"Buffy, honey it's been a while since we've been together. Do you want to right now?" His hands went around and traveled up to cup her breasts. She flinched at his touch. She couldn't believe that he was taking things so lightly. She just thought that losing their child meant nothing to him.
"I can't Riley. I don't know when I'll be able to. I just can't do this now."
Riley couldn't believe how she was reacting. She didn't want him touching her intimately. He had this feeling that she was cheating on him.
"Buffy, are you seeing someone?" She turned around and looked at him.
"How could you think that? I love you Riley. I thought you'd understand since this was our first child that passed away."
"I'm sorry, honey. I didn't mean to sound like a jerk. Take all the time you need. I'll be there for you every step of the way," he said hugging her to him. Though the thought that haunted him was that Buffy finding out about his affair with Darla.
~*~*~*~*~*
Angel was sleeping in only his boxers, tossing and turning throughout the night. He couldn't get Buffy out of his mind, that it driving him insane. He envisioned himself kissing her endlessly and never letting her leave his embrace. Somehow his dream almost seemed so real to the point that he could smell vanilla permeating from her delicate skin.
He woke up in a sweat and headed over to his table and turned his lamp on. As he looked at the clock and it read two forty-eight a.m. He definitely has to change some things in his life. The first one being was getting rid of Buffy Summers out of his mind. Angel made a promise to himself that starting tomorrow morning, no more thoughts of Buffy.
~*~*~*~*~*
Buffy was starting to feel a bit better. She'd let Riley hold her at night and kiss her, but that's as far as it went. She still felt that if they tried for another child, the same situation would occur. Those thoughts have plagued her for quite a while. The only thought that brought a smile to her face was her doctor, Angel. She clearly remembered what he said that Riley would understand. 'I guess the good doctor was right. He does understand.'
~*~*~*~*~*
Buffy had cases right and left. Her workload had increased drastically from the time of the accident. She was grateful that she had help. It looked like as if she was never going to stop working. So Buffy decided to take the cases home with her and Riley would give her a back rub.
As she made it to the driveway of their home, she spotted Riley's car. 'Great! I can surprise him.' She made her way up the stairs and was about to open the bedroom door, but instead she heard moaning. 'What's that?' Buffy opened the door and it revealed a blonde haired woman moaning on top of Riley.
"Oh!" Buffy said loud enough for the couple to disentangle themselves. Both of them turned and saw Buffy's face turned completely white.
Buffy ran down the stairs, out the door and sat on the porch. She was in a state of shock. Total shock. She just couldn't believe the sight she'd seen with her own eyes. That's when it really hit her and the tears were flowing down her cheeks. Her eyes were all puffy and red. She kept on crying, but stopped to wipe her tears away and heard the door open. Riley placed his hand on her shoulder.
"Don't," she said not facing him.
"Buffy, let me…"
"I told you I don't want to hear it. I can't believe that you'd do this to me. What did I do? Since when did you stop loving me that you had to sleep with that slut? How could you do this to me? To us?" she said raising her hands up in the air. She felt such betrayal from a man that made vows to cherish her and to love her.
Riley had no idea what to say to Buffy. It was true though; she hadn't done anything to harm him. He harmed her. This could be the end of their marriage. That's the last thing he wanted. He still loved Buffy dearly.
"So what are we going to do?" he asked.
"Well, I for one am not spending the night here. I'll just get a couple things from upstairs and I'll be out of your way," Buffy said without even making any eye contact.
