Author's Note: This is the third section to the "true" story of Xena and Gabrielle. You will find this story extremely subtext-friendly. If two women showing their love for one another is not your cup of tea, please find another story you'd like to read. This story will be submitted in several parts and is based off the series, yet the "history" has been changed somewhat to suit the purposes of this story. Not all sections will contain erotic sex scenes as there is a plot. I am actually submitting chapter 4 at the same time... just so my readers don't have to wait for the sex!!! LOL
Also, I'd like to note that I do not own Xena: Warrior Princess, the series, or the characters and I will not be receiving any payment whatsoever for writing this story. It is intended for entertainment purposes only.
Happy reading!
Xena had watched the play of emotions dance across Gabrielle's face along with the glow of the flickering flames of their campfire. As Gabrielle spoke, every word was absorbed into Xena gradually as if in slow-motion. None of this could be real, could it? Gabrielle loved her? It was *she* whom the blond little bard wanted? Xena found herself struggling to breathe.
At first Xena looked dazed and slowly that became a look of shock. Then, her expression was unreadable, making Gabrielle inwardly cringe. She had no idea how she would handle it if Xena was angry and told her their friendship was over.
"Gabrielle, it seems you are full of surprises tonight," Xena finally spoke, her voice calm and fluid and devoid of the earlier shock that had played over her face just a few moments earlier. "It would seem you have been keeping secrets from me......."
Xena let her voice trail off, as she watched Gabrielle slowly hang her head. She knew the bard was feeling quite remorseful for not being completely honest with her best friend. As a usual rule, they had kept nothing from each other. They had shared everything... even the details of Xena's past as a warlord and all her many crimes from that particular period.
"Xena, I'm sorry.... I----," Gabrielle began, as a tear raced slowly down her cheek. Not only was it a tear of guilt, but also one of sorrow, because she feared she had irrevocably damaged the bond that she and Xena shared as friends for holding her true feelings in for so very long.
Xena reached across the short distance between herself and Gabrielle and gently grasped the bard's chin in her hand, tilting her face upward so their eyes met. "No, Gabrielle... don't apologize," she said softly. "You haven't kept anything from me.... at least no more than I have been keeping from you......"
"You aren't the only one who has been keeping secrets."
The fingers which held Gabrielle's chin shifted and softly and ever- so-slowly, Xena began to stroke the bard's lower lip, tenderly tracing it with a single fingertip. "Gabrielle, I feel the same way about you," said Xena. "I always have... right from day one.... the day I rescued you from those slave traders. How could I not? You stood up to them so bravely. You were willing to sacrifice yourself so the others could go free. I admired your spirit. You even stood up to me, telling me you were going with me, that you wanted to be just like me, even when I told you that you must go back home to your parents. I thought you didn't belong with me. I live a dangerous life, and I didn't want you to be hurt."
"But you convinced me to let you accompany me. After I got to know you, I honestly could not have let you go, especially when you kept insisting you belonged at my side. You were so beautiful, so different than me; you intrigued me. I loved listening to your stories... although at times I pretended to be annoyed. You weave so much into your tales, how could anyone not want to hear the sound of your amazing voice? I loved everything about you... everything... I couldn't get enough of you; you became my dearest friend... my best friend. There was nothing I could not share with you, nothing but the one thing I never said: I want you, Gabrielle. I want you in my arms at night. I want you by my side till the day I die, and then some. Forever. That's how much I want you. What a fool I have been, not to tell you... when all along, despite everything, you have been feeling the very same way......."
"And do not blame yourself about Perdicus. If anyone, it is I who am to blame. Callisto hates me, so to get at me, she used Perdicus as a target, cause she knows that hurting you would in turn hurt me. And if I had only opened my mouth and told you I have feelings for you, maybe you wouldn't have been so quick to marry Perdicus. Maybe none of this would have happened. Maybe he would still be alive today."