There was never any doubt in my mind what my true feelings were. I never would've admitted it to anybody, since I've always been shy, but whenever I looked at the cover of that first CD a friend bought me, my heart did a skip and (as long as no one else was around) I couldn't help grinning like an idiot. I was sure I had the biggest celebrity crush in the history of the world.
Part of why I never would've admitted it was because I figured my crush on Taylor Swift was schoolgirl-silly. I mean, there I was, a supposedly mature college student, and I could drool over a huge, desktop picture of her and her curly blonde hair for hours. I fantasized about meeting her, but it wasn't until she popped into my head while I was masturbating that I realized my feelings were stronger than just a casual crush. At that moment of realization, I had no idea that things would get much, much more interesting in just a few months.
One of my roommates, Sarah, revealed herself to be the best friend of a huge Taylor Swift fan two days before she was supposed to go to a concert with that friendβand Sarah was too sick to do more than lay in bed and cough. I had met her friend a few times, and she seemed nice. But I was really surprised when Sarah offered me the ticket she could no longer use.
"Come on Katie," she said between sniffles. "I know you're a closet T-Swizz fan." I blushed, and it took a little more cajoling, but I finally accepted the ticket. When I looked at it, my mouth fell open in surprise.
"Sarah I can't take this! This isn't just a ticketβit's a backstage pass! You should just sell this to someone who really wants it." Sarah smiled.
"C'mon, you should go. Jenny would really like to go with someone, and even though you guys haven't hung out much, you'll enjoy it much more than I ever would have." I thanked her and went to my room, trying to wrap my head around the thought of meeting Taylor in person. When the memory of my last masturbation fantasy about her crossed my mind, I blushed bright red and wondered if I could ever really face her.
The concert venue was packed, and people were constantly trying to crowd closer to the stage. Jenny, of course, had paid to be right in front of the stage. In the very front row was not where I wanted to be. How was my heart supposed to handle the excitement of seeing Taylor sing and dance a few feet away from me? I only felt out of place until she showed up on stage, however. When she appeared, everyone freaked out, and the fact that I did too didn't stand out. I jumped and yelled with the rest of the audience, and was having the best time.