‘What am I going to do?’
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Buffy was sitting on her couch with her legs tucked underneath. She had a mug of hot chocolate in her hands and took a sip. As the hot liquid went down her throat all her thoughts drifted to Angel. She was beginning to wonder what were they.
‘Are we a couple? Of course we’re lovers, but am I in love with him? Is my attraction towards him pure lust or is it love?’
“What am I going to do about Angel? Maybe Willow’s right about us. Maybe when Angel’s done with me he’ll go back to Darla. Who am I kidding? I’m in love with Angel. Though is Angel in love with me?” As Buffy continued drinking her hot chocolate she listened to the lyrics of the song. It was like as if the words that were sang by the woman was reflecting her feelings, emotions and love for Angel.
Love it babe. Love it babe. Baby you don't know, what you do to me. Between me and you, I feel a chemistry. Won't let no one come and take your place. Cause the love you give can't be replaced. See no one else love me like you do. That's why I want to spend my life with you. Wanna please you in anyway I can. Wanna share my world don't you understand. *Your love is a one in a million it goes on and on and on you give me a really good feelin all day long. Your love is a one in a million it goes on and on and on you give me a really good feelin all day long. Turn me inside out make my heart speak. Don't want nobody else you are all I need. Personality (ty) in everything you do (do) Makes me love everything bout you. Your smile your style so fly I can't deny I got a crush on you and that's true indeed. I'm diggin you your makin me believe. *Your love is a one in a million it goes on and on and on you give me a really good feelin all day long. Your love is a one in a million it goes on and on and on you give me a really good feelin all day long. * I'll give you anything you want from me anything you want anything you need anything your soul desires I'll give you anything you want from me anything you want anything you need anything your soul desires*Your love is a one in a million it goes on and on and on You give me a really good feelin all day long. Love it babe. love it babe. love it babe
Buffy felt that Angel wasn’t using her and going to toss her aside. She felt that in her heart that Angel’s the one that she wants. As the lyrics said I’ll give you anything you want from me. Anything you. Anything you desire.
Buffy had this one fear though. That even though she knew Angel wasn’t using her, she was afraid that if she loved him too much, that it would end.
“Why do I even complicate things even more my thinking that? You know why. I just wonder when should I confess my love to him.”
“Why did I have to fall for a married man? Why couldn’t Angel be single? It would have made things easier.” ‘Though at the same time you like the thrill of having Angel sneaking around and having sex. It excites you. It’s an adrenaline rush that you never want it to end.’
“I’m in love with Angel. He makes me feel like a woman that should be loved. His touch, his lips, his eyes, and his voice just make my heart all tingly. I want him with me forever.”
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Angel was still sitting in his office contemplating his feelings for Buffy. To him it just wasn’t sex anymore. He wanted to treat Buffy like the woman she deserved to be, She deserved honesty, respect, and love. She needed a man to make love to her, please her and make her feel that she’s the only woman in his life. Though Angel had no clue as to what approach to establish with Buffy. ‘Why can’t I just get a divorce from Darla and move onto Buffy? You know why. Your father. I just feel like telling my father fuck you and your rules. I’m in love with Buffy Summers.’