Please note that this is eroticism expressed solely on my personal opinion. It in no way expresses the opinion of Joss Whedon or the UPN network, it is meant truly as fiction and is not intended to be expressive of any of the networks shows.
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Setting: Buffy's bedroom and kitchen
"You're making an amazing attempt here and I have to give you credit for it, however you know that this will never work."
"We can't be together Spike and you know this."
Buffy knew that deep down in her slayer heart of hearts she had always felt this way and as she practiced her speech in the mirror she noticed that even as she spoke the words that she was meant to deliver to Spike the next time she "bumped" into him, that the word's seemed very difficult for her to utter. Could it be that she knew that the words weren't true? She really didn't feel this way about Spike, she really enjoyed being around him, his company made her feel warm, and comfortable. But he was a vampire for God's sake, the very vermin that she was meant to slay, to rid the earth of on a daily basis. And for that reason, and that reason alone she knew she had to end it.
Willow was in the kitchen making pancakes when Buffy walked in.
"Hey Buff, I'm making chocolate chip pancakes, do you want some? I know that Tara and Dawnie love these so I got up really early today to make them, even though I know I'm not a great cook, we could use some happiness around here. Have you noticed how "dark" this house happens to be lately? I swear the last time...
"Ok Willow you're rambling which means that something is up, that you have to tell me something and you're beating around the bush, so just come out with it." Buffy knew Willow so well in fact that she already KNEW what she was going to say before she even said it. She knew this was about Spike, and how close Buffy and he had gotten lately, Willow notices everything, and I guess that's just the Wicca way.
"Ok Buff, I have to admit that I have noticed that Spike has been coming around A LOT lately. I saw you 2 in the hallway last week and I thought that he was going to bite you and it really scared me and then I saw you well I saw you, oh you know...I saw you ummm I saw HIM kiss you, and that was well... it was strange. Is there something going on that you wanted to talk about? I mean Spike! Spike, Buffy, of all people, of all vampires even..."
"Ok Willow I get it, you're concerned, and you have every right to be, but haven't you ever been attracted to someone, I mean really attracted to someone that you thought you could NEVER have and then one day...you could?" Buffy become easily aroused just thinking about the first time that she and Spike made love, her nipples became very erect and she noticed Willow noticing them too, so she quickly grabbed the newspaper to cover herself. " I just don't know what it is about him Willow but he makes me feel really, really comfortable, it's a feeling that I've not felt since....well... since Angel."
WOW Spike, Willow thought that Buffy must be crazy thinking that it would ever work out between she and him. Her thoughts continued.... he's the purest form of Vampire, he doesn't even have a soul, at least Angel had a soul, I mean I really have to find out exactly what she wants from him and let her know that she HAS to end this, before it gets too deep... Hey I'm glad Tara will never intentionally hurt me, oh crap the pancakes....
"Well Buff, I won't tell the other's so there's no worry there, but just be careful. I mean Spike doesn't even have a soul, yet, and he's potentially dangerous, I mean well.. he IS dangerous, and you just never know when he might be going in for the kill...and then well... then there'd be no more Buffy and well that just makes me sad..."
Willow's rambling again and I'm not even hearing her, because all I can think about is how Spike makes me feel, his hot tongue on my nipples, licking and sucking and making me feel so hot that I just can't stand it anymore. He really knows how to touch me, not even Angel could move his tongue that sensually. Spike makes me hotter than Angel ever did, in ways that Angel will never be able to. I know that sexually I'm supposed to be with Spike, emotionally though, now that's another story. Maybe there's a way I can compromise, even though the rest of the gang will NEVER understand.
"Hey Willow I've got to run, I'm late..."
"Ok Buffy, have a great day. Tara and I are going to work on that spell to get rid of that nasty little demon that showed up last night. But you wouldn't know about him because you missed patrolling AGAIN last night."
"Ok but I have a good excuse, how can I help it, I was getting eaten out by the most awesome vamp in the whole world, so do you blame me?"
"Buffy, that's a BIT more than I need to know...EWWW, with Spike? Sheesh, wait is he really good at that? Maybe he could give me some pointers... ("
"EWWW Willow....YUCK I've got to run, see you tonight. Make sure Dawnie gets to school ok, thanks, have a great day."
Setting: Sunnydale High School Guidance Office
"Thank you for calling Sunnydale High this is Buffy, how can I help you?"
"Well for starters you can tell me what color your underwear are."
"Who is this? This is not funny, tell me who you are..."
"I am who you want me to be, the one that makes you hot just from one single stare. The one that wants to eat your pussy for breakfast, lunch and dinner, the one that longs to be kissed by you, to feel your sweet lips on my cock at the end of a long day fighting demons...."
"Spike? Ok Spike, stop it, you're making me VERY hot and I'm working..."
"So quit working and meet me in an hour at the spot, you know the one, and I'll make you feel like you're the only girl in the world that deserves to be fucked by me, oh and wear those white cotton panties with the little cherries on the front so that I can rip them off of you love. See you then...."
"Spike, not so fast. I think we need to talk about something when we meet today, I have some things I need to discuss with you."