I am drowning in a sea of sin gazing into his hazel green eyes. We could have made beautiful children together. Chances are they would have had green eyes.
"I have news for you", he says in a melancholy tone, "Jen left me about a month ago."
My heart falls to the pit of my stomach.
I stumble for the right words, "I am so sorry for you. Are you alright? What happened? It's not because of .."
I can't complete the sentence. I am afraid to hear the answer knowing that this could be partially my fault.
He is clearly having conflicting emotions as he says, "No babe it is not because of you. We were having difficulties. Too many arguments and not enough love to hold it together."
He continues with, "Quite honestly you are the only thought that has occupied my mind since the night she left."
A far away look comes over him as he goes on, "Actually I am lying right to your face! I haven't stopped having these visions of our time together flowing through my mind, the hot tub, the shower and my lord above, the bed room."
"I am actually writing a song that will be on the next Depeche Mode cd. You will know which one it is when you hear it. When it is completed I will send you your own copy, if that is okay?"
He is sort of rambling on with excitement, "I know that what we shared was so very special but, I couldn't bring myself to call you being your situation and the complications that this ensues."
So many things are flooding my mind. My Dave is available and wants me. What will this mean to my future? So many complications, I need to put these thoughts to the back of my mind.
"So where are you taking me?" I ask him with a coy little smile.
"Let me take you on a trip" he says with a sultry little laugh.
"So really, where are you taking me?" I manage through giddy laughter.