"Can you signal Ville I'll talk to him after the show? No matter what? I don't want him to get upset and spoil the show."
"See just like I said, a very sweet girl, off course dear, it will be about half an hour till they finish." he answered with a smile.
The mixed up girl went to Ville's dressing room and made herself comfy on the couch. What am I going to do? I don't want a boyfriend, I'm not ready for this, and like how realistic is this? I'm just a girl and he's a rock god. Tomorrow they have a gig in London, 2 days after that they play in Helsinki. So what is Ville thinking? Does he do this at every gig? Pick some girl for the night? No I don't think so, he's not like that. Is he?
She keeps talking to herself in her head but it doesn't help. Why shouldn't I just enjoy this evening and that's that? Be like my exgirlfriend, pay her back cause it will be in all the magazines. For every reason I have to stay, I have a reason to leave too...
She hears someone fiddling with the door. She got up and got behind the door.
Ville entered. He didn't feel like being with the boys. Seppo said Silke would be backstage when the show was done but he couldn't find her. Why did I do something so stupid? I just wanted to help her. It wasn't meant to embarrass her. I just want to see her happy, with that beautiful smile. I want to keep her safe but that's never gonna happen now. He kicked against a garbage can.
Silke watched him, he looked so desperate, and why did I have this effect on him... So I'm not just some girl to him. He really likes me. She wanted to hug him.
She jumped when he hit the garbage can.
"HEY watch it!!!" she screamed.
He jumped too and looked at her.
"I thought you left" he whispered.
"I told Seppo I would talk to you no matter what. He said you weren't using your dressing room so I could use it to think things trough. So what are you doing here besides trashing the place?" She answered a bit distant.
"I'm trying to get you out of my system. The boys think I'm crazy, who gets a crush on a lesbian? And then tries to find her a girlfriend on stage? You have to be Ville Valo to pull something like that off..." he said very sad.
She couldn't keep her eyes off him, he was looking so lost. She wanted to wrap her arms around him like he did with her but she was afraid. She didn't want to get hurt. Damn my ex girlfriend messed me up pretty good. How could I say no to this beautiful guy? He's gorgeous on the outside, but divine on the inside.
"Ville?" she whispered.
He looked up and saw the tears in her eyes. She looked about as lost as he felt. He said nothing, he couldn't, was scared to say something stupid and loose her completely. She looked in his eyes and drowned in them. She always thought he had beautiful eyes, who would have thought she would be looking into them from so close.
"Ville" she whispered again "I have to tell you something, don't be mad, and don't jump to any conclusions ok?"
Ville looked confused but said "ok, let's sit down shall we?"
So they got on the couch. The girl was actually happy she sat down cause her legs felt like jelly, and being so close to Ville didn't help. He smelled so sweet. Although it probably was just his sweat she was smelling. She wanted to touch him.
They sat there for a while, just looking at each other. Damn he looks hot she thought, how would he feel? How would he taste? No stop it, you can't think like that, she said to herself.
Ville thought the same things but he was convinced he didn't have a chance. Although he could have swore she was checking him out. He was afraid to break the silence but some one had to.
So he whispered: "You wanted to tell me something kulta?"
"Yeah.. Euhm... It's like this... Euhm... Before I didn't have the chance and euhm like..." she stuttered.
"Kulta it's me you're talking to, breath in and just say what you want to say, it can't be that bad since you're still here." he said caring.
How could I not fall in love with this sweet guy???
"Ok here it goes, please don't be mad."
He looked at her in disbelief "How could I be mad at you angel?"
"Well before we were talking about my exgirlfriend, you thought I was gay and then Seppo interrupted us, right?"
"Yeah right what about it?" his heart jumped. Is she going to say what I think she's going to say?
Ow god his eyes twinkled, so cute, ok concentrate she said to herself, you have to tell him that nothing can happen.
"Well I'm not... not really anyway, I like guys too." she looked at her hands, scared of his reaction. She saw his hand taking hers and kissing it.
"Kulta that is the best thing you could have said to me tonight, why would I be mad at you for that? Like you said you didn't have the chance to explain more when we met." he said with the biggest and cutest smile.
"Don't be too happy." she replied "This doesn't mean we can get together, I'm really not ready for anything that involves feelings and trusting and stuff like that." she said with a sadness that went straight to his heart.
"She messed you up pretty bad huh kulta? I'm just glad to be here with you and what happens, happens, but nothing has to happen... Although I'm dying to give you a hug right about now." he said with his voice that sounded so soft and sweet. He opened his arms and she crawled close to him. They both thought how good this felt.
They sat like that for don't know how long. Each with their own thoughts. Ville thought how this felt so right, she smelled so sweet, I could sit like this forever. Just the two of them, I want to kiss her, but don't want to spoil the moment.
Silke thought how could I feel so safe in his arms? I don't know him, probably won't ever see him again. I want to feel his lips, but I know I will be lost then, so I would probably turn away if he tried to kiss me... And I don't want this to end.
There was a knock on the door and Burton came in: "Ville you ok?" he asked.
They both jumped to their feet, as if they were doing something wrong.
Burton smilingly said "Oh guess you are more than ok huh? Well I had to tell you to get in the shower now or we'll be late going to the hotel."
Ville said a bit shy "Yeah I'm fine, is it that late already? Guess I lost track of time, if you can keep Silke company I'll jump in the shower."
Burton looked at Silke and said "Sure I'll take care of this cutie, I'll introduce her to the rest come on Silke lets go, unless you wanna see Skinny here naked, oh no forgot you're gay."
Ville and Silke looked at each other and smiled.
Burton looked confused "What?!? What did I miss?!?"
Silke said "Nothing" grabbed Burtons arm and walked out to the other dressing room. They almost bumped into Seppo.
"And did you work it out sweetie?" He asked.
"Yes Seppo thanks." and she gave him a quick kiss.
Seppo walked into Ville's dressing room while Burton asked Silke what was going on.
She answered frankly "None of your business B, it's between Seppo, Ville and me, if they wanna talk about our hot threesome, it's their business but I don't kiss and tell."
She had to make an effort to stay serious. Burton stopped, looked at her and wondered if she was serious. She couldn't hold it anymore and started laughing.
"Oh B, you should have seen your face!"
Burton picked her up, threw her over his shoulder and took her to the dressing room.
She yelled while still laughing "let me go!!!"
