Chapter 31 -- One Dwarf, One Elf, One Human
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"I understand they no longer wish to be Wardens," Alistair stating, a hint of accusation in his tone. The fact Cerys stood by my side now, instead of his, didn't help the mood.
I shrugged nonchalantly. "It's their choice in the end."
"But they agreed to become Wardens. They can't back out now."
"Well, they haven't undergone the Joining. I doubt they even know what the ritual entails," Riordan admitted, "We can't exactly force them. Have you explained the Joining process to them, Alistair?"
"Well, no..."
"So the secret is safe. And although I would prefer they join our ranks, we can't force them. They are still assisting us against the darkspawn, and will help us gain victory, but they haven't been Wardens through this entire process, and from what I've been told, their assistance has been invaluable. Trust me, once a Blight ends, we receive plenty of recruits, who quickly realise that, outside of a Blight, the life of a Warden can be rather dull."
"What do you think?" Alistair asked of Cerys.
"What I think doesn't matter. The fact is that Natia, Sereda, Solona and Lyna do not wish to join the Wardens any longer. They will continue to assist us to the very end, then they will move on with their own lives."
Alistair scoffed and looked at me. "And I wonder why..."
I hadn't had a problem with Alistair the entire time we'd worked together. In fact, I considered him a friend. So why now? I glanced at Cerys and figured it out immediately. And I knew I wasn't going to put up with his shit. "Pull your head out of your arse, Alistair."
"What did you say?"
"You made the decision, not Cerys."
"This isn't about..."
"Fuck off, it isn't. You've been in a mood ever since I returned."
"I thought she would understand," he whined.
"I do understand, Alistair. You made your decision. I will continue to work by your side, but that's it."
His eyes narrowed. "You never really loved me, did you?"
That was the
wrong
thing to say. Cerys stepped forward and gave him an almighty slap. "Fuck you, you selfish, arrogant bastard!" She actually choked back a sob. "I did love you. I was willing to give up everything, and I mean
everything
, to be by your side, because I loved you. But, for whatever reason, you chose to cast me aside for her. Very well, I'll accept that, but if you think I'm going to continue playing nice, you're in for a rude awakening. As far as I'm concerned, once the Archdemon is dead, you can go fuck yourself." And, with those words, she turned and strode out of the study.
Alistair looked ready to make a comment, but a glare from me led to whatever was about to be said to be swallowed down. "Look, Alistair, I don't want all of us falling out right now. It would be the worst time, as we need to be united in the face of Loghain. Whatever the case, I support your decision to become king. I think you'll be a good one. As for Anora, between you and me, I understand why. Agreeing is a bit more difficult, but I understand." That earned a smile of gratitude. "As for Cerys, I think you'll just have to leave her be. The wound is still raw. And as for the other girls, well, maybe they can remain allies of the Wardens but without being Wardens, if you understand what I mean."
Riordan nodded. "We often work with other groups against the darkspawn. Having the Dragonborn as an ally in the future will only be a boon. So, you're heading to the alienage now?"
"Yes. Anora has given us something to go on, so we'll find out what is happening. I'll take a small group, just the girls and Zevran, as we all work well together."
I found Cerys outside, stalking back and forth across the courtyard, blade twirling in her hand. She looked ready to kill, so I approached cautiously. Noticing me approach, she kept pacing and twirling. "He doesn't understand," she stated quietly.
"I think he has a lot on his mind. And there's no doubt he knows you were with me last night. He probably thinks rather lowly of you right now too."
"What did he think I was going to do? Cry in my bed, pining after him, hoping he might just change his mind?"
I couldn't help chuckle. "Probably," I admitted, "He did love you, Cerys. Still does. It's obvious."
"And those feelings were returned without hesitation. But he chose Anora. And, you won't believe me, but I don't blame her one bit as I know she was a very good queen. I gather from the conversation that she was as surprised by the proposal as anyone. Marrying her fallen husband's bastard brother? Yeah, that's just plain weird." She finally stopped pacing and sighed. "I'll admit it; I would have liked a chance to be queen, but I also would have loved being his wife too. But he's thrown away any chance at that. I don't hate him. Part of me still loves him. But I despise him for making that decision."