Nyla slammed her hand down on her alarm.
Another day. Another day of gritting her teeth and being micromanaged by her perfectionist boss.
She grabbed her pillow and smothered her face with it groaning loudly. She did not sleep well and it was one of those nights her dreams were consumed by ideas of work. Have you ever had one of those dreams? A working dream where you do work tasks all night and then wake up and do work tasks all day. One day she would say something. One day. Maybe after she paid off her credit card though...
Nyla looked at her phone to see the time. She could piddle around for a good 30 minutes before she needed to rush through her morning routine and leave for work. She needed to make sure she didn't miss the train this time. But all this pent up frustration... ugh! She could feel her muscles coiled up and her body ached when she moved. Was it the awful night of sleep or the weeks of torment she was feeling? Mix of both more than likely.
She opened Spotify and searched for her favorite band called Sleep Token. She found them recently after seeing references on booktok and had become absolutely obsessed. She would lay in bed for a bit with the music on and contemplate her life decisions. "Look to Windward" began playing and Nyla closed her eyes trying to calm her angry heart. The day before she had looked up the band members to see what they looked like and visions of Vessel kept popping up in her head.
The band members were unrecognizable with their black clothes, painted black skin, and masks. It reminded her of KISS and she laughed to herself at the new age of it all. Vessel had a voice underneath the mask and black painted abs that latched onto her immediately waking up a darker side within her. Sometimes that side of her made an appearance these years, remnants of her rebellious teen youth. The side that wanted to scream and dance and sulk and bring out her black lipstick again. Now, it was all pant suits and blazers. Professional adult with a 401k.
She imagined what it may be like to date someone like Vessel. Did they fuck with the costume on? Did the black paint from his skin get everywhere and imprint on your own? Did he use paint to accentuate his abs or did he work out? What else was under that disguise?
The beat of the music grabbed her attention again as Vessel sang the lyrics "will you haunt this eclipse in me?". Nyla looked at the ceiling for a long moment and then eagerly reached over to her night stand and pulled out her silicone suction toy, dropped her pajama pants, pulled up her shirt all the way to her chin, increased the volume of the music, and covered herself in her covers so everything was dark.
She started slow with cold fingers lightly trailing across her body. The hairs across her skin standing to attention. A silken palm grazing across her nipples until they too perked awake. She felt warmth expand below as though her body were excited, thrilled to be engaged. The suction toy made its way to her center and gently vibrated on its silicone soft coating around and around her opening.