Book 2, Chapter 25 -- Daughter
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We were on our way to collect the Reaper IFF was an ancient Reaper, that had apparently been disabled and destroyed millions of years ago. After the debacle with the Collector ship, I wasn't exactly willing to trust the Illusive Man not to send us into another trap, considering he told us that contact had been lost with the research team that he'd sent there before us. I knew immediately that the Reaper probably wasn't dead and that they'd been indoctrinated. Two plus two equals four.
Considering our position, it was a two to three-day journey there, so I held a meeting with the entire team, and I was honest with them. We were heading to a Reaper. The science team had gone silent, and I suggested indoctrination or they were dead. We would be parking up, heading in fast and getting out even quicker. No hanging around, no researching, we get the IFF and get the fuck out.
And I was taking everyone, as I simply didn't trust going onto a Reaper, nor did I particularly trust the Illusive Man. But we needed an IFF and this was likely the best and only one to get one. The last warning I gave was that, if anyone had something they needed doing, they come to me immediately or at least before we reach the Reaper. After that, I was going to have it installed, we'd head to Illium for a last chance relax, and then we'd head for the Omega Four.
Once the meeting was finished, I did my usual round of making sure everyone was okay with everything. Jacob was definitely in the right frame of mind, eager to finally take the fight to the Collectors. Mordin was hoping to do some more research regarding the Collectors. I'd sent what we learned about them to Liara, and she was appalled to know they'd once been Protheans. Miranda was... Well, every time I walked in her office now, she'd greet me with a hug. We were definitely a lot closer now. Kasumi would always want a cuddle, and she'd added a nice kiss to her greeting nowadays. Grunt just wanted to kill things. Zaeed admitted he was looking for it being all over. Tali was as committed as ever...
Then there was Jack. She was usually the last one I visited, simply because she was at the bottom of the ship. We hadn't had sex in a long time now, the last time being that night which Kelly had organised where I'd ended up enjoying sex with a number of women in one night. That afternoon, she was sat on the edge of her bed, as she'd got rid of the cot, wanting to live in a modicum of comfort. Each day, she was getting better with her issues. I didn't ask her as many questions as before as she spoke enough to Chakwas and other people. I think the concoction of drugs she was on also help. Not bad drugs, the good sort that helped her and, one day, she might be able to get off them and live as normal a life as possible. That was the hope.
Sitting down next to her, she immediately leaned into me, so I wrapped an arm around her. At moments like that, the size difference between us was staggering. She was sometimes so small, and when she was nervous, she seemed even smaller. "Nervous?" I asked quietly.
"Terrified. I don't trust them, Shepard. You know it's a trap, right? Another one?"
"That's why I said we all go, we take the IFF, and we get the fuck out. More importantly, no-one gets left behind."
"Not like you to admit fear."
"It's one of the things I've been told will help. Embrace my emotions and have no fear in admitting how I really feel. I can't just be all about hate and anger. Plus..." She looked up and grinned. "You were right about me, in a way. Underneath it all was a scared little girl."
"Yeah, but I was also being a bastard at the time."
"True, but I was also pushing your buttons. I guess we were both bastards. But you pushed me in the right direction." She paused a moment. "I've been thinking about what I'd like to do after this."
"Yeah?"
"I'm feeling better, Shepard. Not perfect, I'll never be that, but I think I'm slowly getting there. And what I want to do is help kids like me. Talented biotics who need some sort of role model."
"Sounds like you're learning words such as empathy."
"I'm not the only one who has had a shit life, Shepard. Plenty of kids out there have had it rough. I'm not special, I just had it particularly bad."
"You've come through it better than I think anyone could have expected, Jack."
She looked up at me again. "Thanks to you, Shepard."
"I helped a little bit. You've done most of the work, Jack. The difference in you from when we first met."
"There is one thing I really want though, Shepard."
"Name it."
"Can you... give me a really good fuck?"
"Are you sure?"
"I'm in a good place, Shepard. And I've asked Chakwas, and she said I can now approach sex in a better way. There are two reasons why I'm asking. One, it's you. I like you, Shepard. Two, I want it hard and rough, but it's what I want."
"Okay, so what do you want me to do?"
She stood up and quickly undressed herself. So fast, I blinked in surprise, which made her giggle. She never giggled, at least before, though I'm sure my face was priceless. Yet, once she was naked, she turned... a little shy. It was actually rather cute before she put a knee to either side of me, sitting on my lap. Jack when we met would have just slammed her mouth into mine. The Jack currently on sitting me moved towards me slowly, the first kiss tentative, before it quickly deepened, but she didn't just jam her tongue into my mouth, she did it... well, the word I can think of is sensual.
Running my hands up and down her back, I found scars, whether they were medical or old wounds. I traced my fingers along them, and it made her smile as she kissed me. Pulling her tight to my body made her squeal as I rolled her back onto the bed. Breaking apart, she simply gazed at me with those big brown eyes of hers. When we met, they'd been filled with nothing but hate and anger. Now, there was curiosity, definitely intelligence, and even understanding.
And a lot of desire.
"Shepard?" she asked quietly.
"Yeah?"
"Can you make me cum first?"
"Ah, would you like my face between your legs?" That made her crack up laughing. Must have been how I asked. "Well, I think that's a good way to start, Jack." I leaned down to hear. "Then I'm going to fuck you so hard, you'll pass out. I will stop, of course." I felt her arms and legs wrap around me, simply giving me a hug before she released me.