NOTE: To understand the dynamic and the story here, I strongly recommend starting with Chapters 1 & 2. Beyond that, I'll only say that, as someone with admitted addictions to both
Supernatural
and writing in general, I suppose I should have expected them to collide at some point, though I haven't written fanfiction in years. It was this idea that finally drew me to post a story on literotica, though, and I couldn't resist taking some of the ideas in varying directions. But of course, some ideas just beg to be explored fully... you'll see what I mean if you look into some of my other Literotica work, but for now, I hope you enjoy this series. I should state here that I have no affiliation with the show, but I've aimed to make my portrayals here as believable as possible. I hope you'll enjoy the result. Let me know what you think, and I'll work on getting to Chapter 4 as soon as I can if you should like the read you'll find below...
Sam knew perfectly well that what he was doing was a bad idea, but as had happened so many times in the past, he didn't particularly feel like he had a choice. It had been five weeks since he and Dean had left Calla's apartment and headed back to the bunker, and his conscience had been weighing on him about it. Worse, Dean was on a record-long bender that wasn't showing much sign of quitting—sure, he was getting sober enough to hunt, and debatably remaining sober enough to take his turns at the wheel when they were traveling, but beyond that? It was drinks and one-night stands, and grunts and denial when it came to any mention of the state of things. But it dated back to Calla, whether Dean was willing to admit it or not.
And meanwhile, Sam had kept the secret of the spell, which had made it impossible for him to push her out of his mind (or, for that matter, to forget about his brother's short-lived, hot-and-heavy relationship with her). And recently, it had gotten worse. A week ago, he'd decided to look at her university department's page to get her office phone number and give her a call—just to see how she sounded and hang up, or perhaps to actually have a quick conversation and rest the part of his brain that told him they'd left her in a rougher spot than they'd intended or realized... he hadn't decided which. The problem was, she hadn't been listed anymore. A call to the department had then offered the cherry on top of the amped-up worry, as an over-talkative secretary had been more than willing to tell a friendly police officer that Calla had first been spotty in showing up to school, and then given word that she was quitting entirely as soon as her responsibilities could be covered. Her last day had been two weeks ago.
Without any other recourse, Sam had tried to call her cell, also obtained from that same secretary, and gotten no answer. Now, he was climbing the stairs to her apartment in person. What he was going to say, he wasn't sure, but things didn't feel right—and, for some reason, he had a gut feeling that there was a ticking clock involved. Maybe it was Dean's spiral and drinking, or maybe it was his own imagination, but he couldn't shake the pit in his gut that said otherwise.
When she answered the door, though, he wished he'd checked in sooner. Like, even as soon as a week after they'd left. Over the five weeks since he'd last seen her, Calla had not only dropped out of school; she'd become someone he barely recognized. Her skin was glassy, as if she was ill, and her hair looked slick as if she hadn't been bothering to wash it quite often enough, or as if she had the flu, he amended the thought, given the look of her skin. But she also smelled of alcohol, and she'd lost weight—maybe ten or fifteen pounds, if he had to guess, based on the looseness of her jeans and the look of her face.
Calla had been halfway through deciding to break her dishes instead of pack them when the knock came, and it occurred to her for one drunken moment that she could throw the plate in her hand at the door, and that that might well scare off whoever was trying to bother her. She'd already scared off her so-called friends from school, and in a fashion that hadn't been much more friendly than that... but then, she'd feel like she needed to clean up the pieces, her landlord was such a decent guy. And she didn't want the hassle.
"What do you want?" Calla stepped back from the door, knowing she was staring at Sam as if he were an alien. What had she expected? Who? Well, not him... really, she'd been pretty sure she'd never see him again, and she wasn't nearly drunk enough to think of facing the Winchesters. She cast a look behind him—no Dean—and then went to the window. Reassuring herself that Dean wasn't outside either, though she knew he wouldn't be visible if he were waiting in the car, she turned back to Sam, who still hadn't answered her question, and finally she swallowed down the nerves that had risen at the sight of him. When he didn't say anything after another few seconds went by, she shrugged and headed back to the kitchen.
She'd been packing up dishes, into moving boxes, and had been thinking about opening another bottle of wine. Seeing Sam had changed the urge. She turned instead to her fridge and pulled out the bottle of vodka from her freezer, ignoring Sam as he closed her front door and took another step into her apartment; it wasn't like he could make her life worse at this point, she figured.
"I just... thought I should check in. See if you were okay," Sam said, watching her half-fill a tall glass with vodka before splashing cranberry juice overtop of it. "I guess that answers my question," he added.
"You want some?" she asked, taking a sip of the drink. He could judge her all he wanted, but she wasn't going to apologize for drinking in the middle of the day. Not to him, anyway, and not in what was still her apartment.
"No, I'm good, thanks." As Calla turned from him and focused on a box that lay open on the floor, Sam looked around and saw how much her space itself had changed. Most of the bookcases that had before been full of books and papers were empty, if they were there at all—two of the bookcases had themselves vanished. The television was also gone, as was much of the other furniture that had filled out the space, from the table that had stood near the door on to the entertainment center and the hutch that had stood near the kitchen and displayed her wine glasses, which now sat out on her kitchen island.
"What happened?"
Calla shook her head and downed the rest of the glass of vodka and cranberry that she'd only just poured. Standing to head back to the vodka for a re-fill, she was stopped short only by Sam, who'd somehow managed to slide in between her and the fridge, and stood there blocking her way.
"Move, Sam."
"So you can fall down drunk instead of answering my question? Forget it," he told her, suddenly feeling like he was talking to his brother instead of the sweet girl he'd met just a little over a month before.
"Fine. Fuck it," Calla answered.
It took only a moment for Sam to realize that she was moving toward the wine bottles stationed neatly by her toaster, but he moved to intercept her when he did and caught her elbows in his hands, holding her still in front of him. This close, he could smell both vodka and wine on her, and feel the weight she'd lost in her arms. He ammended his earlier thought—she might have lost twenty pounds. She was falling apart.
"Fuck off!" Calla growled, fighting against his grip. Like his brother, though, he had about a foot of height on her, and too much strength for her to match. After a moment of struggling and pulling against him, she stilled and glared up at him. "I swear to God I'll call the cops if you don't let me go."
"I'm not letting you go till you tell me what the hell happened, Calla. What is this? Did you get evicted or what?"
Instead of answering, Calla leaned back against his grip, trying again to pull away until he forced her backward, pushing her onto a stool so that she had her back to her island. "Tell. Me. What. Happened."
"What, so you and Dean can laugh about how you ruined a witch's life? Fine, I said it—you ruined my life," Calla spit out. "Now why don't you leave me to it so I can drink off what I've got left?"
Sam stared at her, hearing in her words that the stubbornness he'd been encountering was starting to die off, into anger and frustration. It wasn't ideal, but maybe it would get him somewhere. He dropped his hands from her elbows and took a step backward, watching her. She was breathing harder, gritting her teeth, and he figured she was either readying herself to attack him or else fighting back tears, if not both. She was also drunk, swaying where she sat.
Calla finally looked up, meeting Sam's eyes, and worked against acknowledging that he reminded her of Dean, who she was even now wondering about. Was he waiting outside in the Impala? She hated herself for wondering. She also pushed herself to ignore the fact that what she saw in Sam's face was made up of concern. "I want you to leave," she finally said quietly. "You've done enough, and I want you to leave."
From where he was, Sam looked around the apartment. It looked as dejected and tired as the girl sitting before him, and was musty with the smell of alcohol and closed air. Everything non-essential had been packed up or moved out... except for a single magnet and sheet of paper on the fridge. Before she could move to stop him, he'd stepped to it and grabbed it, turning away from her so that he could read it even as she demanded again, a new energy in her voice, that he get out.