby's birth. They both had been far too tense... as though waiting for the next crushing blow that fate would throw upon them. They hadn't made love since before Dahak's rape of Gabrielle, and Xena longed for the intimacy the two had once shared. Hope seemed to be a barrier between them, causing a rift to develop that neither knew how to bridge.