Back in the dressing room, Kelly sat on the couch watching MTV. She was concentrating very hard on the videos especially the girls shaking their asses so she wouldn’t think about that night. But it was all she COULD think about. She had been so surprised when she heard Bee whisper to her. She’d had feelings for Bee for a few years now but didn’t know how to act on them and that night had been a fantasy come true. Bee was so beautiful, talented, confident and sexy; she could get any man or woman she wanted. Kelly wanted her so much. “I can’t believe I thought she could actually be interested in me” Kelly said out loud, though she wasn’t aware of it.
“OOH! You have a crush. On who girl?”
Kelly sat up startled and looked at the door. It was Michelle. She wanted to tell her but she imagined the look of horror that would be on Bee’s face if she thought Michelle knew what happened. “Nobody, I mean nobody likes me.” She tried to smile and play it off as a joke but Michelle saw through her act.
“Dang Kelly, don’t be so down on yourself. You’ll find someone to care about one day. Don’t worry about it so much” advised Michelle.
What Michelle didn’t know was that she had found someone; she just didn’t care about her back, at least not in that way. “I know girl. It’s just my destiny to be alone now. But what about you? I never hear you talk about anyone.”
Michelle smiled; a secretive smile. “Naw, I don’t really have anyone. No, I mean, I don’t have anyone.”
Kelly sat up. “I heard the first thing you said. Who are you with girl? Is he fine? Do I know him? How do you know him? When did you meet him?” she questioned persistently. Michelle backed up, flustered by Kelly’s barrage.
“No, it’s not like that. It’s just... no. You don’t want to tell me anything so I’m not going to tell you.” And with that she walked out of the room, slamming the door behind her. Kelly was left alone in the room once again. As she laid down on the couch she wondered where Beyonce was and what she was doing. She slowly moved her hands up her thigh and unzipped her jeans. She slid her hand down into her panties and felt her wetness. She slowly rubbed her clit with her index finger in a circular motion. Kelly moaned as she felt the tingling start to move through her body. She closed her eyes and imagined Beyonce standing naked in front of her and she shoved two fingers in her pussy. She started pumping her hips up to get more friction. She moaned, licked her lips and took her other hand and rubbed her clit. Kelly’s body tensed and she gasped as the orgasm shook her body. She knew this was as close to Bee as she would probably get.
Michelle felt bad about leaving Kelly like that. She wasn’t just upset that Kelly didn’t share with her. Bee and Kelly kept a lot of secrets from her; they had all kinds of inside jokes. It was also the fact that she DID have someone. She was just embarrassed about the situation. How could she tell her friends about a guy she had only met once? How could she tell them she was in love with him? She shook her head to clear away those thoughts. She decided to go online and check her email to see if he had emailed her yet. She wrote to him two days ago and hadn’t heard anything back. Tina, Beyonce’s mother, had questioned her earlier “Michelle, this is the third time you’ve checked your email this morning. What are you waiting on?” She had stammered an excuse and although it was difficult, she stayed away from her laptop.
She knew how busy he was, but she did expect him to at least email her if he couldn’t call. The sound of “You’ve Got Mail” brought butterflies to her stomach. A smile spread across her face as she saw an email from UgOtItBaD. She opened it and read
Michelle My Belle, I just got your message last night and I’m sorry I didn’t write or call. You know how it is. I can’t wait to see you. I know I only have to wait two more days, but that seems like a lifetime since I haven’t seen you in three weeks or heard your voice in four days. This tour is killing me. I’m just happy we were able to get a few tour dates crossed. You know you’re the only person who can keep me calm. I hope you miss me as much as I miss you. I can’t wait to hold you in my arms, kiss you and make love to you. Love, Usher