April 2012
Once again it took me six months for my next temp assignment. What's more, for the second straight time I would be working for a show I had already temped at before – in this case "Glee." But this time I was heading back under different circumstances.
It was exactly because I had served on "Glee" two Aprils ago that I was being asked back now, since they needed temps they could trust to keep quiet. The show was filming its third season finale, where several of the key characters were about to graduate from high school. When news broke months ago that there would be graduations, rumors spread that key cast members would leave the show entirely as well. This set off a firestorm that FOX and creator Ryan Murphy didn't want to repeat, so they were determined to keep things under wraps this time.
I had to fill out more confidentiality forms than usual, to make sure I wouldn't spill any details about the episodes, the graduation, and anything I might overhear about the fates of cast members and next season. I already knew I could keep a secret; although my secret keeping had been less than stellar with Alison Brie and Emma Stone lately. But on simple matters of protecting TV spoilers, I imagined I would be safe.
All I can give away about my actual work on the "Glee" set was that it was busy, since they were going all out for this big finale. It did indeed help that I was already familiar with the cast and crew, although most of my time had been spent with Kristen Chenoweth two years ago. This time my focus was mainly on regulars like Lea Michele.
Since Michele's Rachel Berry was among those graduating and was the star; self proclaimed and otherwise; of the Glee group, she had the most responsibility on her shoulders. And although the set was being locked down tight to keep spoilers in and tabloids/bloggers out, it did make the situation the big elephant in the room few wanted to talk about. It made me wonder if Murphy and the FOX powers had even told Lea and the others if they would stay on "Glee" next year, or go to a spinoff, or be used in some other way. In truth, I wondered if they'd even decided it yet, since they flew by on the seat of their pants enough as it is.
This made me kind of tip toe around everything too, for fear of saying the wrong thing in some way. As such, keeping my sex streak alive was not a concern at all, since the job was more intense this time. It was true that I hadn't taken a shot at any of the young "Glee" regulars last time, and their age was less of a factor since they were two years older and still just as lovely. But they had too much on their plate for me to upset; and after my last three times with Mila, Alison and Emma, I thought it really would be spoiled to ask for more.
So I just laid low, served the cast and crew when I could and made sure to keep my mouth and ears shut the rest of the way. I intended to keep that up when I went to Lea's dressing room to deliver the day's secret script pages. It started out well as I was let in and I handed Lea the pages with no trouble.
"Can you give me any hints on this? Or did they make you sign confidential forms on this too?" Lea asked after taking the pages.
"No, but I still didn't take a peek. Besides, I'll hear about it when you guys film it anyway. They'll probably make me sign something then," I semi-joked.
"Well, us actors have to keep quiet and not know anything, so you have to be held to the same standard too. No sense complaining about it now," Lea pointed out.
"I wasn't, I was just making light of it," I defended.
"Well, it's not a laughing matter to Ryan, and I'm not seeing much of a joke either!" Lea shot off. Since it was clear I had said the wrong thing after all, I just stayed quiet and turned to go so I wouldn't provoke her further.
"Wait....wait a minute," I heard Lea say after I turned and started to open the door. She sounded quieter and more apologetic, so I took a chance and closed the door again before turning back to her. "That was....I mean, you...." Few were used to seeing Lea at a loss for words on the show, so this was a rare behind-the-scenes glimpse. "I shouldn't have taken that out on you."
"No, no, I do get it, trust me," I said to try and smooth things over.
"At least one of us does. I know why we're clamming up, cause millions of people would spoil this if they got the chance! And I know they'll tell us if we're coming back next year eventually! It's just....if this really is my last time on the show, or if it's my last time with some of the guys, I wish I'd know before we finished shooting it. It's the uncertainty that's killing me, you know?"
"I imagine its killing them too, so you're not alone," I reasoned.
"It still kind of feels like it. I don't even know what's right to bring up, in case there's some blogger or spy on set. Even if I just said theories, they could blow it up as something real and be a pain in the ass! This is the end of an era for me and the show no matter what, and it shouldn't be tarnished like this! I just hope all these efforts to stop that don't do it anyway."
"I'm sure they won't....from what little they've let me find out so far, it looks like it's going to be big," I assured. "Even if it didn't, I wouldn't say so."
"I know you won't, you've been here twice and I know you can be trusted. I can be trusted too, if they'd let me. I've gotten through all the controversial photo shoots, the red carpets, the stories of me being a bigger diva than Rachel, and the bad reviews from the last two seasons! I wouldn't let my big mouth trip us all up at the finish line now....even if it is the finish."
"I don't think it will be. I mean, I'm sure Ryan doesn't want to let go of you guys, and there's no way FOX does. Rachel Berry will live to conquer New York on screen somehow, whether it's on "Glee" or a new show, or whether Finn's by her side or not. I don't know one way or the other, but I'd put good money on it anyway. Heck, they should give me extra money to play with after all this," I tried to joke again.
"I admit, you're making a good case for a raise now," Lea stated. "I really am sorry I snapped at you....I guess I just needed to get it out, and there haven't really been chances to do that. I can't even do it with Cory or Chris or Heather or the others, in case the spies are waiting to see us together. If there are spies," she said without trying to be bitter again.
"Well, the spies know you guys....but they don't know me," I pointed out, as my relative anonymity could come in handy for once. "If you need to vent out or something, I can be a good sounding board."
"No, no, I shouldn't be yelling at you. I can handle it from here without freaking out," Lea assured.
"I know, but you should still feel safe to talk and not keep things in. If you can't do that with your friends, a stranger could do. Especially one who can keep quiet and won't attract spies," I offered. I really wasn't offering this to hit on her and keep my streak alive, despite how my attraction to her withstood the yelling from earlier. But if Lea was being worn out by this, it wouldn't bode well for the show, especially since she was such a big part of this episode. So if I could help keep her steady, it would really be doing my job.
"I guess I can keep that in mind. But I will try not to bother you with my thoughts too much. I mean, you have enough to do without talking me off the ledge, right?" Lea inquired.
"I'm good at multitasking if I have to, don't worry about me," I assured. Once Lea smiled, I figured this was a better time to take my leave than before. "Well, I'll let you solve the mystery of those secret pages now. Don't spoil it for me, okay?" I said in another attempt to joke, and this time she actually did laugh.
"I think I have enough help to stop me from that. But thank you anyway," Lea said generally, making me smile and leave before I started to look bashful.
Over the next few days, I made sure to make a delivery to Lea's dressing room at the beginning or end of the day. She didn't have to vent out anything each time, but I did try to help her get some things off her chest; her words and not her clothes. But it did somewhat astonish me that I could be a suitable sounding board for Lea. The other "Glee" seniors could probably relate better than me, and all the worries about spies and bloggers did border on paranoia.
But they were lax in giving away too much before and all the "Gleeks" and anti-Gleeks were on baited breath to gossip about spoilers, so they did have to do something. Plus I suspected Lea liked having an outside's perspective to lean on too, even though I was as close to an insider as a temp could be. In any case, she wanted all the help she could in this milestone of a shoot, and I would make sure I did my part.
However, my stint would end several days before the last day of shooting, so I couldn't help her for too much longer. As my second-to-last day came to an end, I volunteered to do some late clean up and checkups on the sets. I wanted to save the auditorium and the memories of having sex with Kristen in it for last, so I did rounds on the other sets first. Eventually this led me to the glee club classroom set, where I entered to see that someone beat me there.
"Lea? Oh, I'm sorry, I'll come back later," I offered after seeing her sitting at the piano.