Vanyel's stories only make sense, if you have read the three Valdemar books called the Last Herald Mage series by Mercedes Lackey. This chapter relates to the short interlude with Guardsman Jonne, whom Vanyel met as a grown man during his Border duties of defending Valdermar against their Karsite enemies. Yfandes is Vanyel's Companion ('magic horse'). The part of the book leading up to Vanyel's erotic escapade is cited.
Dreams, thoughts and Mindspeech (telepathy) are in italics, and in addition Mindspeech is shown between : text : signatures as in the Valdemar books. Shay'a'chern is Hawk brother language for gay.
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Vanyel and Jonne
From the beginning of Book 2 Magic's Promise when Vanyel comes home from a long, hard stint at the Border and finds a letter from his father waiting for him, as usual hinting his displeasure at Vanyel's sexual preference.
The trouble was, Yfandes was right. For the past few months he'd been reduced to a level where he wasn't really thinking at all - just concentrating on each step as it came, and trying to survive it.
:I could wish you were less alone.:
:Don't encourage me in self-pity, Yfandes. It's funny, isn't it?:
Vanyel replied, his lips twitching involuntarily, though not with amusement.
:Dear Father seems to think I've been seducing every susceptible young man from here to the Border, and I've been damned near celibate. The last was -- when?:
The weeks, the months, they all seemed to blur together into one long endurance trial. A brief moment of companionship, then a parting; inevitable, given his duties and Jonne's.
:Three years ago,:
Yfandes supplied, immediately, her mindvoice almost fond.
:That rather sweet Guardsman.:
Vanyel remembered the person, though not the time.
"Hello. You're the Herald-Mage, aren't you?"
Vanyel looked up from the map he was studying, and smiled. He couldn't help it -- the diffident, shy smile the Guardsman wore begged to be answered.
"Yes, -- are you --"
"Guardsman Jonne. Your guide. I was born not half a league from here." The guileless expression, the tanned face and thatch of hair, the tiny net of humor lines about the thoughtful hazel eyes, all conspired to make Vanyel
like
this man immediately.
"Then you, friend Jonne, are the direct answer to my prayers," he said. Only later, when they were alone, did he learn what other prayers the Guardsman had an answer for --
:Jonne. Odd for such a tough fighter to be so diffident, even gentle. Though why he should have been so shy, when he was five years older and had twice my -- uh -- experience --:
:Your reputation, beloved. A living legend came down off his pedestal and looked to him for company.:
Yfandes sent him an image of a marble saint-statue hopping out of its niche and wriggling its eyebrows in a come-hither look. There was enough of a tired giggle in her mind-voice to get an equally tired chuckle out of his.
But he sobered again almost immediately.
:And that lasted how long? Two months? Three? Certainly not more.:
:You were busy -- you had duties -- both of you. It was your duties that parted you.:
Van sighed again, realizing that he was worn out from five years of continuous duties at the border. He had already been tired when he met Jonne, and he finally admitted to himself, that he and Jonne might not have had even that brief and much needed partnering, if his shields had not slipped for a moment, due to a particular tough day and a slight wound.
Vanyel recalled the situation vividly, sitting on the edge of his bed, his tunic on the small travel chest next to him, while he was trying to remove the dressing on his shoulder with one hand. Jonne came in, bringing Van the bowl of hot water the Herald had requested.
The Guardsman had approached slowly, and Vanyel had assumed that his hesitation was due to an objection to being in the company of a half-naked man, who was rumored to prefer other men for bedfellows. But the moment Jonne touched him, he had learnt otherwise --
The fighter had set the bowl down and said: "Let me help you with that, Herald Vanyel." And before Van could refuse or get his shields back to full, he had reached out and removed the dressing on the shallow wound from a stray arrow four days before. Van sat frozen and overwhelmed, while Jonne bathed the graze with gentle hands and pronounced it healed enough to leave open to the air.
And while he touched Vanyel, his desire to let his fingers move on to other places and to have Van caress him in return were as plain as a shout in your face.
Even so, the stupefied Herald might not have acted on this unexpected possibility, but suddenly Yfandes had sent him a brief picture of her settling outside the entrance to his tent; clearly in order to prevent anyone from disturbing them needlessly. Followed by a wordless admonishment NOT to blow this chance, then a blank as she shielded him out, giving him privacy. His tent was already pitched at a distance from most of the other tents, though of course within the perimeter of the camp.
Vanyel gave an involuntary twitch of his shoulders, trying to dispel the shocked feeling of disbelief. Jonne removed his hands with a surprised and slightly worried sound.
Then as Van said, trying to sound casual: "Oh, sorry, it was just a small cramp, my shoulders are all knotted up," the warm and soothing hands came back and began to massage the top of his shoulders. This time Van deliberately opened his shields to Jonne's surface thoughts and emotions, and there was absolutely no doubt that the guardsman was physically attracted to him and certainly firmly
shay'a'chern
-- or 'shaych' that new slang word Tran had just now used for same-sex preferences.
As Jonne rubbed the Herald's shoulders with evident pleasure and lust, his disjointed thoughts made Van go weak at the knees:
Gods, I can't believe, I'm touching him -- he's so beautiful -- I want him -- oh, stop fooling yourself, he could have anyone he wanted in his bed, why should he ask you -- just be grateful that he is letting you do this -- his hair is like silk -- if I could just kiss his neck, taste his soft skin -- feel his hands on me --
As Jonne got to this part, Van felt him shifting in discomfort. He was kneeling on the bed behind the Herald, and Van knew that the cause of the guardsman's small movements was an unbidden but undeniable erection straining against and uncomfortably constrained by his breeches.
Vanyel could no longer pretend that their need was not mutual, and he reached up to put his hands on top of Jonne's. He slowly moved them down his chest, saying: "I would be more than pleased, if you would care to extend your attention to the rest of my body, friend Jonne."
Then he turned around and smiled into the startled but delighted face of the man behind him: "And I'm dying to get
my
hands on
your