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-DonnaLeeGreene
I sat in our room, looking out over the freshly planted fields. My hand absently rubbing my swollen belly. No one would let me do anything anymore. Miscarrying my first pregnancy had Chuck worried that I was a high risk pregnancy and he had all but sentenced me to bed rest. Daryl was almost insufferable, not even allowing me to dress without his help. Almost six months into my pregnancy, I was starting to go stir crazy. Daryl was out hunting at the moment, an activity I had been forbidden to participate in. I decided to take advantage of his absence and snuck out to the garden where I ran into Maggie of all people. Having just birthed a healthy son the week before, the rest of the group didn't allow her to do much either.
"Shouldn't you be up with Colton?" I teased.
"Kate, you know better than anyone that sittin' up in those rooms while everyone else is doin' stuff is enough to drive you crazy. I imagine that's why you're out here when you're not supposed to be." She replied
I joined her in the dirt and we slowly made our way around the garden, weeding around the small seedlings that were beginning to spring from the earth. A few of the older women joined us and I was grateful that they didn't harass me or Maggie for getting out of the house and doing some work. After about an hour, Maggie headed back inside and I decided to follow. I stood and brushed the dirt from my jeans. I washed my hands in the garden hose and dried them on the cloth there. I turned to head back inside and directly in front of me stood a very disgruntled looking Daryl. I grinned sheepishly, like a kid caught with her hand in the cookie jar. He lifted one eyebrow.
"What do you think you're doing?" He asked.
"I was just pulling a couple weeds." I replied.
"Chuck said not to work yourself too hard." He said.
"Yeah, I know. Gardening isn't that hard. He didn't say I couldn't do anything." I pointed out. He sighed. We had had this conversation five million times in the last two months.
"Can't you just relax?" He asked.
"You try sitting in a room with nothing to do all day. It drives me nuts." I pouted.
"You can hang around Maggie." He offered as a solution.
"She came out here and worked in the garden longer than I did." I told him. "No one likes to feel useless."
"You're not useless." He said.
"Well I'm not helpless either. I can do stuff around here." I said.
"I just want you and the baby healthy." He said.
"We are healthy. I need something to do or I'm going to go insane. I need to get out of the house." I replied. I closed the distance and wrapped him in a hug. "I appreciate that you worry about us but you need to ease up a little bit."
He dropped a kiss on the top of my head. "I'll try." He said.
It went on like that for another three months. He'd back off for a little bit buy then he would be back to dictating my every move. One day, as I cooked for the group with Maggie and Beth, Daryl came downstairs and saw me lifting a heavy sack of potatoes onto the table.
He rushed in and grabbed them, slamming them onto the counter, squishing some on the bottom.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" He asked, barely containing his anger.
"I'm cooking." I replied in a dangerous tone.
"That is way too heavy to be lifting and all this bendin' and working ain't good for you." He said.
"Chuck never gave me a weight restriction or directions not to bend or move. I can do what I want, Daryl."
"Do you even care about this baby?" He accused.
"Of course I do. How can you even ask that?" I said, hurt that he would think I didn't love my child with all my heart.
"Well you sure the hell ain't actin' like it." He said.
My hurt turned into rage and I reached up and punched him as hard as I could in the face. He reacted instinctively, grabbing me by the hair. He held me there, shaking.
"You going to hit me? I know you want to. I can feel it. Tell me, who doesn't care about the baby now?" I taunted.
He released me and pushed me away, storming out of the kitchen as Maggie and Beth stared.
"That ain't right." Beth said. "You shouldn't have said them things to him. It was mean and hurtful."
I looked down at my shaking hands. What Daryl had said to me had hurt but I crossed a line. Daryl was just trying to protect the baby. With my pregnancy drawing to a close, my emotions were always quick and intense and his words had drawn a fierce overreaction.
"He shoulda known better than to say somthin' like that to the mother of his child." Maggie defended me. "Her hormones are so crazy right now that he's lucky she didn't pull a knife on him. He deserved every word she threw at him. They were no different than the words he said to her."
Still, guilt ate at my mind. I needed to go to him. "Sorry girls, I'm going to have to leave you to make dinner yourselves. I need to make this right with him. I'm eight months pregnant and the baby could come any day. I can't have it coming into an angry situation."
"Well go on then." Maggie replied.
I waddled of up to our room but he wasn't there. I couldn't find him in the garage or the fields or anywhere. Finally I spotted Rick in the pasture and I headed over there.
"Have you seen Daryl?" I asked.
"He just took one of the horses." Rick said. "He told me he needed to go huntin'."
"I need to go after him. We fought and I said some pretty nasty things."
"Are you sure that's smart in your condition?" He asked.
"It's not like I'm riding in the Kentucky Derby." I said. "I'll take Miss Betty to be safe. I really need to see him."
"You want me to come with you?" He asked.
"No." I replied. "We need to get through this ourselves." I turned and headed for the barn to grab one of our older horses. I saddled her up and mounted. It felt good to be up on a horse again. I urged her forward and headed the direction Rick said he had gone. I found his trail fairly quickly. He wasn't trying to be sneaky. Still it took me hours to find him out in the woods. He had gone further than I thought he would. It stung a little knowing he hadn't stayed close enough to come to me if something were to happen. I ruthlessly shoved the hurt down and pushed into his camp, calling for him so I didn't startle him. He sat by a small fire, eying me warily. I could tell he was still mad at me. That only served to piss me off.