Breakfast for two: eggs, coffee, bacon, pancakes, and Tera.
Around nine o'clock in the morning, I awoke to the smell of bacon frying. In the summer, the smell of bacon is so distinctive, and very pleasant. I felt very, sticky, sweaty and just all in all physically unclean, which is to be expected from the day and a half of fucking our brains out. So before I even went to give my love a good morning kiss, I had to get washed up first. I went into the bath-room, and started the water for a shower. I got in and started washing up. A few minutes later, Tera comes in with me. I give her a nice wet hug and a kiss on the cheek. She tells me that breakfast is done, and we can eat after we wash up.
"I was wondering when you were going to wake up."
"I'm surprised I'm up now. God, do you realize, what we did? I have never heard anyone talk about doing anything like that."
"I have, but, I just thought they were full of it. But now, wow! I'm in just as much of a shocked state as you."
"What do you want to do today?"
"I'm still recuperating. I need to just rest up." She starts to rub against me, and grabs my cock. " And who knows, what."
"Tera…Within these last few weeks, I have had more sex to last a life time."
"So……..you don't want to have sex anymore?"
"Hell no! I'm just saying,……..you know, we can cool down with it if you want."
"Yeah right!"
"Well, we can try, anyway." She looked at me and smiled.
Now being in the shower, with this beautiful, nude, willing woman and not have sex with her, was VERY hard. But I wanted to prove to myself, that I had self-control. I wanted to show that, loving her, would mean more than just jumping on her every time I see her nude. Tera, on the other hand, wanted to see how long I could hold out.
"Wash my hair for me Jay."
I took some shampoo and lathered it up in my hands. Then I started to rub it into her hair. She closed her eyes, and wrapped her arms around me. I was extremely, excited sexually. She began to grind her body into me.
"UMMMMM! RIGHT THERE. Uh, that feels sooo good."
I wanted to. God knows, I wanted to. I had to make a point, to ME!
I moved her head under the shower, and rinsed the soap out. She opened her eye, and looked at me in that seductive, devilish grin. A look of invitation, to unleash my sexual desires. But NO! I thought. NO! I am not going to do it.
My heart raced, a million miles per second. I was like a crack fiend, that was trying to quite cold turkey, and being offered an unlimited, supply of the drug. I wasn't trying to go cold turkey all of the sudden, but just curb the thirst and lust. Tera wasn't helping.
"Let me wash you."
What the HELL was I suppose to do? She moved close to me and lathered up her hands with soap. She washed my face, covering it with soap, then my neck. She took a wash cloth, and wet it then washed my face.
"Move over to shower head." She told me.
She started to wash my chest, then went down lower. She rubbed my erect cock, with her soapy hands.
"You like that?"
Oh, Lord! I thought. She knew what made me weak. She continued to rub, until I came in her hands. When I did, I screamed her name. She washed the soap of my cock, and bent down in front of me. She looked up at me, and put my cock in her mouth. "stop." I said, but didn't really mean it. "tera, stop. I can't, I don't want to."
She moved her head fasted back and forth. I pulled her hair trying to get her head off of me. she just resisted, grabbing on to my ass, going deeper and deeper.
"Tera, Stop!"
"STOP! STOP IT!" I moved back and pushed her away. She looked at me in a shocked way.
"You did like it?" She said in a very childish voice.
"Tera, I truly LOVE YOU! You don't have to do this every time we're together. I Love you."
"I know."
She got up from the shower floor, and walked over to me. She hugged me tight. Then her hand, went down in between us, and tugged on my cock..
"Oh FUCK IT!" I said.
I grabbed her up. She wrapped her legs around me. I entered her and began to pump her.
"What made me think I could resist you."
"I don't know."
I moved in and out of her. The warm water from the shower hit the side of our neck.
"God, I love you so much! Tera."
Then I just stopped. I let her down and I pulled out of her.
"Your, finished?"
"No."
She looked at me and gave me a kiss.
"Our breakfast is getting cold. Let's eat."
We stepped out of the shower, and dried each other off. I was so weak, physically. I didn't know, by not finishing the act, you could feel this way. My desires was still raging, my cock still throbbing, I still was wanting. But I knew, I would end up having self-respect and respect from Tera, because of using self control.
Breakfast did get cold, but I don't think we cared. After we ate, we laid on the coach together and watched the TV. She laid her head on my chest, and closed her eyes. I ran my hands through her hair. Then I started to rub her bare back. She turned her head and looked up at me. I leaned down and gave her a nice long kiss.
"I think I just pick a piece of bacon out of your teeth." I said
"You are so silly."
I took a deep breath in, and kissed her forehead.
"Thank you."
"For what?"
"Showing me you have self control. I like that. I like knowing, that the man I'm with, doesn’t just want me for sex. A lot of guys say that to girls, but they don’t mean it. You showed me, you mean it…………….I just have one thing to say though. Don't EVER start to make love to me. and not finish."
"Ok."
MY WORLD
I know it sounds really corny, but the four months that I have been with Tera, feels like, four years. We just clique. When we go out with friends, they are just amazed that we have only known each other for that short of a time. We hardly, ever argue and when we do, it's minor stuff.
She has given me so much, I feel. She has given me a stable emotional, and physical relationship. She has given me love. She has given me confidence in life, in dealing with myself and others. She has taught me how, to deal with and accept a person who is different.
Being with her, I have learned how to control my darkest desires. She has taught me how to display those desires properly in love and lust. I know what the differences are between love and lust now.
The sun rises and sets with her. My life revolves around her, my life is for her. I live for her. I will die for her. She IS my world.
I'm sorry
I think we pretty much have a really great relationship. Living together, we are bound to get on each others nerves. But, just when we are really getting sick of each other, she has to go away to a photo shot, or some promotional tour, somewhere half way around the world. When she gets back, we want to be with each other, and we end up making love for days at a time. This day, was different. We got into an argument over something I said. I can't even remember what it was, but she said I said it. On top of that, I moved something she asked me not to move, which pissed her off even more. Then I got mad at her, and told her that this was stupid. She then thought I was calling her stupid.
So I stormed out of the bedroom, slammed the door, and sat on the coach.
I was pissed. Not at her, but just at the situation. We have built a pretty good relationship on communicating. We, here did not do that. We just got mad. I wanted to be alone. At least for the time being.
I sat there surfing 500 channels of nothing. How can you have 500 channels and not find anything to watch? I stopped at the Fox Spanish channel. The Power Rangers Movie was on. I just stared not knowing what was going on, not understanding a word.
I heard the bedroom door open, and I saw Tera's reflection moving to me in the television. She walked up behind me and kissed my neck. I acted like I didn't know she was there.
"I'm sorry. I found what I was looking for, and realized I moved it when I was cleaning up. I also apologize for blowing what you said out of proportion."
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I SAID! I thought. I wasn't going to say that out loud.
"Jay, don't make me feel worse than I already feel."